It's raining on Prom Night...

Well kinda, not really. Why does life have to be so difficult for such amazing people who would never harm a thing. There just seems to be so much greed and unfair actions in the world. One second your on this huge high and the next there's been a fight and there's empty tears draining on a pillow. Today was that day where you just want to stand on a table in the cafeteria and just tell the world to fuck off. (scuze the language) It just seems for every ten steps you finally move ahead in life, you'll always be pushed back 30 steps. I can't stand the pushing anymore and if that's going to continue you're going to have to drag me back. Things are just so incredibly ridiculous. Just you wait till June 17th. I'm now counting the days, so I can finally say what I need to say.

Worry consumes me....

I don't understand why it all works like this. But the way you enter, the way you look, just screams help. I'm so lost in this worry I don't know what to do. You won't let me in and I have no clue what's going on with you. Can't you see this is me caring about you. Some wise words were shared today, "If your house was in a flood and your house flooded but your tree was tall enough to save you who you gonna thank??... obviously the tree. And right now your his tree." It was beautiful and in a pure moment and it made everything come together. I think I get it now, but then again will we ever get anything? Can we ever understand what another person feels? Another intelligent thing was spoken of, "Did you ever consider that maybe you reassuring him your ok will help him?" Her words of wisdom astound me. She grounds me to such a level, it is jaw dropping. I'm trying to figure out how I can help you. All this was really was supposed to say is that I realize what an impact you have on me and I have the human instint to help you and it's killing me to be held back. but I'm here, waiting for you, I'm willing to get you through this. I'm willing to be your tree.

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4 a.m.

Alright, so I'm used to getting text messages from friends while I'm sleeping. Usually the random ones stop at 2am and then begin again at 9am. But I got one the other morning at 4:17 a.m. It was from my friend who has been kind of 'off' recently. Anywho it said, "Goodbye.................." And yes with that many periods. Well it's really worried me and he didn't reply to any of my texts but he was talking to this other girl and she was all he's having problems with his girlfriend and/or family. I still have no clue what's going on and I'm really worried about that sonofabitch. What just clued into my brain now, when I wrote 4a.m. as the subject title I remembered the day before that we both had been singing and talking about Our Lady Peace. And for those of you who haven't clued in yet, let me help you out.



I walked around my good intentions
and found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
we hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong

If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
just like sunny days that
we ignore because
we're all dumb & jaded
and I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong

I walked around my room
not thinking
just sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much
like somebody else
I never thought I would just
bend this way
then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong

40 POSTS

Well since this will be my 40th post I shall not whine or complain here. Oh no siree! Instead I will bless you with beautiful lyrics that I quite enjoy. Oh updatey! I found a blue notepad to put them all in.... However, it is getting kind of full....

Summer ended all to soon
Jenny got lost in what if's
The boy she thought she knew
Had no second thoughts
About leaving her in the dust
He left Jenny empty
But Jenny could just not
Let him go

Yeah we're all worried
And we all try to help
But the stories to familiar
We'll never save her
Jenny must drown
So she can finally see what was
Was never meant to be

The sea salt smell
Stains her skin
The soft cool breeze
Reminds her of better days
She refrains and gasps for air
But the Jenny we knew
Won't be able to make it
Out alive

Chorus

Her smile barely visible
We encourage Jenny's strength
But the cure is unavailable
For a destroyed and lonely heart

Chorus

Jenny you will never forget
The summer breeze
You can't restart
Just keep on living
Jenny


(Best cover of any song ever, this kid rocks my friggin socks!)

Everything's Alright

Yes, this is what I do in Spansih and Math class, I write lyrics..... still looking for a more organized creative space......erggg....

Say my name once more
Your voice calms the anger
The pain I wish could vanish
Is swept away in your eyes

1...2... Breathe
You make everything alright
My collapse is bitter sweet
I'm scared to show my weakness
But then you save me
And it's all ok...

You ask for my hand
I can't help but tremble at your touch
Easily you pick me up
Then dust me off
I can no longer be so useless

1...2... Breathe
You make everything alright
My collapse is bitter sweet
I'm scared to show my weakness
But then you save me
And it's all (ok...)

Your head shakes
As your expression goes blank
I can't help but breathe
And take a step away...
From you

1...2... Breathe...
I can make everything alright
Your collapse is bitter sweet
I've finally found your weakness
And I can't help but be stronger
And it's all okay
1...2... Breathe...

Ugh....

