Tell Me Your Pretty Lies

You make no sense to me. You make about as much sense to me as I make as much sense to other people.

My glasses need readjusting again... Oh bother... Maybe it was all that romping around I did today...

I love how close you guys are. There's a perogy in there! Look at it! Do you want some?

Oh man. How I can't even describe.

I need to finish chem. It's midnight already.

Fuck you.

I wish I could go to bed.

I can't believe you winked at that. I cringed.

I can't believe you made an assassin joke. Oh man.

I need to stop.

We'll shut it down,

Jessica

“Here’s to the kids. The kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of coke & Patrick or Sonny playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained high school party. Here’s to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. Here’s to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. Here’s to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool. Here’s to the kids who listened to Fall Out Boy and Hawthorne Heights before they were on MTV…and blame MTV for ruining their life. Here’s to the kids who care more about the music than the haircuts. Here’s to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. Here’s to the kids who hum “A Little Less 16 Candles, A Little More Touch Me” when they’re stuck home, dateless, on a Saturday night. Here’s to the kids who have ever had a broken heart from someone who didn’t even know they existed. Here’s to the kids who have read The Perks of Being a Wallflower & didn’t feel so alone after doing so. Here’s to the kids who spend their days in photobooths with their best friends. Here’s to the kids who are straight up smartasses & just don’t care. Here’s to the kids who speak their mind. Here’s to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. Here’s to the kids who second guess themselves on everything they do. Here’s to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that. Here’s to the kids.”

— Pete Wentz.

Everybody Told Me I'd Be Alright

It hasn't happened yet.

Kinda mad that I did talk to you today, but I needed to know what the deal was, if I needed to sign my name anywhere. You don't have to be like that with me, so don't. K?

I see your true colours, shining through.

Thank you Glee for ruining Hair! GAWD! But thank you for also summarizing my week. Tomorrow's Thursday. There is hope that I could survive this week. I have sooo much to do. Shit I didn't look up disorders. I think I might just do OCD. Or sleep disorders. I seem to know a lot about those suckers... Hahaha.

Just tell me what I need to hear, before I disappear.

Don't tell me you take it back.

My influences: Ma, Ina, Lady Gaga, Ellen Degeneres, Blink 182, Derek Richardson

Why can't I speak of recent? It's around everybody too, I just can't use the right words. Epic fail.

I kind of feel like a dick for not stick up for you, but honestly I'm tired of it so I would rather just ignore them. The other day you told me you didn't want people taking sides. I get that. But this isn't about that. It's just about you in general. I think you know more about what people think of you then you try to let on. That makes me sympathize for you. I get it. Trust me. More than you know.

Someone told me something very interesting today, I haven't heard you sing in years. This intrigued me. I've been thinking about it a lot since I heard that today. My chords right now are really shitty, cause I haven't been practicing or doing warm ups, so let's not go there. Talk to me in May and I'll be able to belt out Defying Gravity again. Hahaha. It makes me laugh that I can sing that song.

Something has changed within me... Too late for second guessing,

Jessica

No Shame!

Oh boy...

Mission Statement: Don't Screw Things Up,

Jessica

The Things In My Brain

I Need...

To put thoughts here before everyone on Facebook hates me.

Alicia Keys WHAT THE FUCK are you wearing???

I want my hair like Kelly Clarkson's for grad.

Jay-Z is a mastermind, what an inspiration.

Pete you totally should have shaved.

Perez you look sooo cute!!!!! You are fabulous!

The fact that Green Day won Alternative makes me laugh sooo hard. These categories are horrible!!!!! Billy Joe as much as I hate your arrogance I love the fact that you are wearing converse.

I can't believe Taylor Swift won she's soo dry. She's suing bars for playing her music and not paying her royalties. Also I love how they were like she's rehearsing but stayed up till 2am just to see if she would win. Cry me a fucking river Taylor Swift.

Kate Hudson and Nicole Kidman what are you wearing?!!??! That's scary... Oh god...

The Black Eyed Peas are the shit!!!! Will.I.Am is a friggin GENIUS! The other reason I love the Black Eyed Peas, they could be the first ones not to lip-synch. Thank you very much for that.

HOMG THEY JUST SHOWED ADAM LAMBERT! ADAM LAMBERT I BOW AT YOUR FEET! Well depending on how well your performance goes... CD! EEK!

