So right now I have three choices for my solo project but I think I'm not going to do my third choice... I have a feeling it wouldn't go over well. So I made recordings I guess. They sound horrible because I still have phlegm problems because I did it when I was sick. HAHAHAHAHA! I make myself laugh. But anyways it would be appreciated if I could know what you think? Anonymous comments are always a plus!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
And Before The Song Dies
So last night was the first night I haven't hopped around like a beached whale all night. YAY! However that of course meant dreams...
I kept running into him everywhere, and I was like hahaha just rub it off he has a girlfriend. So I was being friends with the whole Kat group again gag. and then Aidan was back to 'normal' so we were friends with him. It was weird. Then it was like the building of our school but the school's side door led to the ocean. So Lyndsay and Anna and I and 'him' ran out onto the beach in the sand. Lynds and Anna sat on the sand but I thought its a nice day lets go sit in the ocean. So I did and I magically had short shorts on. Then for some reason he decided he was going to come into the ocean to. Then everything kind of got really blurry. But I could see brown eyes. I told him I couldn't. Ran back up shore, but the two girlies had gone back into the school. When I got into the school, my clothes were dry and Lyndsay was sitting with everyone in front of the office. For some reason Lyndsay's Dad was there even though I've never met him. And she looked at her Dad and looked at me and said that this was bad news. And she had gone through his bag. And that there were things in it I should know about. Then like those people who serve coffee in the mornings were there but there was a girl now and at another table she was serving chili. And we went to this girl every week to eat chili with her. This week she snapped at us. Apparently we scared the other kids away. Then there was something about the twins and the gym and an aux gym but that part is all so hazy.
Then I had to see him today. That wasn't going well for me. I've been working on my breathing a lot this week. Keeping stable. Keeping calm. She wrote her name on your arm today with a heart. I really have no clue what you see in her. She's just not for you. We discussed how when you enter doors you become different characters. You and me in the dressing room. I hope that wasn't a character. That's what has me in this funk. Where were you when everything was falling apart? Sitting beside me. It's weird. I don't get it. Whatever. I say that a lot.
YOU"RE HOME!!!! I got up this morning and checked FB and it said you were home and my heart lept. It really did. I booked it to the green room this morning but knew you wouldn't be there. I walked in at lunch. It was almost killing me. Knowing you were in the building. I was fumbling with the music and all my stuff when I came in. In one second you were on the chair to grabbing me. I dropped all my stuff. You swooped me up. Mystery thinks he knows, but he doesn't. Maybe he only sees what everyone else thinks they see. I didn't want to let go. I missed you so much. I told you that. Along with never leave that long again. You were gone for 12 days and I could barely handle it. I'm not sure what it means. I missed you so much and now you're home eek!!! Back to hugging and complaining and forehead kisses. Sigh. I know ok? Shut up. I know what you're thinking. I hear everything. Even when the Freudian slip came up today, I saw that look in her eyes.
Our class wants to do The Line. I want to do it. It would be good for these preppy bitches. We might have to perform tomorrow. The number isn't finished. Fuck life.
This morning all I could think about was that dream. You're home! Knowing your home makes me happy. Even if you're not beside me. We tell each other everything. Shit I haven't told you this. For good reason.
Ran 1.60 today. felt good. Breathing difficulties worry me. That's ok.
This is amazing...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgnFKNvmV7o
Love,
The Friend.
I kept running into him everywhere, and I was like hahaha just rub it off he has a girlfriend. So I was being friends with the whole Kat group again gag. and then Aidan was back to 'normal' so we were friends with him. It was weird. Then it was like the building of our school but the school's side door led to the ocean. So Lyndsay and Anna and I and 'him' ran out onto the beach in the sand. Lynds and Anna sat on the sand but I thought its a nice day lets go sit in the ocean. So I did and I magically had short shorts on. Then for some reason he decided he was going to come into the ocean to. Then everything kind of got really blurry. But I could see brown eyes. I told him I couldn't. Ran back up shore, but the two girlies had gone back into the school. When I got into the school, my clothes were dry and Lyndsay was sitting with everyone in front of the office. For some reason Lyndsay's Dad was there even though I've never met him. And she looked at her Dad and looked at me and said that this was bad news. And she had gone through his bag. And that there were things in it I should know about. Then like those people who serve coffee in the mornings were there but there was a girl now and at another table she was serving chili. And we went to this girl every week to eat chili with her. This week she snapped at us. Apparently we scared the other kids away. Then there was something about the twins and the gym and an aux gym but that part is all so hazy.
Then I had to see him today. That wasn't going well for me. I've been working on my breathing a lot this week. Keeping stable. Keeping calm. She wrote her name on your arm today with a heart. I really have no clue what you see in her. She's just not for you. We discussed how when you enter doors you become different characters. You and me in the dressing room. I hope that wasn't a character. That's what has me in this funk. Where were you when everything was falling apart? Sitting beside me. It's weird. I don't get it. Whatever. I say that a lot.
YOU"RE HOME!!!! I got up this morning and checked FB and it said you were home and my heart lept. It really did. I booked it to the green room this morning but knew you wouldn't be there. I walked in at lunch. It was almost killing me. Knowing you were in the building. I was fumbling with the music and all my stuff when I came in. In one second you were on the chair to grabbing me. I dropped all my stuff. You swooped me up. Mystery thinks he knows, but he doesn't. Maybe he only sees what everyone else thinks they see. I didn't want to let go. I missed you so much. I told you that. Along with never leave that long again. You were gone for 12 days and I could barely handle it. I'm not sure what it means. I missed you so much and now you're home eek!!! Back to hugging and complaining and forehead kisses. Sigh. I know ok? Shut up. I know what you're thinking. I hear everything. Even when the Freudian slip came up today, I saw that look in her eyes.
Our class wants to do The Line. I want to do it. It would be good for these preppy bitches. We might have to perform tomorrow. The number isn't finished. Fuck life.
This morning all I could think about was that dream. You're home! Knowing your home makes me happy. Even if you're not beside me. We tell each other everything. Shit I haven't told you this. For good reason.
Ran 1.60 today. felt good. Breathing difficulties worry me. That's ok.
This is amazing...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgnFKNvmV7o
Love,
The Friend.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Rabbits: The Story of How They Ruined My Life
I found creepier girls than us! HIP HIP HOORAY!
Dave is officially my hero. No NAWHT THAT Dave. This Dave.
http://www.myspace.com/davedays
Parents everywhere are outraged at Britney Spears' newest single, If You Seek Amy because it actually means something else. I'm recapping the article and still can't see how it breaks down to be this way... but here goes nothing.
"All of the boys and all of the girls are beggin’ to/If You Seek Amy." It sounds puzzling, until you realize the title breaks down as ‘F.*.*.K ME’.
I must be really tired, or really old - How does If You Seek Amy translate into F&*k me?
Update: I looked online and it sounds like it, doesn't translate into it. So "eff-you-see-kay me" is how it is suppose to translate.
One mothers group in Australia sounded off:
"I was astonished and totally taken aback when I heard my five and seven year old kids walking around the house singing, ‘F-*-*-K. When I asked them what it was, they told me it was Britney Spears. I was horrified.
"I got them the Circus album because little kids are Britney fans, but there was no warning on the album and none of the songs listed had F-*-*-K in the title.
"Listening to it, it is extremely blatant and offensive. I feel I have been deceived into believing that this was acceptable content for children but instead it is objectionable."
What do you think about Britney's single? Too much for the radio?
Many fans said they see no problem with it. It's catchy, well written and there have been more perverse songs on the radio. I must say I agree with them. It's not like she went out right and said lick my lollipop.
http://www.youtube.com/user/BritneyTV?blend=2&ob=1
Getting to see my love this weekend. No not you. Him. So stoked!
Love,
If I were a girl...
Dave is officially my hero. No NAWHT THAT Dave. This Dave.
http://www.myspace.com/davedays
Parents everywhere are outraged at Britney Spears' newest single, If You Seek Amy because it actually means something else. I'm recapping the article and still can't see how it breaks down to be this way... but here goes nothing.
"All of the boys and all of the girls are beggin’ to/If You Seek Amy." It sounds puzzling, until you realize the title breaks down as ‘F.*.*.K ME’.
I must be really tired, or really old - How does If You Seek Amy translate into F&*k me?
Update: I looked online and it sounds like it, doesn't translate into it. So "eff-you-see-kay me" is how it is suppose to translate.
One mothers group in Australia sounded off:
"I was astonished and totally taken aback when I heard my five and seven year old kids walking around the house singing, ‘F-*-*-K. When I asked them what it was, they told me it was Britney Spears. I was horrified.
"I got them the Circus album because little kids are Britney fans, but there was no warning on the album and none of the songs listed had F-*-*-K in the title.
"Listening to it, it is extremely blatant and offensive. I feel I have been deceived into believing that this was acceptable content for children but instead it is objectionable."
What do you think about Britney's single? Too much for the radio?
Many fans said they see no problem with it. It's catchy, well written and there have been more perverse songs on the radio. I must say I agree with them. It's not like she went out right and said lick my lollipop.
http://www.youtube.com/user/BritneyTV?blend=2&ob=1
Getting to see my love this weekend. No not you. Him. So stoked!
Love,
If I were a girl...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
This Weekend
I don't want to go. Last time she said it was just an eye surgery. That's what she said to me again today. Last time it wasn't just an eye surgery. Was it?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=532jxGDRjGY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afv5jTrC7nM
Love,
Somedays It's Too Much
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=532jxGDRjGY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afv5jTrC7nM
Love,
Somedays It's Too Much
Them Kids Don't Know How To Dance To Rock and Roll
"Rock 'n' roll was one thing, and then they chopped off the roll and called it rock, which became a sort of umbrella term for anything with a guitar in it. Like hair bands. How could we possibly believe that? It's just gotten downright silly, to the point where now it's sort of become like professional wrestling. The fans know it's phony, but they don't care." - Tom Petty
I didn't know you were nominated for songwriter. You deserved it, but he is better then you lyrically. You are amazing with your words, but you know he understands his better than the lunatic fringe. Beer in one hand and water in the other. Kind of proud of you. It's called growing up bud. Kind of unimpressed with Plugs tonight.
