Life returns and it hits hard...

Ugh the return of life, let's try and ignore it a bit longer shall we?
So I've started enjoying babysitting Jayda and Noah, they're really ood kid and very self sufficient unlike my brother who's 10 and they're under the age of 7. It's great! *barf*
I went to Chinook today and it was disgusting, I feel like I've been living on another planet all this time. Spending time at rehearsal, shows and downtown is much different then 'rich' suburbia. *Note the air qoutes. I miss all the down to earth people and now I return to the poser ambrecrombie humping idiots. I hate it a lot. Tomorrow is school regestration, sigh..... I definately do not want to go. Oh well I'm telling myself Centennial has to be the thorn in my life, or else everything will be roses which is clearly what life is not about.

"Close up on Roger, his girlfriend April left him a note saying we've got AIDS. Before slitting her wrists in the bathroom."

I'm so stoked for RENT! I'm glad I'm going back, it's my rose.

The Louder The Weaker...

Nothing seemsloud enouh for me these days. Things need to be loude, and they won't go louder. Songs on't touch e the ameway they ued to, I usd to freak over the guitar solo in Love Stoned by Justn Timberlake because t was so good, now 'e got nothing. No sweate, or blanket is wrm enough. No ice crem is cold enough. No movie maes me want to get ou of m seat and cheer anymore. Everything seems to have lost its sparkle, maybe its because I'm going back to school, it's how it always is at chool. You retrea ba into that nervus allflower, and then you catchyour suroundings again and you find your niche and it works and you fit. This year I really want to work on expanding on what I can do in my niche. School seems neverending and this year I had the great obstacle of seeing people go through the fear at what happens after highschool and I saw a lot of people excel at the oppurtunity. Oh and I'm going to see Hedley again and my keeyboard had a meltdown and some of the eys are sticking and pop ups keep popping up everytime I open a new window, I'm so frustrated. The only thing that has gone through my wall recently is what I leave you with...

I miss all the little things...

I had a very calm day today, and I rally enjoyed it, I haven't felt like this in a really long time. I woke up and Becca was here and last night we talked a lot which felt really good, because me and her never have moments like that. Then I cleaned the house a little bit, watered the plants, took a shower, had a fruit smoothie for breakfast. I decided the only thing that could make htis better would be to enjoy the day. So since it was just nice outside and not extremely hot, I sat in the backyard enjoying the cool breeze, my book and the music. Then I got lost in the music and travelled too deep into the happy place and now it just hurts. It's a good hurt though. It's a "Hey jessica you're alive" hurt.

Oh reply back from matt, made me laugh, he didn't seem to angry about it, especially since its not my ault which I explained to him. It's good.

I'm very calm right now and I like it, but it just hurts.

This is all you need to know...

Tell me now your words never meant me harm.. says:
its taken me a few days
Tell me now your words never meant me harm.. says:
but this is the conclusion i have come to
Elaine. says:
yes
Elaine. says:
here's my theory
Tell me now your words never meant me harm.. says:
uhoh
Tell me now your words never meant me harm.. says:
hahahha
Elaine. says:
so god, moses and allah were all partyin' it up, smokin' some weed and banging some hoes, and then god's all like, "HEY GUYS, YOU KNOW THAT FAGTRON 4000 ELAINE? GUESS WHAT I DID TO HER... LOLOLOLOL I KNOW WASN'T THAT AWESOME?" and Allah was like "OH YEAH WELL I BOMBED OVER 9000 OF YOUR FAGGOTASS CHRISTIANS, I BET I CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT TO SOMEONE'S LIFE" and moses was like "lol *pops cap*" and God was like "FUCK YOU, JUST TO PROVE I CAN RUIN LIVES, I'M GONNA DO THE SAME SHIT TO THAT JESSICA CHICK. IT'S LIKE, BAM. DOUBLE HEADSHOT. HAHAHAHAHAHA" and then they all did shots
Elaine. says:
because that's totally what relgious figures do in their spare time
Tell me now your words never meant me harm.. says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

It may sound offensive but Elaine said it, not eye.

GALA!

