Woah There Nelly!

"And you'll see..."

Oh MBF, this music video is beautiful. Mostly because I love this song...

I think it's helping me see. I don't know what I see. Things have been a little foggy lately. You think you're doing the right thing, but you're never really sure. I thought it was right, but maybe what I think is right is wrong or what I thought was right is wrong. Yes, the two are different.

I want to dress different. I want to be someone different. Style wise, I feel stuck. I need less, I just woke up clothes and more industry clothes. I used to separate my clothes; street clothes, home clothes and pjs. I just want to throw everything out and shave my hair off and start all over. Is that ok? Can that be ok? I don't know where this is coming from but it's spewing everywhere. Washing me away into the blue.

Random conversation time. I love that you just wanted to talk to me. Everyone thinks your this huge jerk but we get a long. I don't get it. I was thinking about New Year's and how we were just lying there talking about everything. Because everything we thought was the same. I've never had that. I'd say it was weird, but it was actually really nice.

I just want to walk out of the station and open my umbrella and walk down the street with everybody. Is that alright? Can that be allowed? I'm not sure. I'm conflicted needless to say. Left or right? Here or there? Where is here? Where is there? Going with what I hopes going to make me happy or going with what is making me happy? Yes, those are two different things. I ask a lot of questions for a girl who everyone thinks has the answer.

Confused yet?

Me too.

Jessica