Dallas totally deserved songwriter of the year. He's the only reason I listen to Alexisonfire. Just to hear his voice in the background of the screamo.
Nickelback officially ruins lives. I like their music before it becomes over played.
Sam Roberts totally deserved artist of the year. So amazing.
I really enjoyed Serena Ryder's performance as well as the first girl that sang in that little piece.
Bryan Adams! THAT SONG WAS AMAZING!!!! He was one of the first real artists I listened to. you know besides Fred Penner, Matchbox 20, the Backstreet Boys, Blink 182 and the Offspring. Funny story about that later.
I'm glad Lights won. She is such an amazing indie artist.
Earth Hour last night. Rents cheated. In the dark we watched Haunted House. LOL!
We will rebound from this. You are an amazing artist. As your attitude said in presenting, it's all a hoax of record sales.
Chuck totally scratched himself on the red carpet. I love that kid! And to think I'm giving it away. Sebastian bleached his hair again. Reason to cry self to sleep tonight.
Mother started talking about Bassist's. Hedley came on. I decided not to discuss that bassist with her... LOL! Nice facial hair though everyone. And Chris I like the kept look.
Blink ripped off one of the Backstreet Boys videos back in the 90's. And everytime the actual Backstreet Boys version would come on Much Music I'd get sad that it wasn't Blink when my sister watched it. I remember being 8 about a year after we moved here and I would run upstairs after school to my parents bedroom so that I could watch MOD without interruptions. If Rick was VJing it was a good day and if George was the VJ it was officially the best day EVER!
My back really hurts today. I feel really stiff. I've been doing yoga. I must say I'm starting to understand. It's like all your thoughts just float away and you focus on your breathing. It's peaceful. Peace is hard to come by these days.
Love,
LeT Go
I didn't know you were nominated for songwriter. You deserved it, but he is better then you lyrically. You are amazing with your words, but you know he understands his better than the lunatic fringe. Beer in one hand and water in the other. Kind of proud of you. It's called growing up bud. Kind of unimpressed with Plugs tonight.
Dallas totally deserved songwriter of the year. He's the only reason I listen to Alexisonfire. Just to hear his voice in the background of the screamo.
Nickelback officially ruins lives. I like their music before it becomes over played.
Sam Roberts totally deserved artist of the year. So amazing.
I really enjoyed Serena Ryder's performance as well as the first girl that sang in that little piece.
Bryan Adams! THAT SONG WAS AMAZING!!!! He was one of the first real artists I listened to. you know besides Fred Penner, Matchbox 20, the Backstreet Boys, Blink 182 and the Offspring. Funny story about that later.
I'm glad Lights won. She is such an amazing indie artist.
Earth Hour last night. Rents cheated. In the dark we watched Haunted House. LOL!
We will rebound from this. You are an amazing artist. As your attitude said in presenting, it's all a hoax of record sales.
Chuck totally scratched himself on the red carpet. I love that kid! And to think I'm giving it away. Sebastian bleached his hair again. Reason to cry self to sleep tonight.
Mother started talking about Bassist's. Hedley came on. I decided not to discuss that bassist with her... LOL! Nice facial hair though everyone. And Chris I like the kept look.
Blink ripped off one of the Backstreet Boys videos back in the 90's. And everytime the actual Backstreet Boys version would come on Much Music I'd get sad that it wasn't Blink when my sister watched it. I remember being 8 about a year after we moved here and I would run upstairs after school to my parents bedroom so that I could watch MOD without interruptions. If Rick was VJing it was a good day and if George was the VJ it was officially the best day EVER!
My back really hurts today. I feel really stiff. I've been doing yoga. I must say I'm starting to understand. It's like all your thoughts just float away and you focus on your breathing. It's peaceful. Peace is hard to come by these days.
Love,
LeT Go
You Stole MY Heart And Then You Kicked IT aside
When he's inside you, no there's no room for me.
Martin is. Interesting. Huh. Martin likes attention. Martin is an ego maniac. Martin is amazing when he's real Martin. Real Martin wouldn't freak out at stalker comments. Martin calls you cutie. Martin gives dying girls water.
I could be watching the Juno's but Tiger Woods is playing golf. So that's a negative.
All I have left is to finish out writing the procedure for Chem. I started organizing my pieces for my portfolio to.
Dry your eyes.
I hope they don't. He still loves to sing.
We will be there one day. You and I and him will share alcoholic/non-alcoholic beverages, depends if I can sway you on that one. We'll be legal by then, so you probably won't care.
Didn't finish Link Crew. Didn't get any apps done. Didn't put up poster. But it's all clean.
Anyways music is important today. So here's some not Canadian artists. Dane you're a riot! NO You're a FUCKING riot!
WIN!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzDvRT6liXQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z046MhhOud4
Couldn't find whole song. Deal with it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8woe-F1qgc
Love,
Just Try To Hold On
Martin is. Interesting. Huh. Martin likes attention. Martin is an ego maniac. Martin is amazing when he's real Martin. Real Martin wouldn't freak out at stalker comments. Martin calls you cutie. Martin gives dying girls water.
I could be watching the Juno's but Tiger Woods is playing golf. So that's a negative.
All I have left is to finish out writing the procedure for Chem. I started organizing my pieces for my portfolio to.
Dry your eyes.
I hope they don't. He still loves to sing.
We will be there one day. You and I and him will share alcoholic/non-alcoholic beverages, depends if I can sway you on that one. We'll be legal by then, so you probably won't care.
Didn't finish Link Crew. Didn't get any apps done. Didn't put up poster. But it's all clean.
Anyways music is important today. So here's some not Canadian artists. Dane you're a riot! NO You're a FUCKING riot!
WIN!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzDvRT6liXQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z046MhhOud4
Couldn't find whole song. Deal with it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8woe-F1qgc
Love,
Just Try To Hold On
Friday, March 27, 2009
We're So Stupid!
We forgot to pay for her. Fail... I dislike your friends. But that's okay. I had fun with Shoy. I have a lot of actual work to do now.
$25 online. Don't have credit cards. Or $30 at the door.
My tooth hurts.
I ate way too much tonight...
I'm now on question 7. I really need to get all that done.
Anyone download one of the movies yet?
Shoy said she'll run my hot dog stand. I appreciate that.
It's a lie AAR isn't opening for Nickelback.
Wondering how I will find the money for Warped and MBF and going out this week. I guess I could miss MBF. But I love him sooo much.
Found cards. Need to open.
Need to get work done on both MT projects. Guess I could do that in spare...
You want me to go to Lost Time. Which I also don't have money for. You think I'd get better treatment since I know everybody.
I hate Moxies, it was so cramped, and we got bad service mainly because we are teenagers. Which is just so flipping stupid. I hate that so much.
I loved that old man tonight.
Need to write up Link Crew thing. Could probably use the same one from last year... I think I deleted it.
I'm having throat problems right now... Which is not good for singing... Sigh...
I can't think of words right now. I dislike words right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCOOAiKd73o
Love,
The Back of my Eyelids
$25 online. Don't have credit cards. Or $30 at the door.
My tooth hurts.
I ate way too much tonight...
I'm now on question 7. I really need to get all that done.
Anyone download one of the movies yet?
Shoy said she'll run my hot dog stand. I appreciate that.
It's a lie AAR isn't opening for Nickelback.
Wondering how I will find the money for Warped and MBF and going out this week. I guess I could miss MBF. But I love him sooo much.
Found cards. Need to open.
Need to get work done on both MT projects. Guess I could do that in spare...
You want me to go to Lost Time. Which I also don't have money for. You think I'd get better treatment since I know everybody.
I hate Moxies, it was so cramped, and we got bad service mainly because we are teenagers. Which is just so flipping stupid. I hate that so much.
I loved that old man tonight.
Need to write up Link Crew thing. Could probably use the same one from last year... I think I deleted it.
I'm having throat problems right now... Which is not good for singing... Sigh...
I can't think of words right now. I dislike words right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCOOAiKd73o
Love,
The Back of my Eyelids
It Changes So Quickly
Ok new goals. Maybe I'll actually get these accomplished. Today: Finish getting ready, finish social questions, I'm now on four! Tomorrow: Scratch 'dome app... Maybe go out and try to find a job... Put up flyer, finish social assignment.
I'm really poor. This is bad. And I'm rather tired of depending on others.
I don't really have many thoughts today. I don't really feel like going out. I really like the feeling of home. At the same time I will probably really enjoy tonight.
Focus on job. Oh and other goal. Write learners test before April 18th.
Love,
Mr. Homewood's favourite word, the F word!
I'm really poor. This is bad. And I'm rather tired of depending on others.
I don't really have many thoughts today. I don't really feel like going out. I really like the feeling of home. At the same time I will probably really enjoy tonight.
Focus on job. Oh and other goal. Write learners test before April 18th.
Love,
Mr. Homewood's favourite word, the F word!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
My Life is Your Life
You are going to be the most amazing Hockey Mom. I can't wait to watch your life unfold. The day we say goodbye, you said you'd cry. I don't think I will. Why? Because I know that no matter how far apart we are geographically we will still know everything about one another. You can come on vacations with us. It'll be stellar. And then when I'm working with Tom, I'll call you up and we'll chill like all cool kids do. Listening to AAR thinking about tonight. With you I don't have to try. It's just all so simple. I'm glad you got nice pictures. AAR's new album is wicked amazing. Check it out fools! Soco is working on their last two tracks. BLINK 182 is recording and rehearsing and I'm so stoked. I love them kids!!! Say it's true, I'll never ask for anyone but you. We've gone months without seeing each other. But it's never seemed to matter. You look nice when we go out. That's why I ask you first. Fun times tonight with Lanny and pervy old man.
Dinner tomorrow. I'm stoked. She's wearing a dress. Which means I get to look hot. I love her. She wore a mini skirt when we went to the zoo. I love her so much.
So tired right now and my brain hurts.