So we get all dressed up and sexy and then go to the Martha Cohen Theater and get our pictures taken and get little snacks and then we dance till like 12:30. Then our ride to Kyle's was quite the adventure. Elaine was screaming, I was laughing and singing RENT at the same time, I clearly gots skillz.... So we get there, and only Alumni have shown up so ar, eventually everyone files in, but knowing me I have to get all edgy waiting for him to come through the door, because I'm clearly a tard. So my mommy brings us pizza and non-alcoholic drinks that I think Joel was the only one to appreciate them, Keifer probably did too.
So the night is pretty uneventful till i discover Drunk Shea which could be the greatest thing ever. A drunk gay guy is absolutely amazing. All he did was giggle and say you and point. At one point after I had tackled him so he wouldn't go outside and smoke, so he falls down ontop of me, resting in my lap at which point in time Keifer wlaks over to talk to Hayden and Shea wants to highfive him. So they highfive and then me and Keifer high five for boobs, because thats what me and Keifer do, and She then announces that he doesn't like boobs! HAHAHAHAHA! good times. Anywho I eventually get him downstairs after many interesting things like him stealing Sparky's beer and the bathroom incident and the taking away of his phone, and he passes out on the cement downstairs wrapped around a pole, so I bring him a pillow. End of story, the next day me and him are best buds.
Hassan is also very funny, however it was strange cause he woke up and was back to normal. Leah is a lightweight and is a very loving drunk until she finds out your sober. So after the long night we all watchd the sunrise, and it was very peaceful, I liked it. Then we all walked to Starbucks and learned that you should only ever make legal money.
However, somewhere during the early morning I got extremely angry at Josh and started freaking out on him, and then there was the tugging on my shirt. And then I was in my peaceful, comfortable, happy place while the fingers drummed away rythmically calming me. I was really good there, till he left. Sigh... Stupid happy place, stupid Jessica.
Oh so then we had to do clean up that same morning. So after we unloaded the first truck we all loaded up on sugar at Seven Eleven and ate Big Chief Beef Jerky to keep us alive. It was good. And I'm missing everyone so much. i can't believe I ever thought about not doing Stock this year coming up.

Me being an idiot! DUR!

Ok so we all know by now that I like Ian. Ok get over it. And if Ian hasn't figured it out yet, he really is a true man. HAHHAHAA, I just called Ian a man, what a joke. Ok I shouldn't be mean to him on my blog not cool.
So during our dress rehearsals one day Ian had got all dressed up as Roger and he was being Roger and pushing me down the hall, but I think there was more than Roger in there. And then I was like Ok now's a good time and who but Jill should bounce her way into our moment. grrr....
Then after that I was all wants to see Ian before I leave, so I'm looking around and don't see him so I gives up and leaves, and who but Ian is wlaking down the hall towards me. So we stop and hug and then talk about something irrelevant, all I remember is that we were standing really close. So I started twirling his curl right on his forehead cause its so adorable and he was staring at me strangely with his really blue eyes and I rememebr thinking about moving closer to him....yeah... and thats when Simone comes down the hall and is like oh good Jessica I need to talk to you. I'm glad really that my blog has turned into my thoughts abotu this boy. I really just have no where else to put them. Oh well wait till you hear how baad I screwed this up on gala...hehehehehe...

HOLY COW!

I have not blogged in a long time, prepare yourself for numerous blogs to catch you all up on my most fantastic life, except for the fact that there's a few important people misisng in it right now, but we'll get to that later.
I saw Spamalot tonight. It was alright... The choreography wasn't very good and the microphones were not loud enough and I could easily see all the people working backstage. However, it was the funniest shit ever. Well not ever, because that is Shea. But I will get to Shea later....
I didn't blog about PLAIN WHITE TEE'S!!!! I saw them in concert and I was right in the front, it was fantastic. The lead singer is such an elf, he's the ugliest thing ever, but really cute in a super nerd way. I love him. I shook his hand!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As well before that Social Code played and they were fantastic and as hot as ever!!!! Me and Anna had quite the epic adventure back to my place. Then we watched Fear Factor re-runs till 4 in the morning while I got Piiza Pop filling all over myself.... sigh....