Black Eyed Peas I loved the mash-up at the end. You are friggin brilliant!

Awwww... They gave it to MJ. Don't make me cry you plastic fake AMA's.

What a surprise that Keith Urban won... Puh-lease!

Oh god Rhianna this is soooo bad...

I love Rascal Flatts. Those are some great dudes, they really deserve all the success they've had.

Wow Carrie Underwood that's pretty sexy... You might want to put jeans on or something...

LADY GAGA! AH!!!!

Why does no one at this function seem to have boobs? Honestly. It's kind of disturbing.

Lady Gaga you amaze me. I love watching you perform. Because you are genuinely talented. However that outfit you are wearing is not helping the rumours that you are a man...

Who the eff is this band that won the T-Mobile award? Why didn't GAGA win? GAGA IS THE SHIT!

I raised my hand. Oh Gloriana. yeah I still have no clue who you are. Oh god you thanked Taylor Swift. Fast forward.

JLO? Really. Rather unimpressed. Bring back the GAGA!

I have had it with these mother fucking snakes on this mother fucking plane! What are you doing here? Oh to present Whitney Houston. Sounds good to me. Man that woman has pipes!!! SHES GONNA SING!!!! AWW SHE LOOKS SOOOO GOOD!!!!!!

Taylor Swift please go away.

Is Eminem, TI and MJ all up for the same award? That's funny. Aww Jermaine has the glove on... MJ has 23 AMA's breaking the record for the most held by any artist. I love you MJ!

Alicia Keys your time is over. It was over in 2002. Go away now please.

Eminem you are also an inspiration. I know that sounds crazy. But that guy knows his shit. Haha.

I really need to figure out who my inspirations are for that project...

Is Kanye still in rehab is that why he wasn't there? Would the real Kanye West please stand up!

Nelly Furtado is alive? Huh. News to me.

Dominic Monaghan you make my life. Hahaha....

I wonder if Billy Joe knows how his soul is gone. Its no longer existent. I wish someone would tell him this.

FUCKING BALLZ NO! NO WAY DID TAYLOR SWIFT WIN ARTIST OF THE YEAR! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME! I HATE THE UNIVERSE!

Oh look ADAM LAMBERT! Hahaha he would have boys in chains. HAHAHAHA ADAM LAMBERT JUST MADE A BOY PUT HIS FACE IN HIS CROTCH AND RUB IT! HAHAHAHAHA! ADAM LAMBERT YOU ARE SO QUEER! Adam Lambert youa re the next Britney Spears. I kid you not. Was that a boy or girl you just made out with??? HAHAHAHA I LOVE YOU ADAM LAMBERT! I'm rewinding this shit! THIS IS AMAZING! GAH!

Adam Lambert you are about to turn everything on its head and I cannot wait,

Jessica

Romace

Tell me about it Lights.

I love you too.

Le sigh. I hate you universe. Why must you laugh in my face?

Like I said the universe totally hates me. It's not just the world.

I'm going to go listen to this song and curl up in a ball of fuming happiness.

Am I reading too much into your song choices?

Go on and kiss the girl,

Jessica

Parachute's

This has nothing to do with the band but parachutes. Parachutes are like friends, sometimes they work the way they were intended and other days they aren't put in your backpack right and you think they'll be there for you, but instead you fall thousands of feet onto a cliff, so not only does your body get damaged when you fall onto the rock, your body then falls down the cliff, hitting every jutting out rock along the way.

I'm tired of people telling me what I should be doing or who I should be hanging out with. I'm tired of the jokes. Because eventually they aren't just jokes anymore. And it all adds up and at the end of the day I find myself sitting here replaying them. How I let myself take the blame for things, how I have to lie to other people that I'm okay and that the rest of the world is. Because honestly, it isn't ok.

The other day you had left, but I hadn't even noticed you were back but I could feel it. Does that make sense or just sound creepy... I think that all of this stupid pressure is getting to me.

Cause boy meets boy and boy runs away or girl meets girl and she' afraid to stay.

On a whole other note, that was so funny yesterday when you called me and I bounced around like a total tool pointing at you. I'm honestly the biggest tool shed ever. I'm not sure people notice this. The people reading this probably do.