You keep harassing me about your play. I don't know what's going on here. Maybe I don't want to. Welcome to the real world now.
I so didn't get all I had planned done today.
Things I accomplished : first social question, got ready, exercised, watched Taking Chance, went out... That's it. I need to be more productive tomorrow.
Love,
Tyson Ritter a brilliant musician, unlike our beloved Petey.
Dinner tomorrow. I'm stoked. She's wearing a dress. Which means I get to look hot. I love her. She wore a mini skirt when we went to the zoo. I love her so much.
So tired right now and my brain hurts.
You keep harassing me about your play. I don't know what's going on here. Maybe I don't want to. Welcome to the real world now.
I so didn't get all I had planned done today.
Things I accomplished : first social question, got ready, exercised, watched Taking Chance, went out... That's it. I need to be more productive tomorrow.
Love,
Tyson Ritter a brilliant musician, unlike our beloved Petey.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Productivity!
I did nothing today. Absolutely nothing. I feel rather useless. I was going to work on Social. Naw... I should go to bed at a respectable hour tonight instead of 3am... I didn't wake up happy today. Goals for tomorrow: exercise, walk to Lake to put up flyer, finish social textbook questions and then get ready for the game tomorrow. Oh and finish my 'dome application. I don't think I'm going to do the Bell Kids thing anymore... I don't know. I love time off because I get time to recoop, but I get all lost. You don't think you want to go. You're lame. What am I going to wear tomorrow... I don't owe my mother $400.00... I got two hooligans to pay the $40.00... now its only $360... I see this as a positive. I want to open my letter... But she hid them... I will find them. Trust me on that one... My back kills today... Also on tomorrow's to do list: Link Crew. Then Friday: Chart assignment and dinner. Saturday: watch movie and coffee with someone special. Sunday: finish writing movie report and memorize Chem lab, the fire one! EEK! We do go back on Monday don't we? Or is it Tuesday? Like I know anymore!
Ok going to watch movie and read some tonight...
Love,
"No it wont all go the way it should, but I know the heart of life is good."
I love that Italian...
"Just when you discover the meaning of life, they change it!"
Ok going to watch movie and read some tonight...
Love,
"No it wont all go the way it should, but I know the heart of life is good."
I love that Italian...
"Just when you discover the meaning of life, they change it!"
Uhoh
I need to earn $110.00 before April 4th... Any good ideas?
Oh this to...
Wednesday, Aug 12 2009
Race City Speedway
Calgary, AB
Presale tickets gets you a sweet 15th anniversary edition ticket that is a 3D hologram to. You also get to go to the front of the line, the day of. You get entered to win their two contests. And you get the VWT '09 CD.
Back to earning that $110.00.....
Oh this to...
Wednesday, Aug 12 2009
Race City Speedway
Calgary, AB
Presale tickets gets you a sweet 15th anniversary edition ticket that is a 3D hologram to. You also get to go to the front of the line, the day of. You get entered to win their two contests. And you get the VWT '09 CD.
Back to earning that $110.00.....
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
To The Starving Homeless Children of Mexico
I hate you. You starving homeless children of Mexico. God can smite me now, later, whenever is convenient for him, or maybe we're even now. You are away building houses for the starving homeless children of Mexico. And I'm dying. You never notice how much you love someone till they are gone. So maybe you're only gone for like 12 days. It's been 5 days. Another 7. No. I will not do it.
I just spent a lovely dinner. Listening to how all my dreams are stupid. How I must now find the money for school. Because who would pay $5000.00 tuition for a business degree. When I'm the next fucking Clive Davis $5000.00 won't seem like a lot. I don't care what you have to say. I love the city. I love it so much. If you find the right people. No where to be. I can do this. Then why does it seem like everything is in the way.
You should have left me your fucking scarf before you left. Not like you need it in Mexico. Yes I would sleep with it. I said it. Take that fuckers! I think I came to this realization one drunk night ago. It only seems more clear now since that other kid. Was all. Woah, sexual tension. Let's not go there. I have a neck eating scarf bitches!
Everything I know has been stomped on. What am I going to learn here in Calgary. Or in Prince George. About the music business. Abso-fucking-lutely nothing. That's what. I need a job. A job that doesn't interfere. Like that's going to happen. You want me to get a job. She didn't need a job. Why cause you're rich friends paid her. Oh and because she was going to be an engineer. Not the next Clive Davis. No one wants me to babysit. You won't let me apply to deliver flyers. I think I'm going to go apply at a few places anyways. Before Friday nights adventure. I can't wait for Thursday. It's going to be good.
In conclusion. I miss you so much it's like you took my heart with you when you left. I just want to lean on your shoulder and fall asleep. Or I want to know that when I wake up in the morning. I'll be in our studio. Eating breakfast with you. I have to many thoughts in my heard. All my dreams and plans and goals were squashed in the amount of time dinner was over and dessert arrived. Ms. Johnston didn't believe me when I told her they didn't care. Can't wait for all the lies on April 7th. Should be a jolly good time.
I was by myself finally for maybe 30 seconds. When this song came on. I used to hate this song. The tears on my face now tell me otherwise...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qz7vGW2_5c0
Love,
Fatal habits, Broken Dreams, Waking up isn't all it seems...
I just spent a lovely dinner. Listening to how all my dreams are stupid. How I must now find the money for school. Because who would pay $5000.00 tuition for a business degree. When I'm the next fucking Clive Davis $5000.00 won't seem like a lot. I don't care what you have to say. I love the city. I love it so much. If you find the right people. No where to be. I can do this. Then why does it seem like everything is in the way.
You should have left me your fucking scarf before you left. Not like you need it in Mexico. Yes I would sleep with it. I said it. Take that fuckers! I think I came to this realization one drunk night ago. It only seems more clear now since that other kid. Was all. Woah, sexual tension. Let's not go there. I have a neck eating scarf bitches!
Everything I know has been stomped on. What am I going to learn here in Calgary. Or in Prince George. About the music business. Abso-fucking-lutely nothing. That's what. I need a job. A job that doesn't interfere. Like that's going to happen. You want me to get a job. She didn't need a job. Why cause you're rich friends paid her. Oh and because she was going to be an engineer. Not the next Clive Davis. No one wants me to babysit. You won't let me apply to deliver flyers. I think I'm going to go apply at a few places anyways. Before Friday nights adventure. I can't wait for Thursday. It's going to be good.
In conclusion. I miss you so much it's like you took my heart with you when you left. I just want to lean on your shoulder and fall asleep. Or I want to know that when I wake up in the morning. I'll be in our studio. Eating breakfast with you. I have to many thoughts in my heard. All my dreams and plans and goals were squashed in the amount of time dinner was over and dessert arrived. Ms. Johnston didn't believe me when I told her they didn't care. Can't wait for all the lies on April 7th. Should be a jolly good time.
I was by myself finally for maybe 30 seconds. When this song came on. I used to hate this song. The tears on my face now tell me otherwise...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qz7vGW2_5c0
Love,
Fatal habits, Broken Dreams, Waking up isn't all it seems...
Monday, March 23, 2009
TRUE STORY!!!
See Me Fly says:
i'm killing myself
i keep looking at photos of this summer
and damn i looked happy and hot
now i just look clinically insane
Elaine says:
me too man
instead of killing yourself, make a musical with me
because we'll be allowed to be awesome
ON OUR OWN
See Me Fly says:
cause killing myself was the only answer ihad for this
Elaine says:
yar
See Me Fly says:
also i want my hair long again
my hair looks like shit
Elaine says:
get like blue extensions
or some weird shit
because JIMBO CAN'T TELL YOU YOU CAN'T
BAHAHA
See Me Fly says:
hahahahahahhaha
YESH!
PARTAY!
Elaine says:
WOOO
brb eating nachos 2 get fat
BECAUSE I CA
...CAN
See Me Fly says:
YESH!
I JUST HAD THE WORST REALIZATION!
Elaine says:
LET'S HEAR IT
See Me Fly says:
IN THE END!
LIKE ALL HORRIBLE LIVES!
COLIN AND I ARE GOING TO END UP TOGETHER!
Elaine says:
OH GOD
YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO GET MARRIED
See Me Fly says:
you know its true
Elaine says:
AND HE'S GOING TO LEAVE YOU AFTER 15 YEARS OF MARRIAGE
FOR A MAN
YOU WILL DRINK A BEER
AND WE WILL DO A REVIVAL OF TEEN ANGST
CALLED
MIDLIFE CRISIS: THE MUSICAL
AND MAKE MONEY.
See Me Fly says:
ITS TRUE
YOU KNOW IT!
I"M SOOOO FUCKED!
Elaine says:
I'M GOING TO END UP RICH AND FAMOUS
AND LONELY.
NO ONE WILL REALLY LOVE ME
ALL MY FRIENDS WILL LEAVE ME
I WILL HAVE A HUSBAND WHO WILL END UP GAY
AFTER 5 MONTHS
AND END UP BANGING COLIN
SO WE'LL BE LIKE
WOW FUCK MY LIFE
I WILL END UP HATING EVERYTHING
I'M PRETTY SURE THIS IS WHAT WILL HAPPEN
AND I WILL DEVOUR MYSELF IN MY WORK
See Me Fly says:
ok no since i'm sitting here feeling miserable
i''m lookng at old photos
and it occured to me
no one besides colin will ever love me
and now that we've planned to move in together
Elaine says:
I love you
See Me Fly says:
one horrid drunk night....
Elaine says:
in a nonsexual romantic way
See Me Fly says:
the world will end
Elaine says:
oh god
yeah rofl
anyway
I'm 98% sure I'm destined to live a life of angst
See Me Fly says:
oh......
Elaine says:
some people can be happy
but life would rather eat my balls
so
I'm going to become a workaholic most likely
and write music about how much I hate everything in my spare time
I just need to remember this for eternity...
i'm killing myself
i keep looking at photos of this summer
and damn i looked happy and hot
now i just look clinically insane
Elaine says:
me too man
instead of killing yourself, make a musical with me
because we'll be allowed to be awesome
ON OUR OWN
See Me Fly says:
cause killing myself was the only answer ihad for this
Elaine says:
yar
See Me Fly says:
also i want my hair long again
my hair looks like shit
Elaine says:
get like blue extensions
or some weird shit
because JIMBO CAN'T TELL YOU YOU CAN'T
BAHAHA
See Me Fly says:
hahahahahahhaha
YESH!
