My addiction that gets me through the days...

So, it all started with my sister... I wanted to go to concerts and we have similar tastes in music so we would go together... But she was all hard core mosh pit and I wasn't and now I've become all wanting to be closest to the stage as possible... I have seen about 20 bands play last year and I met about half of them and a few of them more then once...

I love going to concerts and being able to jump around and sing the words with my favourite bands, it is the biggest release in the world. And then you sleep so good afterwards even though you're sore for like a whole week after that...

Then I slowly started staying back after concerts and meeting the bands... They're such cool people and it always gives you a personal story to tell everybody else besides I saw this band play last night... And concerts have now become my addiction it got to a point this year that I was seeing one about every week and a half...

Recently, I attended the Hedley concert and it was amazing to see them play live!!! The put on such a good show and then they made it easier on my by staying afterwards to sign autographs at the merch table... I was able to hug the four people who make my days continue to weeks and continue into months... Then comes the part where before the concert that day my friend was making fun of me about concerts and she was like yeah, she's all hardcore and like stalks the bands afterwards and rapes them... Correction I have never raped anyone... and I said that to her, and then that night the bassist asked me for a kiss... To many people this would have sounded perverted or really creepy, but it made me feel so good inside... Like finally someone noticed me... Even though he was some guy from a band who most likely doesn't remember it and did it for a laugh it really 'helped' me... And I was with my friend Becca and usually when we're together she's the one that gets all the attention from the guys and this time it was me and it just made me feel so powerful and beautiful and confident...

This whole situation brought me to the conclusion that we all worry too much about our appearances and whether or not we'll be lonely forever, because truth is it really doesn't matter, someone out there will always think you're beautiful no matter what...