That makes me very happy Dane. You are awesome!

That basically explains how I feel almost every day. Just out to prove the world wrong.

I was going to make a vlog but honestly when it came down to it I realized no, I don't.

Hahaha I used way to many timing words there that didn't line up. That makes me smile.

Homework tomorrow. Super lame. But good weekend. Next weekend has the potential to be good too.

Onion rings are rad too :P,

Jessica

Ps. Wtf am I doing?

*downloading*

You know today really sucked until I spent some time with people I know who actually care. I'm tired of fake caring. It's sooo fake.

I talked to Emma today after the concert, I hope I can set something up with her, job shadow anyone?

I can't remember ever screaming so loud in my life. All I can remember is thinking, this is it, these are the moments that matter. I loved every second of tonights show. She sang Sober. That made my weekend. Thank you so much. And thank you for quite blatantly dissing record labels and Clive Davis. ANARCHY FROM WITHIN! hahaha...

Which leads me to the topic of Billy. Got a really good new song from Ina this week that was on Billy's new CD and it makes me want to make another video. So stay tuned for that later this weekend.

I'm really hoping that stuff I told you the other day stays with you, usually you just tell me things so I'm hoping it stays between us.

I like reading your posts. Everytime you'd leave I would wonder what you would think about this hell hole or what you thought when I'd have to come over to your house. Now I've realized you have understood all along, and a lot more than I had expected.

Fun little fact, there was about another minute of me talking on that last video, but I wasn't ready to share it yet, so I cut it...

Everybody told me I'd be alright, everybody told me I'd forget, it hasn't happened yet,

Jessica

Tell Me About It

"This is Tweet 791 Jacob telling Tweet 782 Jacob to shut the fuck up and stop whining. Look at you now! You're fine - Don't be such a pussy."

I'm glad that you could open up to me. And the cheesiest things you do make me smile. We're a cheesy bunch you and I.

"hey how are you doing?"

"I'm good... Well I'm better than before"

"Can I get my hug now?"

And then I'm int he air and everyone beside us was like WOAH! (which made me laugh) and I thought we were going to topple over which totally would have made me laugh harder. And then when you set me down, you stumbled and stepped on my toe.

"Sorry I stepped on your foot."

I really should just lock myself away. Look how caught up I get. I'm a crazy girl.

I'm tired of everybody else. I can be friends with whoever I want to. SO suck it!

She's the dropkick queen of the weekend,

Jessica

This Is a Tribute to KVL and all the things She's helped me Through

The streets are empty and so am I.

Don't put your trust in happily ever after. Fall if you must for simple things like laughter.

You said you'd always be here, but then you had to go.

Christmas really sucks this year.

Thought you should know.

Is it sad that that song Jay wrote about a boy and that's totally not how I interpret it. I miss you. A lot. I hate that it took somebody else to help me realize that.

You said you'd always be here, but then you had to go.

But back to what this is about. KVL I have no clue what to do for an in class presentation. No clue. But here are some things you've said to me that make me smile.

This is exactly what I'm looking for. You are telling m ewhat inspires you, how you think and work through things, etc. Keep 'em coming. Are you a musician in some respect?

Just curious, but what is so cool about a Sgt. Pepper Jacket?

KVL

Hi Jessica,

Good for you and your musical pursuits. There is so much to know about recording and sound reinforcement. If you are good at it, there is definately work in that field.

KVL

Hello Jessica,

Thanks for sharing. Friends are complicated. People are complicated if you are one to stop and try to reason things out as your CDO would suggest to me. My biggest advice to you would be don't change who you are because of others and their own personal motivations and agendas. Being friends and any relationship for that matter does require some give and take. Is is not always what we want but we need to ensure that we don't compromise ourselves and what is important to us. True friends will understand that.

As far as what you are doing in September goes, what do you want to be doing? Be honest with yourself.

Hi Jessica,

You're a smart and intuitive kid. I think a great deal about technology and how it affects our humanness. Certainly we have far more information at our fingertips at any given moment but with this efficiency we lose touch of real human interaction. I too find the whole "Big Brother" thing unsettling given that others with the technology can find out so much about you without really knowing anything.

KVL

p.s. It's sound of the plastic being ripped the new CD that I like. Imagine how I say sound as I don't have a passion font on my computer.