PARTAY!
Elaine says:
WOOO
brb eating nachos 2 get fat
BECAUSE I CA
...CAN
See Me Fly says:
YESH!
I JUST HAD THE WORST REALIZATION!
Elaine says:
LET'S HEAR IT
See Me Fly says:
IN THE END!
LIKE ALL HORRIBLE LIVES!
COLIN AND I ARE GOING TO END UP TOGETHER!
Elaine says:
OH GOD
YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO GET MARRIED
See Me Fly says:
you know its true
Elaine says:
AND HE'S GOING TO LEAVE YOU AFTER 15 YEARS OF MARRIAGE
FOR A MAN
YOU WILL DRINK A BEER
AND WE WILL DO A REVIVAL OF TEEN ANGST
CALLED
MIDLIFE CRISIS: THE MUSICAL
AND MAKE MONEY.
See Me Fly says:
ITS TRUE
YOU KNOW IT!
I"M SOOOO FUCKED!
Elaine says:
I'M GOING TO END UP RICH AND FAMOUS
AND LONELY.
NO ONE WILL REALLY LOVE ME
ALL MY FRIENDS WILL LEAVE ME
I WILL HAVE A HUSBAND WHO WILL END UP GAY
AFTER 5 MONTHS
AND END UP BANGING COLIN
SO WE'LL BE LIKE
WOW FUCK MY LIFE
I WILL END UP HATING EVERYTHING
I'M PRETTY SURE THIS IS WHAT WILL HAPPEN
AND I WILL DEVOUR MYSELF IN MY WORK
See Me Fly says:
ok no since i'm sitting here feeling miserable
i''m lookng at old photos
and it occured to me
no one besides colin will ever love me
and now that we've planned to move in together
Elaine says:
I love you
See Me Fly says:
one horrid drunk night....
Elaine says:
in a nonsexual romantic way
See Me Fly says:
the world will end
Elaine says:
oh god
yeah rofl
anyway
I'm 98% sure I'm destined to live a life of angst
See Me Fly says:
oh......
Elaine says:
some people can be happy
but life would rather eat my balls
so
I'm going to become a workaholic most likely
and write music about how much I hate everything in my spare time
I just need to remember this for eternity...
You Must Be Happy With Yourself
I really have to pee. Yet for some crazy reason I will not get up and walk to 15 steps to the bathroom. I'm losing my mind. There are times like these. Figure out that song. Where I see my insanity collapsing in on me. In public I will literally begin to act out the scenes I see in my head. That's the messed up thing. Me sitting here. I am not looking at the computer screen. No. I am standing to my left, watching this girl type, with an encrypted expression on her face. Her desk begins to spin so that the audience can see the screen. Her music comes into focus. At first it seems soft. But the brutality of it comes into focus with the volume. This is really how I see life. It is rather unfortunate. Never experiencing something first hand. But experiencing those emotions to store them for later. When they will need to be used. I walk down the street. Feeling out the rhythm in my head, even when headphones aren't attached. Mumbling to myself. Writing out random things here and there. Artistic visions are constructed in many ways. Maybe I will write that script. Get this. The plot. Girl goes to see therapist. But does not want to. Their sessions continue to escalate until... Well that part will come in due time my friends. Scripts are about what's happening to the writer. You can always tell which is the writer. Don't lie to yourself. Judge the book by the cover. It's what actors play off of. Picture this. Old frazzled woman at a glance. At a second glance we see she is young but has aged. She's walking down an upscale street in Europe. She doesn't fit in with the crowd. Every time she passes a jewelers she starts yelling at the window. Then she moves on to the next one. The conclusions we all just drew about this woman is amazing. The way we all saw her in our head. The way we saw the shot move. Did you hear a shot? In real life there was no shot. But I heard it. I was talking about the filming angle. But then my head thought what if she was shot. Then it continued on with her story. What did you see? Or are you just reading? Are you absorbing what you're reading? One is either passive or active. Which are you? But wait, which are you really? You're most likely passive. Until now. While reading this you were thinking about your own thoughts. What you might do with these words. Instead of just reading what I have to say.
Love,
Swollen in Wake Up calls.
Love,
Swollen in Wake Up calls.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
BrokenElegance
I joined the cult if you so wish to find me.
I knew about it. LOL! I'm not going though. cause H totld me the next time his band played I got to be there, so I was supposed to be there, but now my mom says I have to stay home. So that's why I'm not there. Vibe doesn't even know. That makes me laugh.
Also I commented you today because I want to know if that's really you or not. I'd totally be there for you. You are amazing.
Slept until 3. Showered at like 6. It's been a good day.
We are to hang out this week since we need to work on our artistic vision but you have to work and the nights you can chill I'm busy. Maybe we can go to Bucks or something tomorrow.
This is the second time you've personally invited me to your show. Fuck my life.
I need a job. Maybe I'll go put up babysitting posters this week at the Lake... Maybe. I'll think about it.
Keeping my eye on the music,
Love.
I knew about it. LOL! I'm not going though. cause H totld me the next time his band played I got to be there, so I was supposed to be there, but now my mom says I have to stay home. So that's why I'm not there. Vibe doesn't even know. That makes me laugh.
Also I commented you today because I want to know if that's really you or not. I'd totally be there for you. You are amazing.
Slept until 3. Showered at like 6. It's been a good day.
We are to hang out this week since we need to work on our artistic vision but you have to work and the nights you can chill I'm busy. Maybe we can go to Bucks or something tomorrow.
This is the second time you've personally invited me to your show. Fuck my life.
I need a job. Maybe I'll go put up babysitting posters this week at the Lake... Maybe. I'll think about it.
Keeping my eye on the music,
Love.
Why Do I Do This?
You should have called me. You should have fucking called me last night. Oh well. I'll get over it, because I love you. We all think about it. You did it. It's hard. Right. Isn't it. I think about it more and more. I want to join that group. I wish I had the strength to. Those weeks just about ended five minutes ago. It ends every time shit goes down. I get through it some days. Better then most days. We never see each other enough. We get each other so much. And have been there for each other for a lot. We are totally chilling this upcoming week. We have a lot of artistic shit to workout. I got your message three hours too late tonight. I'm glad I decided to come over here and talk to you. I don't know how you stood by my shit last year. I fucking love you man.
Wake up people. Shit isn't materialistic anymore. I would have been there in a second if... Well I'm not finishing that, because I know my readers. So I will leave the fucking world in suspense. And just keep another thing to myself. Another fucking thing, no one will know, or remember or care to ask about. Those three simple words have become so much more.
I like to believe that you know. That you see. Pictures don't do it justice anymore.
If you would open up your fucking eyes, you'd take the time. Whatever. There's a song I want you all to hear right now. But that's gonna be just another thing I keep to myself.
Art makes me lose it. Art gets me through it. Art is everything I breathe.
Love,
Everything you want to hold.
Wake up people. Shit isn't materialistic anymore. I would have been there in a second if... Well I'm not finishing that, because I know my readers. So I will leave the fucking world in suspense. And just keep another thing to myself. Another fucking thing, no one will know, or remember or care to ask about. Those three simple words have become so much more.
I like to believe that you know. That you see. Pictures don't do it justice anymore.
If you would open up your fucking eyes, you'd take the time. Whatever. There's a song I want you all to hear right now. But that's gonna be just another thing I keep to myself.
Art makes me lose it. Art gets me through it. Art is everything I breathe.
Love,
Everything you want to hold.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Ernie Ball Battle of The Bands 13
This is one of the stages at Warped this year. And the following are the bands competing at the Calgary stage. You vote online for them.
This is my future... Sigh...
Yeah Whatever - Omg I’m scared….
Silver gun & Spleen - Better then I was expecting…
Your Firearms are Useless - no.
Stampede Queen - Meh. Alright.
Harmful Effects - No.
Inner City Elegance - One of the better local bands.
Major Flinch - I like. I likey a lot. I’m gonna see if they play at the café’s downtown… HAHAHA!
Mr. Citizen - Pretty good. Jammin’.
He Completes Her - Techno-ie I likey.
Prom Night In Black and White - I like it. Like all the other bands I listen to. Good stuff.
She Writes Phoenix - yikes…
Through The Messenger - Not.
Asmenos - Meh. Whatever.
Ignite The Sea - No… Kind of like Myles’ band…
Ashland Court - No.
Fame - Talented in their genre. But not in my style.
Riot in the Dark - Pretty good. Nothing Special.
The Cryptorchids - No.
Life In a Doghouse - Incase the title didn’t give it away. No.
The Ruined - Lame.
We Don’t Fight Fair - Lame.
Man Panda! - In their own words, “They’re going nowhere”
Mystery Point - Melodic problems. Otay…
On The Sidewalk Bleeding - beats good. Otherwise questionable.
Kill Rhythm - Underground Disturbed. I like.
Sing City Lights - Stamp of approval.
Shattered Reflection - I most definitely approve.
Crisis Jane - Alright. Nasal sound.
Sinister trailerpark magic - enough said.
Saxton - LOL.
zeroscape - that’s awkward.
Feeding Fiction - No.
Behold, The Burning Sky - Ya no.
Fableway - No.
Platea - No.
Saul - No.
Dryrun - No.
Escapes - I like it.
Oral Compensation - Better than what I expected. Not a band I’d listen to though.
Stand Down - Heavier then my usual likings, but still good.
Feeding Fiction - lame…
… in transformation - Not.
Fighting For Ithica - Styling. Funny. Attractive. And musically talented. I’m in love.
This is my future... Sigh...
Yeah Whatever - Omg I’m scared….
Silver gun & Spleen - Better then I was expecting…
Your Firearms are Useless - no.
Stampede Queen - Meh. Alright.
Harmful Effects - No.
Inner City Elegance - One of the better local bands.
