In The Car I Just Can't Wait

AHAHAHAHAHAHA

That just about sums it up.

Boys changing in the parking lot. Well that's ok soon it will be boys and Jessica. Let's start at the beginning here. So I'm just chillin gout dipping my toes in. And then Dad comes over, and we were looking straight out at the wave coming in when one came in from the side too. Let me tell you the wave won. My whole bottom half got completely soaked. Hence me havign to change in the parking lot with naked boys. Hot damn. Not that I was looking... Hell I'm so allowed to look. What do I have holding me back? Nadda.

Well the thought of really having to pee puts you out of my mind. Clearly things are moving in a positive direction here. I'm pretty sure advertisements are out to get me. Their everywhere! And they're red! For some reason I was remembering the pins today. Not sure how that one came about. But it did.

I'm such an idiot. I see things much clearer after I majorly screw up. There's no way around it. This is the way I roll.

I like it here. I want to stay. I don't want to go to school and have to worry about all of that again. Because I can't get myself to care. I just want to "drive away from a place where you felt safe."

I like how concerned you looked. That is what makes me want to cry. How much love there actually is. It's a beautiful thing isn't. When another human actually truly cares for another and worries about if they are alright. That maybe even smashing something would make it all better. I'm surprised that I am getting better at this. This time it only took me a month to screw up. I've got to say thats pretty awesome. Cause let's face it Jessica is an awesome pawesome.

I hate that feeling of having to buy something for someone. That's kind of why I didn't buy Chrimstas gifts for everyone this year. It just seemed like a chore instead of something I wanted to do for another person. I really need to design your gift and go get it made. I could make it myself, but that probably wouldn't be as sustainable. Cause there should be a large number on the back and front but I think that would look cheesy.... Idk...

BOYS BOYS BOYS, Lady Gaga was wrong.

We don't actually love them,

Jessica