Hi Jessica,

So, first off let me say how much I appreciate your "upfrontness". It sounds to be like you are mentally preparing for what is to come but feel a little frustrated that your mom doesn't get it. I can recall the same thoughts when I was at your age and a little beyond. My parents were always supportive of my passion for music and particularly the trumpet, but, it always seemed like they just didn't understand what I was doing. At this point in my life I appreciate what they did for me and realize that my frustration was my own fault in not really educating/informing them on why it was so important to me. Communication (how ironic given what it is that you want to study) and awareness lead to understanding and hopefully, appreciation. Have your shown your mom what it is that you want to do? Have you been willing to show her your efforts in this area?

On another note, I had a former student of my attend SFU for that program. He loved it and has created a niche for himself in the business. If you want it, be willing to show how and why.

KVL

To the people who've been there. It means more than you know,

Jessica

Oh Jakes

http://www.youtube.com/watch_private?v=XLbWiziRpfQ&sharing_token=wGHNqdbCHJTyIfF6LjD0Pg==

That's my depressing video of the day. It's a private URL this time, well because I don't want it ALL over the intertube.

Worried,

Jessica

Are You Ready For A Heart-Heart-Heart Break

Jessica Elaine : This is the story of how the world hates me. The world hates me. End of story. Do not cue happy ending music. BECAUSE THERE ISN'T ANY!!!!!

Thank you for listening to my story.

Boys ruin my life. True story. You're a dick. Don't ever diss Travis Barker. Nothing is defiantly going to happen now.

I asked you out to coffee and then you told me about Harry Potter Puppet Pals. Like I said no happy ending music.

Meet Adam,

Jessica

Do You Ever Feel Like Nobody In The World Loves You?

Look at me I am not what you need.

Nothing to say. There's still time and you are the one I have been waiting for today...

Photos. Videos. What to do... Should I wait for more... Ask if there's more...

O Captain, my Captain,

Jessica

I'll Always Be Who You Want Me To Be

I'm glad that this is you being your own person. Because you really need to stop trying to be me.

I need more sleep. Whatever.

Oh Pirates and Parrots. What really happened the other night I'm over analyzing, so just let me do this for about a week till I have something else to over analyze.

This may be a dick thing to say but it wasn'

t your car I wanted to be in the other night.

What is it with boys picking me up? Like do I have a sign that says when hugging me please feel the need to hug me closer and pick me up. No I do not.

It makes me smile how cute you are. Not in the I love you cute, but in the little rock star cute. You called to make sure your parents would be at the show. And then you're all thank you for everything you've done. It's cute.

Who's Justin Case? what? Ryan you're jokes make no sense to me. Because I'm slow. But I got it like 2 minutes later.

It's sort of setting in how talented I actually am. I mean sure I say I'm amazing all the time, but people in the entertainment industry have the biggest egos and lowest self-esteem. It's so true. I organized two events, single-handedly in the span of five days. Like who does that? I mean sure I'm no Mark Spikoluk and couldn't get you playing Canada Music Week the week of, but I'm getting there. One day Mark Spikoluk will bow down to me.

I'll send that email tomorrow, cause I don't want to send it at midnight and usually you answer in the mornings.

He said I hate this place.

Tell me about it Jakes. You know somedays I am rather unimpressed with you, but I'm starting to understand you a lot more. You and I have

things in common. Us and our mistakes.

Isn't it lovely hearing how people can't wait for you to leave? I think so.

Whatever. I'm really tired of having monitored what I say on here.

That is all going to change.

You hate us because we don't even try and it all happens. "I don't need a man to make it happen" Hahaha. I know I quoted the Pussycat Dolls but I honestly think of that line almost everyday. Cause its true. Ok except when I need boys to lift things for me. Hahaha.

I'm really loving iMovie. Maybe I'll make another Vlog tomorrow. We shall see.

Turn it up as loud as it will go.

I often fall asleep to Last Words by Billy the Kid and the Lost Boys. It's a soft screamo song. It's absolutely beautiful. I'm excited to hear their newest album.

Burn it to the ground with rock and roll.

There are definitely two people in that photo who don't deserve to be in there. I'll et you figure out who. Hint: One of them makes bigger dick moves than me. :P

I can't believe she said that what a psycho. Like people can't have the same friends? I don't get it. Whatever.