Major Flinch - I like. I likey a lot. I’m gonna see if they play at the café’s downtown… HAHAHA!
Mr. Citizen - Pretty good. Jammin’.
He Completes Her - Techno-ie I likey.
Prom Night In Black and White - I like it. Like all the other bands I listen to. Good stuff.
She Writes Phoenix - yikes…
Through The Messenger - Not.
Asmenos - Meh. Whatever.
Ignite The Sea - No… Kind of like Myles’ band…
Ashland Court - No.
Fame - Talented in their genre. But not in my style.
Riot in the Dark - Pretty good. Nothing Special.
The Cryptorchids - No.
Life In a Doghouse - Incase the title didn’t give it away. No.
The Ruined - Lame.
We Don’t Fight Fair - Lame.
Man Panda! - In their own words, “They’re going nowhere”
Mystery Point - Melodic problems. Otay…
On The Sidewalk Bleeding - beats good. Otherwise questionable.
Kill Rhythm - Underground Disturbed. I like.
Sing City Lights - Stamp of approval.
Shattered Reflection - I most definitely approve.
Crisis Jane - Alright. Nasal sound.
Sinister trailerpark magic - enough said.
Saxton - LOL.
zeroscape - that’s awkward.
Feeding Fiction - No.
Behold, The Burning Sky - Ya no.
Fableway - No.
Platea - No.
Saul - No.
Dryrun - No.
Escapes - I like it.
Oral Compensation - Better than what I expected. Not a band I’d listen to though.
Stand Down - Heavier then my usual likings, but still good.
Feeding Fiction - lame…
… in transformation - Not.
Fighting For Ithica - Styling. Funny. Attractive. And musically talented. I’m in love.
I Saw This...
On the website... For the Juno's and smiled. I love these boys.
Why I love them so much no one will ever understand. But that is really okay with me. We should work together in the future. mmtay?
I wish I always looked that pimpin'.
Why I love them so much no one will ever understand. But that is really okay with me. We should work together in the future. mmtay?
I wish I always looked that pimpin'.
Real Tears on Real Stages
Billy i love you, you are amazing. This made me cry, too.
http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnlvdXR1YmUuY29tL3dhdGNoP3Y9ZEJxMXA5cC1UZ28=
http://inmusic.ca/photos/themes/Articles/whiniest.htm?feedname=photo_gallery_music_whiniest&pos=1&nolookup=true
Read the comments under photos. So great!
http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnlvdXR1YmUuY29tL3dhdGNoP3Y9ZEJxMXA5cC1UZ28=
http://inmusic.ca/photos/themes/Articles/whiniest.htm?feedname=photo_gallery_music_whiniest&pos=1&nolookup=true
Read the comments under photos. So great!
YES YOU LIVE A LIE!
I Miss RENT. I actually miss the thought of RENT. But Summerstock will not do it justice. Poor baby. Hey for somebody's whose always been let down who's heading out of town? Every word. You don't want baggage without lifetimes guarantees, you don't want to watch me die, I just came to say goodbye love... Glory, one blaze of glory, I have to find... Hello disease.
There is a constant musical going on in my head. Watching FN helps. I love the image of her walking into her bedroom and him walking into this whole other world. It's how I am. It sucks. YAY DEPRESSED, ANGSTY ARTIST WHO EVENTUALLY BECOME ADDICTS! HIP HIP HOORAY!
CSI lame. Pete was barely on it. But when he came on the screen I kept giggling even though there was a gun to his head. I just kept thinking. About things... That cannot be mentioned. Hey everyone else did it.
Yelled at J today. She deserved it. She's gotten on my nerves. The number's looking pretty sweet if we could just FINISH IT!
I'm debating, curly hair or straight hair tonight... Hmmm... And high heeled shoes or flats. I'm going all out. I haven't been able to look this good since like Seattle. The way you look changes everything. The people that talk to you. How much more people are willing to help you. It even helps you pick up guys at the Cheesecake Factory... I mean I know nothing about that... And I need to put on my purpl-ish make up instead of brown.
I love the Jonas Brothers. Kevin's HAWT! I love him. Do the Kevin.
I'm going to be so exhausted.
The title today is rather symbolic. I'm so full of shit, it's fantastic. The best part is I'm an actor. You weren't hear today. It made me sad. I found my fucking book in the tree though! ASS! I want my other books back with their slip covers now! ARGH!!!! How long has my book been in that tree? Since like September... Ass. I love you.
Love,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG-kUrKI0fo
There is a constant musical going on in my head. Watching FN helps. I love the image of her walking into her bedroom and him walking into this whole other world. It's how I am. It sucks. YAY DEPRESSED, ANGSTY ARTIST WHO EVENTUALLY BECOME ADDICTS! HIP HIP HOORAY!
CSI lame. Pete was barely on it. But when he came on the screen I kept giggling even though there was a gun to his head. I just kept thinking. About things... That cannot be mentioned. Hey everyone else did it.
Yelled at J today. She deserved it. She's gotten on my nerves. The number's looking pretty sweet if we could just FINISH IT!
I'm debating, curly hair or straight hair tonight... Hmmm... And high heeled shoes or flats. I'm going all out. I haven't been able to look this good since like Seattle. The way you look changes everything. The people that talk to you. How much more people are willing to help you. It even helps you pick up guys at the Cheesecake Factory... I mean I know nothing about that... And I need to put on my purpl-ish make up instead of brown.
I love the Jonas Brothers. Kevin's HAWT! I love him. Do the Kevin.
I'm going to be so exhausted.
The title today is rather symbolic. I'm so full of shit, it's fantastic. The best part is I'm an actor. You weren't hear today. It made me sad. I found my fucking book in the tree though! ASS! I want my other books back with their slip covers now! ARGH!!!! How long has my book been in that tree? Since like September... Ass. I love you.
Love,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG-kUrKI0fo
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Lover's In a Dangerous Time
The first official punk dance was pogoed. It consisted of jumping up and down on the spot, as if on a pogo stick.
Boxers or briefs? Today nothing...so...
Isn't it in bad taste to have a Dead Kennedy's concert on the anniversary of JFK's assassination? Well the assassination wasn't very tasteful either.
This is a song we all need once and a while but never ask for.
I'm going out tomorrow night. I have no monies. Screw my life.
You're leaving tomorrow. Sigh. I thought what happened between you and him was over. Apparently not.
I want to sing this song for Musical Theater. Wonder how that will go over...
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
You say, "Time for bed now, child,"
Mom just smiles that smile-
Just like she never saw me
Just like she never saw me...
So, I leave, wantin' just to hide.
Knowin' deep inside
You are comin' to me.
You are comin' to me...
You say all you want is just a kiss goodnight,
And then you hold me and you whisper,
"Child the Lord won't mind.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty."
"God, it's good-lovin'-ain't it good tonight
You ain't seen nothin' yet-gonna treat you right.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty"
[ILSE]
I don't scream. Though I know it's wrong.
I just play along.
I lie there and breathe.
Lie there and breathe...
I wanna be strong-
I want the world to find out
That you're dreamin' on me,
Me and my "beauty"
[BOTH]
Me and my "beauty"...
You say all you want is just a kiss goodnight,
And then you hold me and you whisper,
"Child the Lord won't mind.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty."
"God, it's good-lovin'-ain't it good tonight
You ain't seen nothin' yet-gonna treat you right.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty"
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
Love,
But you can't see when all your dreams are coming true, it's easy to forget.
Boxers or briefs? Today nothing...so...
Isn't it in bad taste to have a Dead Kennedy's concert on the anniversary of JFK's assassination? Well the assassination wasn't very tasteful either.
This is a song we all need once and a while but never ask for.
I'm going out tomorrow night. I have no monies. Screw my life.
You're leaving tomorrow. Sigh. I thought what happened between you and him was over. Apparently not.
I want to sing this song for Musical Theater. Wonder how that will go over...
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
You say, "Time for bed now, child,"
Mom just smiles that smile-
Just like she never saw me
Just like she never saw me...
So, I leave, wantin' just to hide.
Knowin' deep inside
You are comin' to me.
You are comin' to me...
You say all you want is just a kiss goodnight,
And then you hold me and you whisper,
"Child the Lord won't mind.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty."
"God, it's good-lovin'-ain't it good tonight
You ain't seen nothin' yet-gonna treat you right.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty"
[ILSE]
I don't scream. Though I know it's wrong.
I just play along.
I lie there and breathe.
Lie there and breathe...
I wanna be strong-
I want the world to find out
That you're dreamin' on me,
Me and my "beauty"
[BOTH]
Me and my "beauty"...
You say all you want is just a kiss goodnight,
And then you hold me and you whisper,
"Child the Lord won't mind.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty."
"God, it's good-lovin'-ain't it good tonight
You ain't seen nothin' yet-gonna treat you right.
It's just you and me.
Child you're a beauty"
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
There's a part I can't tell
About the dark I know well.
Love,
But you can't see when all your dreams are coming true, it's easy to forget.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I Remember It Well
What I wanted to talk about yesterday was Elton John. Don't ask why. I wanted to tell you about Tiny Dancer.
