In fact life has been interesting lately.
People have been leaving. Many said they realized before they left that those who reached out to say goodbye, stood out.
I had dinner the past two nights, with possibly my two closest friends. Great evenings with both. They are so great to me. It proves you don't need to surround yourself with people to be happy.
Went to a club for the first time two weeks ago. This is how adventurous my life is.
Decided to move out last Thursday. Also. I'm moving out Sunday. Gave myself about eleven days to pack up my life. To cancel anything I had to my life.
Have I mentioned I decided in May to apply for a program where I would live in Italy from October to December? No... Interesting.
I'm most worried about taking the train by myself. Not eating by myself in Zurich, or fighting with my Prato roommates. I'm worried about missing my train, or taking the wrong train, or getting totally lost.
In five days I will officially be homeless. Well in Vancouver. It feels fantastic. I am so happy. I don't even care that I have no idea where I will live come January. It doesn't matter. It just matters that I got myself out of this situation. I want a clean break from both of you.
Tonight at dinner I said, "I know one can never truly have a fresh start, but this feels like as close as I'll ever get."
My friend said, "No, this is your fresh start. I am so excited for you and you have worked so hard. You deserve this."
It felt great to hear that.
The boyfriend surprised me by showing up twelve hours earlier than I had anticipated. I am head over heels. I know I'm young. We're young. But I cannot imagine not talking to him everyday. No matter what happens, I hope we always get to talk. An amazing weekend.
Today I realized. I get to kiss you Christmas morning. I love Christmas. I love saying next time I'll see you in Milan.
Although it's been a crazy life recently. I'm where I should be. I'm the happiest I've been in awhile.
I hope you're proud Ma. I miss you.
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