That's interesting.

You know.

Cause she misses me, all this time, it kills me.

Sitting home all alone.

That will never be me. I will never be you. And the truth is, I couldn't give two bananas what you have to say about it,

Jessica

Vlogging?

Now I don't know if vlogging is going to become the norm around here or not.

I guess we'll see.

Favourite Hug of The Night

Imaginary rampaging Drama Llamas...

Tomorrow is looking bleak. Homework = not done. Ruh roh. Aus is helping.

It makes me laugh that Krikit and I are stil talking.

I'm glad you came to our class that isn't your class today. Wanna chill out 1st and 2nd period tomorrow? I don't really care what anyone else thinks anymore. I'm over that.

Bought a new jacket today. Good stuffs.

I've yet to find the time to blog about Monday and other interesting things of life.

Whatever.

Mom, Elaine just Liam Lynched me,

Jessica

Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love But I want, want, want to be your love

YAA is dope. Seriously check out youthareawesome.com

Andrew said he might be able to hook me up with interviews with lots more people if that's what I want to do.

I wonder if Krikit would help me out...

Jessica L'Heureux Hey Krikit, I know I mentioned I was missing the bass playing after hearing G-Get Up and Dance, but I have to say hearing the album now definitely changes my mind. The album is amazing, you should be very proud. Can't wait to see you Grey Cup Weekend! Cheers!

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Krikit Liddle

thanks jessica, i do double duty on the new record, lots of songs i'll be playing bass and a few that i'll be doing keyboards. lol if you're coming to calgary you'll be the first to see faber rock the bass on give him up, that's the one song that needs both bass and keys

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Jessica L'Heureux

Awesome! I can't wait to hear it live! That is definitely one of my top favourite songs on the album. What was it like collaborating with Josh on the song? I'm sure it just wasn't your regular songwriting experience.

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Krikit Liddle

haha there were ups and downs, but i think the collaboration went very well, his awesome ideas mixed with fabers precision and perfectionism made for some rad songs!

Dude did you just see what my mac did? It like imported it as a photo. I love you macbook pro.

Chris makes my life. He was the greatest dude ever. However this post wasn't going to be about any of this. This post was supposed to be about my greatest hug of the night...

Listen to the song. Its perfect.

Listen to Can't Keep A Secret. It is absolutely amazing!

Feeling a little out of place, can't wait to get home,

Jessica

I'm Celebrating This Scene

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4h6iCn0301M
I love Jim.

The (Girl) Who Knew Too Much

You don't know me at all.
I really understood that. I don't feel like I need much else. Whatever.
I'm having problems keeping this inside. Well I know you know, but that was an accident. You saw the texts. But I mean usually with stuff like this, I get over worried and need to ask everyone if you're okay, but I'm controlling it. Somehow.
I'm hating everyone. Ok you actually need to tell me what that phone call was about. First of all because they're sort of my responsibility. Second administration has no clue who you are. Kind of like how the band thinks you've done everything. Hahaha... So Thursday she yelled at me for not passing out tickets, which our school has never done for any other event. But I do so because I know even though I do it, it won't work. Then. Get this. You email me Friday night to tell me anyone who is attending who doesn't attend our school needs to be on a guest list approved by you. And people who show up not the guest list are not allowed into the event. I wonder how YOU are going to implement this. Cause it sure as hell won't be me.
I'm thinking of playing the swine flu card right about now.
I'm baking cupcakes tomorrow in order not to think about this.
I hope we hang out this weekend. I miss you.
Thank you Kaitlyn for helping out my post. I'm just so scrambled, because I've done more than I initially had planned.
I miss NBC.
I was going to post about Love Cats as my extra post, but seeing as I might be suspended from school or something I better not promote this event further. Or maybe I should. I have 6 hours to decide...
URGENT! MEET AND GREET! Oh man... I hope someone else I know is attending and that those psycho's aren't there. Not that its a confirmed thing. Just a which is closest to you thing.
Check out this schedule:
Tomorrow - bank, cupcakes, homework
Monday - school from 8am till 10pm
Tuesday - meeting after school for YAA
Wednesday- Isa's Bday
Thursday - Eye doctor's, KISS
Friday - I am free. To just lounge around. Naked for all me and Elaine care. Elaine is sooo not gonna like that I just spilled our little secret. Sorry Elaine.
A said we might hang out this weekend. I'll put clothes on if we are.
Maybe I'll invite C over this weekend.
See ok. There's this thing where I have these two friends, and we can spend time together and barely say anything for the longest amount of time but it doesn't seem to bother us. Silence may just be golden.
This may have just made my night:
u do, muffin. u belong with us, in disasterland. ::holds out hand::
:)))))))
Jay, today I just want to sit in the kitchen beside the fridge and eat ice cream. Is that okay?
Also I'm totally digging the believers never die album work. It's spendid.