Today was whatever. Have some professionalism. I'm thinking of leaving it behind. People seem to not care anymore. Immaturity levels have increased. Plus I need to know. That I can do it. I can survive in that environment. With temptations left. Right. Center. Up stage. Down stage. Shit. I fell off the stage. It's the challenge I want to take. It's everything I think about. It's all I want. It's all I ever wanted. But life got in my way. I need an income. I need to save. Those previous are also needs. Social today. Skinny jeans. Came up. If that conversation would have gone on. I would have hurt someone. I relate that to a lot. It's part of the lifestyle. It's part of life. Don't judge people. House pissed me off. Normally he doesn't bother me. This week was to much. Experiment. Don't experiment to much. Someday it's okay to be experimental.
http://www.myspace.com/thestreets
You play life so safe. I hate safety zones. They're like boxes. The Vagina Monologues. I'm going to write my own play. Then I'll write the musical too. Like I said experience it. Don't sit and watch it. Then lie about it. Then the lies seem to become reality. Her lips. Your lips. Find your own person. You wanted to be a band geek. You hated makeup. You wanted. I get scared. Easily. Friends fight. You get stuck in the middle. You get confused. Everything else is just borrowed. I believe that. The whole things true. I want that job. I want it so bad. I want it because I'm not a fan girl. I need it because it's everything I know. You were once everything I knew. Everyday I want to pull out your insides. You need to be your own person. I just put my book down. I haven't started it either. Think about it. They always change the meaning of life. One thought it was love. The lover laughed at that fool. They knew better. This is my hour. I'm not going to bed. There's so much to do. Sleep suffers. Without sleep. You suffer. You seem to always suffer anyway. Is that life? Suffering? Wait. I thought it was love? I need an income. Money prevails. OPA! You come into this world with nothing. People think you do. They think you have love. But no one knows you. No one knows what you'll become. Love dies. Someday it might heal. Forgive not forget. Continue living life, not move on. The characters. The actors in my head. The singers in my head. They all perform at once. While learning Avogadro I'm plotting a show. I'm always thinking. But am I? Maybe I'm just going? Write it on a napkin. You can't sit. Force love of words onto a page. It doesn't work. Going out. Friday. Look hot. I hate people who go out looking like slobs. Makes me not want to go anywhere with them. True story. Notice. Choose. React. The words to songs we thought we knew. What I'm trying to say is this. My words or melody. Never as beautiful. Beauty's in the eye of the beholder. What a mind fuck. Open your eyes. How many times can I say it. We're the age of revolution. Stop reading about it. Do it. Impossible is nothing. It's about cross marketing. It's about drugs, guns and shoes, you chose. People forget. We chose. We always have the final say.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1XUbJEPShE
So elegant. So simple. So amazing.
Love,
No More Blue Eyes
Today was whatever. Have some professionalism. I'm thinking of leaving it behind. People seem to not care anymore. Immaturity levels have increased. Plus I need to know. That I can do it. I can survive in that environment. With temptations left. Right. Center. Up stage. Down stage. Shit. I fell off the stage. It's the challenge I want to take. It's everything I think about. It's all I want. It's all I ever wanted. But life got in my way. I need an income. I need to save. Those previous are also needs. Social today. Skinny jeans. Came up. If that conversation would have gone on. I would have hurt someone. I relate that to a lot. It's part of the lifestyle. It's part of life. Don't judge people. House pissed me off. Normally he doesn't bother me. This week was to much. Experiment. Don't experiment to much. Someday it's okay to be experimental.
http://www.myspace.com/thestreets
You play life so safe. I hate safety zones. They're like boxes. The Vagina Monologues. I'm going to write my own play. Then I'll write the musical too. Like I said experience it. Don't sit and watch it. Then lie about it. Then the lies seem to become reality. Her lips. Your lips. Find your own person. You wanted to be a band geek. You hated makeup. You wanted. I get scared. Easily. Friends fight. You get stuck in the middle. You get confused. Everything else is just borrowed. I believe that. The whole things true. I want that job. I want it so bad. I want it because I'm not a fan girl. I need it because it's everything I know. You were once everything I knew. Everyday I want to pull out your insides. You need to be your own person. I just put my book down. I haven't started it either. Think about it. They always change the meaning of life. One thought it was love. The lover laughed at that fool. They knew better. This is my hour. I'm not going to bed. There's so much to do. Sleep suffers. Without sleep. You suffer. You seem to always suffer anyway. Is that life? Suffering? Wait. I thought it was love? I need an income. Money prevails. OPA! You come into this world with nothing. People think you do. They think you have love. But no one knows you. No one knows what you'll become. Love dies. Someday it might heal. Forgive not forget. Continue living life, not move on. The characters. The actors in my head. The singers in my head. They all perform at once. While learning Avogadro I'm plotting a show. I'm always thinking. But am I? Maybe I'm just going? Write it on a napkin. You can't sit. Force love of words onto a page. It doesn't work. Going out. Friday. Look hot. I hate people who go out looking like slobs. Makes me not want to go anywhere with them. True story. Notice. Choose. React. The words to songs we thought we knew. What I'm trying to say is this. My words or melody. Never as beautiful. Beauty's in the eye of the beholder. What a mind fuck. Open your eyes. How many times can I say it. We're the age of revolution. Stop reading about it. Do it. Impossible is nothing. It's about cross marketing. It's about drugs, guns and shoes, you chose. People forget. We chose. We always have the final say.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1XUbJEPShE
So elegant. So simple. So amazing.
Love,
No More Blue Eyes
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Well That's A Sting and A Half
Why do I do these things to myself! Hair is bad. It's bad. House clean. Somewhat. Cause I need to know that you're alive. Why do I look at these things? Why? Did I think it was going to be better then last time. I can't tell what hurts more. Hearing about what you're doing to yourself. Or knowing about her. That image is now burned into my mind. Thank you. Why did I do that! UGH! It makes me feel unsteady. All I wanted was to see you this week. That's what happens. Of course it does. I remember everything. I'm always going to. Singing on the bus was fun. Sometimes I need the release of energy. But then when it comes down. It's a crashing burning building. Your lips. Her. Shut up. Shut up! Stolen side glances kill me. Are you just being my friend? Cause I can't handle that again. Seducing more first years are we? I want to be your friend but I don't know how. I will. Do that. I'm excited for the move. It will be amazing. You are amazing. Everything seems distant. No? No matter how close anything is anymore. It's all different. It's all been taken. By something that was different. But in this world. Different doesn't exist. Wake up people. This was supposed to be a happy post. Then the past hour happened. Why did I know this. Why is this everything that was. Cause every time everything will leave. You'll never know when. Or why. One morning you wake up and it's gone. How do you know? You woke up in the morning. Then when you go to sleep. You don't sleep. You wish sleep would save you. I remember all that. I remember the chains humans are faced with. I remember the wind. I remember the passion. I remember wanting to feel something. I'm dramatic. My ego likes the attention. I've come to that now. It's not always that way. Sometimes I remember those three years. A lot of the time I want them to go away. We were going down the same path. But how drastically. Easily that changes. Everything will always change. It's never the same. Get over it! Why can't you fucking get over it! It was my life. So shut the fuck up. The messed up part. I want to see it again. I want to feel the snow. I want to see the dead rodents. I want to jump on a trampoline. Then jump on the ground. I want it to be okay for me to stay. But I run. I'm a runaway. I want to walk around for three hours with you. Just cause we can. I don't want to know what's happening to you now. I don't want to remember the pain you began to cause. The worry you caused. Your abusive behaviour. Your addictive behaviour. I want nothing to do with it. It's all I think about. It's all that's there. Is he your brother? Far from it. Plainly to put it. I wish I knew you forever and always. I wish I never knew you at all.
Love,
Abandonment
Love,
Abandonment
Monday, March 16, 2009
Untitled
Today was rather interesting. There's always this scenario I think about while lying in bed at night. I know one isn't supposed to think at night. But I do. I cannot help it. I have way to many thoughts. It's interesting. I have hypocritical thoughts all the time. Maybe I'll make a few into a few more stories. They're in my head, why not on paper. That last story. That was awkward. I deleted it. You may think you know what I'm talking about but you have no clue. Maybe I don't want to write this one down because then it will no longer be just mine. Now there's a thought. Are we thinking? What is thinking? So besides that, what's new you ask? Well maybe you didn't ask. Why would you?
Something happened today. It made me want to whatever. But that would have been so bad. This whole situation is rather bad. I want to tell one of them. But I cannot, for then I'll never get it back. ***New story, same paragraph*** I love you. You are the most amazing friend ever. We know just way to much about one another. We go out on a limb for one another. It's amazing. Nothing could hide between us. It's beautiful. I love you to death and beyond.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAGdDm1NVcQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Lfkj4AD9eM
I loved talking to you today Cam. You're actually a pretty sweet kid. You will go far, if you can focus. Don't let anyone hold you back. If I can do it, you can do it. Don't get kicked out now.
Love,
Too much confusion, retreat a little to your happy place, but don't lose reality.
Something happened today. It made me want to whatever. But that would have been so bad. This whole situation is rather bad. I want to tell one of them. But I cannot, for then I'll never get it back. ***New story, same paragraph*** I love you. You are the most amazing friend ever. We know just way to much about one another. We go out on a limb for one another. It's amazing. Nothing could hide between us. It's beautiful. I love you to death and beyond.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAGdDm1NVcQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Lfkj4AD9eM
I loved talking to you today Cam. You're actually a pretty sweet kid. You will go far, if you can focus. Don't let anyone hold you back. If I can do it, you can do it. Don't get kicked out now.
Love,
Too much confusion, retreat a little to your happy place, but don't lose reality.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
What I Really Wanted To Say
I had this crack on toast dream last night, and was like remember this one Jessica. It would be an interesting thing to document. So it was like I was in this huge family, but we weren't a family it was more like a Twilight Cullen's type of family, if you know what I mean. except we weren't vampires. But we lived in this different type of universe. All I remember is that him (different dream boy who has a name that we cannot disclose) and I went rock climbing and this dog followed us and then this landslide started. So we were trying to protect each other from the falling rocks, and we had to continue pressing this button that had like varying point values and every time we pressed it more rocks came down on us. Then this cave thing opened up and we were on this really weird roller coaster type thing that didn't always have a track. Then when we got off we realized the dog had gotten squished in the rock slide. But he had something I needed to learn or figure out. So he kept picking me up, or holding on to me and we would like go back in time, to an event he thought I needed to see. The one I remember was we entered this cottage type building that was a restaurant and it was all old people inside and he walked me to the back to where these 3 old men were sitting. They were frozen though in time, and then he ran out after he saw something, and I picked up a piece of coleslaw from one of the men's salads, then went running after him, but he had already left and then I was back in present time of our universe and was at this family event. Where this girl one of my 'brothers' had met was being inducted to the family, and she was tied to this harness and was supposed to jump off this pole, to see if she trusted our family to hold her up. That's all I remember. I remember him clearly though.
So that's interesting now isn't it... Told you it was crack on toast.
