The Angst That Is MBF

My bags are all packed now.
And we can't afford the rent.
And I can barely sleep the night.
Dream about brand new spaces and brand new faces yeah...
Since meeting Michael I don't think any of us has considered the actual meanings of his songs. The fact that he lived in Australia for a year explains so much.
I've decided I'm going to move to Australia. It just sounds like such a happy place.
I think I'm more excited about being able to leave all of this behind and not feel bad about the strings that get cut along the way. I need the fresh new start.
Life would be easy then...
Then I will quit this dead end job. Tell this city I won't be forgotten.
Press filled days and tuxedo nights.
And you'll see my name in lights...
One just needs to recognize that the world is basically good. That we are all truly working for the common good whether we notice it or not. And that maybe we should have a lot more optimism in our lives than usual.
Maybe now I don't want you there. Because I know that you won't be there at the end. So why should you be here now? That was something we had and letting that come between it, quite frankly is ballz.
And you'll see...
I get rilled up. And then I just turn on these words. After talking to you I felt like such an idiot by saying it makes me happy. But the truth is, it does. When you looked up and saw me, that smile was the most genuine thing I had felt in a long time. Your smile is contagious. And reaaaaallllyyyy pretty.
People seem tot hink they understand you but I don't really think they do. That makes me feel not sorry for you, but I'm just not sure. You're amazing and will one day change the world.
Trust your art.
I don't want it to be a nuisance, I want it to help.
There's still no one to tell every single aspect of everything to. It's weird isn't it? I like talking. And usually I don't want the person to know but I just want to talk. Like the other day, and how you looked at me today and how I basically just can't even look at your or acknowledge your existance. I'm a little messed up. Ask every other guy.
I feel most days like I'm on this totally other dimension than everyone else. Much like most people are living on this singluar thin piece of life but there are also the few people that are living on the top half that is rich with fulfillment. I feel like I'm on the top half. But it just stretches so wide that I'm not really sure where all of the other people are who are living on it. I got days though. When I know that you're on that level to.
I say things most days that should probably stay as my inside voice. But mostly around you the things I think might need to be said aloud.
If you didn't dress like that two months ago, you're a poser.
Stop being a bitch.
Interesting advice. I took that advice way back in like March. We see where that got us.
Stop dragging yourself back into my life.
Hope it don't seem like I need you.
One moment your hitting an artist on the head, the next your talking about appropriate food eating hats. This basically explains my life.
Jarred makes me laugh. He should stop calling me babe. Honestly. Debating about going to his show. Meh.
You know I'm extremely priviledged but you just seem to bring it down. Your that friend. You know the one that is just constantly not being a positive force. Yeah that's you. Basically. All wrapped up in a nasty ham and swiss sandwhich.
MBF is like a Holy Grill Pacific Panini. Mbf and mbf. Both of them are.
He says to improv he says to make it up.
I seriously don't htink you know who I am. Hahaha. It's great.
Apparently Aiden knows. Very weird. Huh.
You know Tom Wilson...
What could be so bad?
Just like you said, how can we complain. Everyone's healthy. And we're living the music. I disagree about the cigarette. But more water definately.
I'm about to get so busy. And I'm avoiding the SFU website at the moment. I really need to get on with early reg. Barf. Except not really.
I almost told you today. When you asked about that. I almost said well I have it. Really need to watch self more carefully.
Lists are really good. FYI. Really need to wrok on proposal but jsut so tired and room is just so disorganized for focus to occur. Sigh...
So much work so little time. We sleep when we die. At least that's what they tell me.
When will this aching of the jaw go away. Stupid cute dentist, whose name is not Noah.
I should have bought that dress. It totally would be the thing to wear to the party. I think I'm getting ahead of myself. What should I wear Sunday? Tuesday? and potentially Friday?
I think we should just jet off to Van next weekend and chill with Billy. That would be so rad.
I love seafood. Then move to Vancouver. Oh wait you are. HAHAHAHAHA.
I love classes with L. Nothing gets accomplished.
I love sing-a-longs
I really don't want you there now. :( Doh.
Oh Michael why is this song the most amazing song ever.... Sigh...
Back on already bruised knees.
It's weird calling him Michael but I kind of like it.
As you can tell I'm really digging his tunes today.
Was also really digging The Academy Is... earlier. And those albums I stole from A specifically.
Mistakes so easy to make.
Leaving and watching your wandering eyes.
Always remember the look on your face...
I think I'm getting the Berry tomorrow. Which reminds me that I need to look at packages and make sure I can still get pic texts. Because those are vital.
I don't want this to be useless. Things need meaning. This is the meaning of life. Look around you. It's here. The meaning. Stop looking.
Love,
I'm not like them, I won't buy in. Take back everything you said, you never meant a word of it. You never did.
Or that she ever really mattered. Did she ever really matter?
Also Hi I'm Jordy. *dies*