I heard this song today and it kinda changed my day...

I watched Yes Man today, and it was a movie I honestly enjoyed, it left me with that happy feeling.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBz5IdxITP8
I was going to go to bed early again. Its 2:15.
Oh then she was all don't email her at 1 am. She will think you were out partying. Actually this is the only time I have to do these things...
It's been a long night,
Jessica

Douche Bag

The things you'll never understand...

Her Eyes Are Like Champagne

So I was ok. I mean like I was feeling good, looked good, wasn't stressed.
Now you and your fucking existence ruined my perfectly fine day. It did. And I hope you know that. NO! You do not act nice towards me. You don't let me go ahead of you! NO! This is not what we agreed on. Wait did we agree on anything... Shit. I honestly felt like I was about to fall over. I couldn't walk. My legs were not holding me up. I think I have some issues that need working out.
PEOPLES INCOMPETENCE IS GOING TO DRIVE ME OFF OF A FUCKING BRIDGE! When I say NO! and I say Don't say that to Luke! You don't say it to LUKE! FUCK!
I need to figure out this sandwich thing.
Also tomorrow lunch is going to go quite well, as long as a drum kit shows up... Haha... That's my only stress.
BUT LUKE ON THE OTHER HAND! LUKE IS GOING TO MAKE MY RASH COME BACK AND I DO NOT APPRECIATE THAT LUKE!
Kat makes me laugh. She's like I love how people obsess and you guys just talk/yell at them. No.. That's just me. Over hear. All the yelling. That's me. People do not give in to Luke's charm ok? Just punch him in the face or something. Just shoo him away.
Nice watch chem boy.
So I think a party in the theater wings is totally what we should do... Then we're there if anyone needs us and we can party while everyone SITS. Hahaha....
I have to make 50 cupcakes this weekend... Eff...
Welcome to the real world. Get the fuck out of VIBE land. I sort of understand why the industry guys hate you. I hope Gaffney or Kelba is there Monday to blow a gasket. Otherwise it'll be me.
You know I have met some nice musicians, who understand that the world is not going to be handed to them on a plate. I know a few musicians who REALLY need to learn that.
Good news is I only shake around you and him. I was pretty sure I was going to collapse. No lies. I didn't smell though. Usually one can smell you coming. But no. I just listened to Chris singing in my ear and walked as fast as possible away. Far far away...

Sparkle bubble over and in the morning all you got is rain,
Jessica

Well That Was A Waste of Time

Oh well...
I'm having this issue sending in applications since I guess I feel like I already won... What's wrong with me? I'm becoming nice... This must be stopped.
Duncan is nice. But he wants to mic everything. NO DUNCAN! Don't mic everything!
I'm a need to get that boy a present.
So I'm thinking about this gift I'm going to pay someone to make, because I can't be creative on my own, but I can't decide who should be who. Ah well.
I feel so bad that his muscular arms were all over you.
Ah man.. Hahaha.. People say you're a jerk, but I haven't really noticed recently. Maybe it's because I'm a jerk too...
So the other night at MT I was really worried when you texted me, but I would rather you open up, I just need to make sure you aren't putting yourself in trouble. Because I need you.
Simple plan came on and it just made me think of you.
D'awww....
I'm watching you.
Are you facebook stalking me?
After screaming his name. Hahaha. We do it with our girlish charm. That's right we don't actually look like boys apparently! WHAT?!?! This is huge news...
Ok New Black being closed makes me internal rage. The city approved everything twice and is now only throwing a fit? Totally uncool.
I'm going to go do Chem now and think about life...