So that's interesting now isn't it... Told you it was crack on toast.
Teen Angst Title Track:
Fuck My Life.
Elaine and I always seem to have the same problems which makes me laugh. Apparently I'm the one that's misunderstood. Does that mean I'm gay? Interesting. So cold. Can't sleep in my own bed. Stressing about tomorrow morning. Still sick. Hands so dry. Ankles so dry. So tired. So bored. So Quilt. So Sunday in the Park with George.
Its called breaking, cause its broken.
My world always gets turned upside down.
and we're just talking about some stuff and he came up and she stops and squeals
and then she looks super depressed
and I was like "what?"
and she was like
"I was just picturing you and Ian cuddling together and looking so happy and cute and I was so happy and then... I remembered it's never going to happen holy fuck I feel so bad for you"
and I was like "ROFL FUCK MY LIFE"
and then I killed myself
Elaine I love you. Btw we are talking about different Ian's. Funny story. I made fun of him, kid who I'm not supposed to like said (L), I died, Ian ignored me and continued making out with Jill. Story of my natural life. I'm excited for Vancouver. Our studio/apartment got taken off the market. Sigh... I loved that place. Listening to Jeff Buckley. Wish I was that talented. Rawr. He's so good. It's like that guy at the pool with the Star Wars tatoo's. Lol. We could be com-y, homo loving freaks together. Like I said not thinking about this. This is bad. Rawr.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzGF0X8G24k
Love,
Is Debatable, it's fun but it also screws you over.
Also Elaine and I are both marrying this man...
http://www.youtube.com/user/Freddie25
Elaine and I always seem to have the same problems which makes me laugh. Apparently I'm the one that's misunderstood. Does that mean I'm gay? Interesting. So cold. Can't sleep in my own bed. Stressing about tomorrow morning. Still sick. Hands so dry. Ankles so dry. So tired. So bored. So Quilt. So Sunday in the Park with George.
Its called breaking, cause its broken.
My world always gets turned upside down.
and we're just talking about some stuff and he came up and she stops and squeals
and then she looks super depressed
and I was like "what?"
and she was like
"I was just picturing you and Ian cuddling together and looking so happy and cute and I was so happy and then... I remembered it's never going to happen holy fuck I feel so bad for you"
and I was like "ROFL FUCK MY LIFE"
and then I killed myself
Elaine I love you. Btw we are talking about different Ian's. Funny story. I made fun of him, kid who I'm not supposed to like said (L), I died, Ian ignored me and continued making out with Jill. Story of my natural life. I'm excited for Vancouver. Our studio/apartment got taken off the market. Sigh... I loved that place. Listening to Jeff Buckley. Wish I was that talented. Rawr. He's so good. It's like that guy at the pool with the Star Wars tatoo's. Lol. We could be com-y, homo loving freaks together. Like I said not thinking about this. This is bad. Rawr.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzGF0X8G24k
Love,
Is Debatable, it's fun but it also screws you over.
Also Elaine and I are both marrying this man...
http://www.youtube.com/user/Freddie25
Saturday, March 14, 2009
DAMN YOU!
I'm staying away right. Well I'm having this heart felt convo with someone which is not what this is about. But it brought up some other stuff. And then I was drowning myself in some pity, and then this showed up : Ian is now much less hairy. And I am laughing so hard/freaking out. Because I'm like that. And then I notice I have a comment from you. sigh. Like I said this isn't happening. We should hug again. Or not. This is bad. Especially since we were going out for lunch this week. This is bad...
Love,
Binds Us Together
And then you why!!!!! WHY GOD WHY DO YOU MAKE MY LIFE SO TWISTED!!!!!!??????!!!! WHY!!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?! *bangs head on desk*
I wonder would you do anything for any girl or just the two of us... I was so mellow. This isn't good. Someone might get a punch in a face.
(L) He picked up your pieces. If this gets out, I'm so dead.
Love,
Binds Us Together
And then you why!!!!! WHY GOD WHY DO YOU MAKE MY LIFE SO TWISTED!!!!!!??????!!!! WHY!!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?! *bangs head on desk*
I wonder would you do anything for any girl or just the two of us... I was so mellow. This isn't good. Someone might get a punch in a face.
(L) He picked up your pieces. If this gets out, I'm so dead.
Now What To Say
I'm not really sure what I want to say, I really don't. Went shopping for groceries, so ridiculous. My glasses are dirty. Gross. I think I'm feeling less sick. I really should have gone back to bed this morning though. Went for a walk. Felt good. Stood outside chopping ice for way to long. I feel productive today. It's good. Then I helped make supper. Brother and grandmother are making caramel corn. Gross but it entertains them. Listening to an American Hi-Fi CD, rather unimpressed. I wish I could have gone out tonight with you but I'd rather take care of myself. Some may argue that going out is the way to do it, but I disagree. Watched Finding Neverland the other day. Why must that movie be so sad? Geesh!
I miss the puppy a lot. It sucks. Whatever. I love you!
I'm moving in with you, because you made it okay to breakdown in the middle of gym class, at a bowling alley. It's the story of our lives.
*yawn*
Here's a song. I dislike it. But I like it at night. Makes sense no?
Also why didn't you shave your head? That would have made my life!
Bad quality. Get over your selves.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlN48Qlt0w0
Know the definition of work. Know about the real world. Know everything you can. It will help you in the long run. Never underestimate the power of knowledge. But above all never underestimate the power of love.
Love,
This.
I miss the puppy a lot. It sucks. Whatever. I love you!
I'm moving in with you, because you made it okay to breakdown in the middle of gym class, at a bowling alley. It's the story of our lives.
*yawn*
Here's a song. I dislike it. But I like it at night. Makes sense no?
Also why didn't you shave your head? That would have made my life!
Bad quality. Get over your selves.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlN48Qlt0w0
Know the definition of work. Know about the real world. Know everything you can. It will help you in the long run. Never underestimate the power of knowledge. But above all never underestimate the power of love.
Love,
This.
I'm Starting To Believe
That my posters are indeed not coming. Well that sucks.
I really want to win that contest. Like sooooo bad.... GAH! I want to go to Vancouver!!!!
You're leaving over Spring Break. I hate you. What am I supposed to do without you? Like honestly.
I got tickets. WOOT! My mothers going to kill me when she finds out how much they were. But she was trying to buy them yesterday so she must know. That is so insane how quickly those tickets sold out. Totally ridiculous.
I feel better this morning. But I say that every morning. I should have gone back to bed. Oh well...
Now I must wait for more things to come in the mail. I also really need to find a source of income, I think my mother is dragging me to the office on spring break. As much as I would complain about that, I'm a very lucky kid, and I guess it's the least I could do.
There's so much food in the fridge right now. Mom's going to have a heartattack.
David got kicked off the bus yesterday. I still love that kid. Yesterdays bus ride was soooo scary. That bus driver totally has a stick up his bum. Oh well I got to see you! YAY! I was going to bring you those things cause I knew I'd run into you, but I didn't. Oh well.
Anyways, must go,
Tata.
I really want to win that contest. Like sooooo bad.... GAH! I want to go to Vancouver!!!!
You're leaving over Spring Break. I hate you. What am I supposed to do without you? Like honestly.
I got tickets. WOOT! My mothers going to kill me when she finds out how much they were. But she was trying to buy them yesterday so she must know. That is so insane how quickly those tickets sold out. Totally ridiculous.
I feel better this morning. But I say that every morning. I should have gone back to bed. Oh well...
Now I must wait for more things to come in the mail. I also really need to find a source of income, I think my mother is dragging me to the office on spring break. As much as I would complain about that, I'm a very lucky kid, and I guess it's the least I could do.
There's so much food in the fridge right now. Mom's going to have a heartattack.
David got kicked off the bus yesterday. I still love that kid. Yesterdays bus ride was soooo scary. That bus driver totally has a stick up his bum. Oh well I got to see you! YAY! I was going to bring you those things cause I knew I'd run into you, but I didn't. Oh well.
Anyways, must go,
Tata.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Want a hug?
You ask thats new. I wish I could find someone like you. Someone fun and smart yet compassionate and caring. But like I said this is a no go.
Grandma's coming today. That's exciting.
Posters MIA.
Coldplay presale sold out in 7 minutes. I guess I try again tomorrow morning. I enjoyed the fact that you guys were like is she, isn't she? I have my people and my ways. The fact that people doubt that entertains me.
We hugged. Whatever. Let's not think about it.
Musical Theater performance sucked. Not surprised.
The Calgary Transit page won't load. That's shitty.
I was angry at you, and then everytime that happens, the next day you're the most amazing person on the planet.
Terunt-terah!
I'm not really sure what is going on right now. All I know is I have the goods, and I can finally look forward to something.
Love,
So don't believe everything, don't believe everything that you hear...
Grandma's coming today. That's exciting.
Posters MIA.
Coldplay presale sold out in 7 minutes. I guess I try again tomorrow morning. I enjoyed the fact that you guys were like is she, isn't she? I have my people and my ways. The fact that people doubt that entertains me.
We hugged. Whatever. Let's not think about it.
Musical Theater performance sucked. Not surprised.
The Calgary Transit page won't load. That's shitty.
I was angry at you, and then everytime that happens, the next day you're the most amazing person on the planet.
Terunt-terah!
I'm not really sure what is going on right now. All I know is I have the goods, and I can finally look forward to something.
Love,
So don't believe everything, don't believe everything that you hear...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Just When You Think It's Getting Better
I am the definition of shit. The way I look and feel right now is the perfect description of the word shit. We have our performance tomorrow. I'm excited/scared that it will all fail, also since i can't sing this song for the fucking life of me, it's gonna suck. I haven't really let it out yet in MT. I wait for the solo pieces to do that. I'm amazing. You love it. I cannot breathe. This is ridiculous. I almost died today in my chem test. There was snot everywhere, I'd rather not remember it... Ok well not everywhere...
Ugh you and your boy-ish-ness. That's so against the rules. Most definately. Like ever. Why do you have to act like that around me. Rawr. Whatever. Not doing anything. For that would be totally super bad. But we just both understand somewhat where the other person has been. Whatever. No.