Ok so here's my life story and oh is it not fun! Ok sooooo........ Slightly behind at school. Ok totally behind in Musical Theater! I need to learn 4 dances and remember the other songs and learn my lines! AHHH!!!!! Freaking? Just a little!
To make the situation a few notches worse! I got elastics today for my braces and they're a total pain!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!! Oh well I only have to wear them for like a month.... phew..... HOPEFULLY! Or else I will cause mass destruction!
Oh and I have an ear infection which is soooooo not cool, and I will now discuss it with you in gross details..... So It hurts, it like throbs and I can only slightly hear out of it so everything sounds a little muffled. I have to take anitbiotics for it which is alright but I also have to take ear drops.....ewwwiiiiieeeee!!!!!!! I have to lie down for like half an hour with them in my ear and then when I stand up it drips out! EEWWWW!!!!!!!! Yeah cuz apparently my eardrum is like full of puss! EWWW!!!! Oh and the doctor couldn't figure out how I got one and apparently its very uncommon with people my age. Oh and then when I open my mouth to wide or cough or sneeze it hurts even more and when I blow my nose, I can hear bubbles in my ear! SO GROSS!!!!! I would not even wish this upon my worst enemy! Totally worse then Chinese water torture! Alright I'll be back with a new blog with lyrics..... be right back! *tries to unclog ear but fails*

Thank you WORLD!

ok slightly sarcastic slightly not. You know how it is. Let's start with Stock, I learned All Shook Up with Ian so I kinda got that down now. Now I just need to get Beauty School Dropout.
Well today in Musical Theater some interesting things happened. We'll just say we got no work done and we started dancing instead and chasing each other around. It was a lot of fun. Like ridiculously. So they wrote the script to join them all together and I have one of the lead acting roles and I had a dream that I got that, which is sooooo weird. But oh, just you wait folks, it gets weirder. So I'm apparently in love with both Auz and Andrew. *smacks forehead* and Apparently Auz's character stalks me when we stop seeing each other for a little bit...... oh bugger....
Alrighty saw Myles at the mall and now he's avoiding me? errr.... Awkward. Anywho....
EXHIBIT A IS A PAIN IN MY BUM! He wrote all over my pencil box and scratched out my ID card.... And then I totally walked right into him because he kept stopping infront of me. which was errrrr how does one say...... AWKWARD! *hammer time* ok so exhibit A is totally amazing, shut up!
I think I'm good now. Oh *insert death glare from Adgie* Did she read my beautiful song? I hope so....

Happy Birthday My ex-best friend!

I miss you
The person I used to know
Ednless nights
Reckless times
Undefeated by the world
We continued going
Boy were the shouts at us loud
But we easily remembered
How much better we are than them

Our tune has changed
The lyrics different
Our paths barely crossing
Seeing you for seconds
Brings back hours of thoughts

Secrets passed from me to you
Now you still hold them
But I can't talk to you.
I hope you'll see what's happened
Friendship lies in waste
The words I wanna yell
Just seem to far away
For now they remain thoughts

Our tune has changed
The lyrics different
Our paths barely crossing
Seeing you for seconds
Brings back hours of thoughts

I remember we were unstoppable
We would swap life stories
We were the girls with the band

Our tune has changed
The lyrics different
Our paths barely crossing
Seeing you for seconds
Brings back hours of thoughts

Still don't have it....

I don't have time to write about all the amazing things that I experienced at camp yet. So I was going to give you some lyrics...... but....... I CAN'T FIND THE ONES THAT WERE THE BEST AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE THEY ARE!!!! AHHH!!!!!!!! ok, I'm going to have some for Friday for this person.....
Anywho, so here's some ones that arn't as great as the ones that are lost.... *note to self find a creative place to keep my mess in a single space like Jakes...

I loved every minute that we spent together
But now we got stuck in bad weather
I got tired of you
And you stopped caring for me
I didn't like this tune
So it's time for me to leave soon.
Yeah it's time for me to leave soon.
I have to make my own choices
and go my own way.
I can't keep listening to
What you have to say
Cause I'm tired of me
And I'm so sick and tired of you
Why can't I just start brand new?
The words you told me don't mean anything
Those were lies
Right from the beginning
Now we've reached the end
And your lies are left behind
Running through my head
Left me wondering if anything was real
Now I'm done with us
Because I'm definately done with you.

Here we are again....

Yeah so the blogs have been kinda lazy. Well I've been away for a week. I'll update you on the whole thing later. Also I have some lyrics to post, their not finished but they're something. Err.... Was singing phantom of the opera the other day and now my throat hurts. It sucks! Also it sucks immensly cause I'm singing for my English Project on Thursday. Saturday is going to be crazy, I have four things going on at the same time! Its rondukulus! Oh well, must sacrifice for what you want. SILENT RAVE YO!
ooo... I'm thinking about doing a benefit concert thingy for Josh but I'll also blog about that later.
Back to pretending to be doing english.... ladeda....