Elaine and I are bad horses. No one can ruin us now that we are in the evil league of evil. I mean we had to kill someone to join! We are bad horses.
My ears are not liking this swimming in the pool business. Sigh... Oh well no more pool now. I don't really like the pool in Anaheim, so we'll just stay away from it.
That expensive wine was icky.
Why must I do this to myself? I'm not sure. I do this. Let's take a look back. Yep. Still haven't learned from my mistakes. Meh. Well not meh. I really care why I am this messed up. Why I am a 'fixer'. It's stupid. It ruins my life. What more do you want to know.
About 20 minutes left with my precious internet till I get to go back to texting. The only thing I really wanted from the internet was to hear Adam Lambert sing. How sad is that...
Seriously. He's the shit.
I try hard. I really do. It kinda sucks how much I try. Every morning it takes me two hours to get ready. That's kind of sick. Not going to lie. The night before I plan out what I'm going to wear, what bag I'm going to use, what shoes. I have it all planned out. All my plastic baggies I brought on the airplane are labelled. I remember as much as I possibly can about what people say so I know how to make conversation with them, I even know the answer they want to hear and just give it to them. So there. You know all my secrets. I'm really not that amazing. It's all just knowing.
I love California. I can't wait till I live here. David came over today and the first thing he said to me was I got off the plane and I just took a deep breathe and went I'm home. Something you should know, he lives in Calgary. But its true, I get here and its just like it fits. It makes sense. I can dress nice, behave the way I want to be, interact with all types of people and just feel free.
Welcome to the land of the free, where everyone wants a tip.
I'm never leaving.
That is my final statement for the internet.
You can't make me return to something I dread and hate.
I'm never leaving,
Jessica
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