Everyday is melting away,
Jessica

Let's Discuss Freindship

You need to watch this video...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52eehbF1BXY

We should get jerseys ‘cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine, ‘cause you're out of my league
And I know that it's so cliché to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust
It's Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You’re ok with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

Maybe I'm just lucky ‘cause it's hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliché to talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious to everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You’re ok with the way this is going to be
’Cause this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

(Oh’s with bop’s)

If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
I must have done something right
I must have done something right

So I'm thinking that I really only have two friendships I care about. And that I would give my right kidney for. Considering Paul is getting the left. Then I would have no kidneys... :(

"If you were an alcoholic and needed my kidney, I would give it to you."

However. I would have two amazing friends.

You haven't opened up to me like that in a while. I love you. You're an amazing friend. And I'm not sure why you would ever think differently. "A simple Plan song came on and it made me think of you" That made me tear up inside. I don't think I can express how amazing you are to me. And when anything comes your way, you know that I am going to be here. And you better know that I can't live without you. Because its true. Somedays I prepare myself for that call. Then I get VERY happy that is doesn't come. And I know that everyone thinks I'm rainbows and lollipops but they have no idea. No idea like you do. And therefore they should keep their filthy fucking mouths shut. But anyways.

No not but anyways. That was important. You are half of the fucking world to me. That is not anyways. That is an everything.

We should get jersey's cause we'd make a good team,

Jessica

Back to that Level of Life Thing I Ramble About Sometimes...

A moment for Jack...
Talking on the phone is dumb..id rather find a girl who will play online Halo with me and we can talk via headset
This halloween, it won't just be girls using the day as an excuse to dress like a slut.
It's weird that signing boobs is part of my job

Also can we take a moment to admire the man I'm going to marry...

I'm really glad we just had that moment...
Ok so I think Matt heard us the first time... It's hard to tell, but he smiled in our direction after that. And what was with the laugh? Hahaha... Oh that boy... I'm jealous that I don't have his smarties. We should have talked to them after. Ah well.
David makes me happy, I look horrible all the time in photos! So random...
I didn't really want to stay and meet everyone. Wasn't really the mood I was in.
Felt a little bored near the end. I think Ian was bored too.
No fan girling for us. Hahaha... Just picking up... I mean wait... No...
I want my mom to make me a Max costume. Travis I am sooo jealous. I would come knock on your tour bus and say Trick or Treat!!!
1:59 2:00 1:00
That was cool. Thanks Alex for making me watch that...
I wanted to push girls... But no. Oh well... It was still good. All the smiles were good. Hahaha...
I totally called that Mission District would be better live! Totally called it!
I don't really care what you think. Because well because. I'm going to tell the truth. And like I said I'm not going to talk to 95% of the people I talk to now in a year. So whatever. That's how I feel. It made sound like a dick move, but that's how I feel. I would rather work for something, than just take the easy way. Which is why I'm me. Which is why I'm on that level. You're on the level too, which makes other people mad. They get mad cause they can't seperate us and we won't let them.
Julien totally came over and sang to me. Hahaha... Oh god. Me and bassists. This should stop.
I hate girls that stand against the fence and then just stand there like idiots the whole time.
OMGEE Security Guard was singing and laughed at Josh's jokes it made my night. Well not really. And I totally knew that first security guard.
Ugh I'm sooo pissed we didn't see Emma afterwards... I haven't seen her in like 4 years!!! :( As soon as I heard her voice I was like EMMA!!!!! I didn't know she was with AMP now.. Huh... Turns out Jay wasn't there, because he would not have let all thsoe horrible sounds come out of the monitors tonight. So many of the guys couldn't hear themeselves... It was bad.
Also what was with the skank at the side of the stage stealing your fake boyfriend? What a skank. I do not approve of her, if they are together, I DO NOT approve!!!!
He would only be following only two people.
I'm so over you...
So Josh is the road home no longer paid with star fuckers requiem? That's my favourite song of yours and you couldn't play it... Ok that's a lie you did play my favourite song... That little bitch with her head held so high...
The harmonies tonight were friggin amazing, and Matt was singing all the time cause Josh seems to not sing... And he sounded sooo good tonight....
We didn't take photos because I will always remember. I'm still smiling. Like grining ear to ear. Hahaha...
And my hair somehow survived!!! YAY!!!!
We both know, there's nowhere to go,
Jessica