Just let me dust off the seat

I know no one wants to hear this, but just think of somebody else. That isn't him. Then you'll feel less awkward. Cause I really need to get this all out.

You cleaned the car. And yes that was the first thing I noticed, besides you waiting for me outside the door while Menu barked at me. Apparently sushi is closed from 2 - 5. Insert a trip to Spoon Me, cool place, not good ice cream or frozen yogurt. It was kinda lame. Insert a trip to Hot Wax. What was with holding onto me to make sure I didn't fall up the stairs? Then we went to The House. Again on you. (UGH!) We played Connect 4. I won the first time and let you win the last two times. Then we hit the streets for a short walk to kill some time. Apparently we didn't kill enough time so we just sat in the car lying back in our seats talking and listening to music.

"You text me so often I can imitate how you sound on text."

So finally its 5 and we can have sushi. I think you felt out of place, but that's what I do, I take people out of their boxes.

We drove around a bit, stopping at 7-Eleven and then driving out to Bragg Creek and then out to Black Diamond.

"I like where we are, when we drive in your car."

We stopped at the big rock out in Okotoks. It was slippery getting out there. I like how you keep trying to do things for me and I just have the unimpressed face. Like holding down the rope for me so that I could cross over it or the whole ok don't slip there and if you do I'm here and I'll catch you. Haha. I think a few of you might have just puked in your mouth.

"So I just thought you'd like to know that I've been referred to as the girl who hangs out with *insert name here*."

"Hahahaha... I like it."

Then we took a rest on the hood of the car, looking up at the stairs but mostly the clouds. You promised we'd do it again when it gets warmer outside and the car doesn't have a roof so that we could stay "inside". You started talking about your grandparents and how they even have expectations for you and how they want you to bring a girl to the cabin in the summer. You talked about the cabin a lot, and how we should go. Then you said what everyone's been thinking, "My grandmother would disapprove of you but in a good way, because she'd say you're too good for me."

You told your mother that we were going out today and she asked if anyone else was coming. You said someone else was but I don't think she believed you. And apparently our parents are having the same thought pattern because the parting words your mother said to you was to remember to be SAFE. I didn't tell you my parents have been acting the same way. Maybe I should have.

We drove back to town and listened to the country station. It's weird hanging out with you and not listening to country. We made a stop at the park, and there was more you're going to slip holding. I took the slide down and you were sitting at the bottom waiting. Haha. I think we're almost too cheesy to handle and we're "just friends". And as comfortable as it was, I was shivering so we left.

You walked me to the door. You never do that. You were a lot more open about your family tonight too. But seriously, you thanked me for the great day, when really I think its the other way around. And what was with the mumbling and then pretending like you didn't say anything. I heard the last one. I just let you get away with letting it slide. I kind of didn't want to let go, which I'm pretty sure you noticed. Haha.

Also today was like two work shifts. That's not cool. And birthday presents are not a reason for it to be okay.

Kind of like a bucket list for the characteristics you should have. Hmmm... Being able to care for and pay for her.

"I've got a new message can you read it?"

I've mastered the car. I now even lock the door behind me. I'm kind of awesome like that. It makes me laugh that I just kind of make myself at home in the car. It makes me laugh even harder that you don't mind and smile at the fact that I just organize my stuff into your stuff in the car. Just about forgot Josie in there tonight. That would have been bad.

Anyways...

Intertubes please keep my secrets secret.

She's got whatever it is
It blows me away
She's everything i want to say to a woman
But couldn't find the words to say
She's got whatever it is
I don't know what to do
Because every time i try and tell her how i feel
It comes out "I love you"

Looking forward to Wednesday,

Jessica