A Few Weeks

Sometimes I think this is it. That this is all I'll ever have. Sometimes I hope this is all I'll ever have. Somedays are the best days of my life. Sometimes I'm so happy it brings tears.

Than something happens and I wonder if I'm settling for this. If I'll settle for this. If saying no is the right answer. If I should have let it go what feels like forever ago. I wonder how many people are telling me the truth about this.

Is that happiness?

She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time.