So... Everyone was away on Friday, leaving me to fend for myself. With Ian and his huggy mood. Like don't touch my hair, don't wrap your arms around me, don't lean on me and definately don't make it look like I'm the one coming on to you, for that is definately not the case. I can handle it then as friends but I don't handle it well after the fact. I need a break. I'm so glad we leave in 10 days. Then I'll have 15 days just to breathe and be somewhere I want to be. By then the play stuff will be over, I won't have to see him and Jill, I won't have to stay up worrying about my friends, talking him off the cliff every night. I give so much to so many people but sometimes I don't think they notice that and appreciate it. Like is it all that much to ask for? I don't think so. I'm so glad first semester is almost over. It always brings out the crazy in me. I'm really glad we're almost done the write-up, hopefully we can meet with hologram lady on Wednesday. That would be really good. Also I need sleep and Dexter. I think Dexter's the only sane person I know. Maybe I just need to lie down, feel it all, and see the happy place that reminds me of Shawn. I miss that guy, so much, I wonder if I can find him on Facebook!
The beach, the boat, the sun, the misty spray, your smile. Its all there.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHmrPuCuefs
Love,
All you've ever wanted but realized a lot too late.
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