It's never hurt like this before. I physically ache. Because you're not around.
Anytime I do something in my regular routine now, all I can think about is how it was with you around.
Being held under the warm water. Having help making my bed. Someone to share doing dishes with. Even just getting ready while you were reading.
It just felt right. Like I said, as though you'd always been there.
I haven't posted here in a long time and right now it feels like I need to get this out right now. Somewhere to get this out so that every night I don't feel like crying. It can be anything that tips it off but it happens. Usually doesn't last long, which is good? I'm not sure.
I'm trying.
I've started to look at everything as though once I get one task done, I'm somehow closer to feeling together again.
53 days, but who's counting?
I miss cuddling before falling asleep.