I worry about you a lot, but I notice that you don't seem to back. What's the point of a friendship if its only a friendship when it's convenience for the other person? It's strange. I don't really know.
I need more sleep.
I ran out of tylenol night medicine. Now I'm taking Contact C and it's making it worse. Rawr! I want my Tylenol back!
Posters are still MIA.
You suck. We were supposed to chill today bu again your with her. I don't say anything because she was there when I couldn't be. I couldn't be there for a lot of reasons. But that doesn't mean I still can't hate her. I was supposed to see you today. You suck. Meh, I'll get over it, you and I only ever fought once, that was the only time I've ever actually been angry at you. I don't even remember what I was angry about... We should go try to revive some more grass sometime soon. I read your letter everyday. You and I need to take our picture together somewhere. I'm missing pictures of us that aren't at a camp. Hahaha... Remember camp? CCC? Not for Conor, Cameron, Chris. No for Crazy Camp Cadicasu... Right? Good times. Life was a crazy rollercoaster wasn't it? I almost miss it somedays. Getting off the bus, going over there, and just hanging out without a care in the world. We got lazy. Stopped looking out for trouble, for warning signs, for people... for time... Those were some good days. I miss you. Now I've totally rambled off topic. I'm going to go find me some drugs.
Love,
Take the short cuts and side roads?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dz73dsMAkE
The first few lines of this song, hit home way too much. A lot of broken promises out there...
Ugh you and your boy-ish-ness. That's so against the rules. Most definately. Like ever. Why do you have to act like that around me. Rawr. Whatever. Not doing anything. For that would be totally super bad. But we just both understand somewhat where the other person has been. Whatever. No.
I worry about you a lot, but I notice that you don't seem to back. What's the point of a friendship if its only a friendship when it's convenience for the other person? It's strange. I don't really know.
I need more sleep.
I ran out of tylenol night medicine. Now I'm taking Contact C and it's making it worse. Rawr! I want my Tylenol back!
Posters are still MIA.
You suck. We were supposed to chill today bu again your with her. I don't say anything because she was there when I couldn't be. I couldn't be there for a lot of reasons. But that doesn't mean I still can't hate her. I was supposed to see you today. You suck. Meh, I'll get over it, you and I only ever fought once, that was the only time I've ever actually been angry at you. I don't even remember what I was angry about... We should go try to revive some more grass sometime soon. I read your letter everyday. You and I need to take our picture together somewhere. I'm missing pictures of us that aren't at a camp. Hahaha... Remember camp? CCC? Not for Conor, Cameron, Chris. No for Crazy Camp Cadicasu... Right? Good times. Life was a crazy rollercoaster wasn't it? I almost miss it somedays. Getting off the bus, going over there, and just hanging out without a care in the world. We got lazy. Stopped looking out for trouble, for warning signs, for people... for time... Those were some good days. I miss you. Now I've totally rambled off topic. I'm going to go find me some drugs.
Love,
Take the short cuts and side roads?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dz73dsMAkE
The first few lines of this song, hit home way too much. A lot of broken promises out there...
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
These People Make Me So Happy
All of their songs, I just relax. And lose it. I breathe and sway. I then know sometimes it will be ok. I'm worried about you now, you crazy. You got to get through this, I need a roomie! You're the reason I will never have a boyfriend and will pay less once I move out! I'm glad I can be here for you this time. This isn't something to go through alone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5e8On2p5Uw
Guys, this doesn't look like the living room... Hahaha... So peaceful. So amazing. It's psycho Derek. Make the face psycho Derek! We love you! Why do you keep taking pictures of the guitarist? Cause he's the hottest. Well I noticed that... Dur.
Love,
We'll get there our way...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5e8On2p5Uw
Guys, this doesn't look like the living room... Hahaha... So peaceful. So amazing. It's psycho Derek. Make the face psycho Derek! We love you! Why do you keep taking pictures of the guitarist? Cause he's the hottest. Well I noticed that... Dur.
Love,
We'll get there our way...
I Want To Marry This Kid
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_mqbc9COK8
He's gay. My life is over. I love him. He's an amazing artist. Why hasn't anyone found him before this? What is going on down there L.A.? You should hire me, I would have found this kid. I'd die to sing with him. Or any performance. He is so amazing. I can't even describe it. Jacob Hoggard of American Idol. Hands down. There are not words to describe this kids talent. I wish I was that talented. No lie.
Russian Gang
I was in the middle of a Russian gang fight today. Twas exciting.
Today I really got into character in MT. It was good.
Anyways I wanted to share some snippits of things...
i don’t know where we’re going
but i know we’ve gone too far and
i hope it isn’t showing
but i think i love you and
i can’t believe you’re leaving
just when i let you in and
when you had me believing
i could feel again
well, the girl next door might have cancer
and the hospital nearby’s got the answer, but
she’s never been there, can’t afford healthcare
in the arms of the home of the brave, she’s carried to her grave
this is for the world trade center, for columbine
for oklahoma city and the lost and lonely friends of mine
for ireland, iran, iraq
and the suffering caused by the indian ocean’s attack
for falun gong and the berlin wall
the homeless, the hungry, and slaves to drugs and alcohol
indian, australian, african slaves
native americans whose amber waves of grain
were melted down into white men’s riches
victims of war and for salem’s witches
for boys who were told to act more like boys
and girls who were told to only play with girl toys
the voiceless, forgotten, plagued by disease
god help us please, please, please
breaking up is hard to do
but waking up is harder
i had plans, and they fell through
now i’m back to beg and barter
i’m carving words in my arms, baby
hey, scars are part of my charm, maybe
i need the touch of a hand
this isn’t what i had planned
i need relief from this life
i wanna slip away into the night
don’t wanna see the sun again
but can’t get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind
i wish the ocean was warm
i feel like drowning
i’m losing my faith in me
i can’t remember the last time i felt free
from voices inside my head
when i taste liberation, they just feed me fear instead
well, that’s the way the fairy tale goes
boy meets girl and they wed with roses
but that’s not the way it seems to be
and i’m pissed that they lied to me
cuz boy meets boy and boy runs away
or girl meets girl and she’s afraid to stay
we end up home alone watching court tv
not living ever after happily
you’re right
you are prince charming
onto the next princess when he’s bored with the last
he’s the hero of every story
he’s got his chapter in every girl’s book
he walks away with all the honor and glory
but i wonder what else he took
goodbye, prince charming
and drown sleeping beauty
shove cinderella’s slipper where the sun don’t shine
toss the little mermaid back out to sea
cuz the fairy godmother had to perform another abortion today
and the seven dwarves live in the forest, of course, cuz they were driven away
but this part of the story could spark a cultural rage
so at the sound of the tone we just turn the page
he tries hard to songwrite his way out of bed
but nothing tastes as clever as it sounded in his head
he wants to get his teeth wet and sink his feet in
he should have billions of dollars, cuz every asshole’s put two cents in
9 out of 10 motherfuckers agree
that his fucking foul language is a fucking travesty
but motherfucking fuck is just another fucking word
the idea a word is dirty is to him fucking absurd
cuz i don’t believe in heroes, but i believe in friends
and i believe that optimism without cynicism is a sin
just let yourself have one quote unquote bad day
i dare you to have a feeling, they’ll have you someday anyway
and what’s so wrong with feminine boys?
sorry for the euphemism
there’s a fun valley girl in this sad texas boy
and we don’t need your sexorcism
i’m an indoor person and you can suck it
my idea of the great outdoors is a nice big patio
or a cigarette on a fire escape
an air-conditioned roadtrip down a well-paved interstate
and i throw words like love and hate
around like confetti, then i watch them dissipate
and i’m almost comfortable in my own skin
i’ve walked around in it for years without fitting in
i shouldn’t have to suntan or highlight my hair
in order to feel beautiful if i don’t really care
i’m always going all the way down, but i always find my way back up
i tend to choke on dicks and emotions, drink placebo potions, cry rivers and oceans
bridge
and i can sing my own damn lullaby
and if you want a happy song, then you can write your own
i love me, i hate me, i need to escape me
but more importantly i need for you to leave me the fuck alone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgcX9F3VZbk
That was interesting. Just some clips, from some songs. Billy The Kid and Jay Brannan. Beautiful Souls. Check them out.
Today I really got into character in MT. It was good.
Anyways I wanted to share some snippits of things...
i don’t know where we’re going
but i know we’ve gone too far and
i hope it isn’t showing
but i think i love you and
i can’t believe you’re leaving
just when i let you in and
when you had me believing
i could feel again
well, the girl next door might have cancer
and the hospital nearby’s got the answer, but
she’s never been there, can’t afford healthcare
in the arms of the home of the brave, she’s carried to her grave
this is for the world trade center, for columbine
for oklahoma city and the lost and lonely friends of mine
for ireland, iran, iraq
and the suffering caused by the indian ocean’s attack
for falun gong and the berlin wall
the homeless, the hungry, and slaves to drugs and alcohol
indian, australian, african slaves
native americans whose amber waves of grain
were melted down into white men’s riches
victims of war and for salem’s witches
for boys who were told to act more like boys
and girls who were told to only play with girl toys
the voiceless, forgotten, plagued by disease
god help us please, please, please
breaking up is hard to do
but waking up is harder
i had plans, and they fell through
now i’m back to beg and barter
i’m carving words in my arms, baby
hey, scars are part of my charm, maybe
i need the touch of a hand
this isn’t what i had planned
i need relief from this life
i wanna slip away into the night
don’t wanna see the sun again
but can’t get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind
i wish the ocean was warm
i feel like drowning
i’m losing my faith in me
i can’t remember the last time i felt free
from voices inside my head
when i taste liberation, they just feed me fear instead
well, that’s the way the fairy tale goes
boy meets girl and they wed with roses
but that’s not the way it seems to be
and i’m pissed that they lied to me
cuz boy meets boy and boy runs away
or girl meets girl and she’s afraid to stay
we end up home alone watching court tv
not living ever after happily
you’re right
you are prince charming
onto the next princess when he’s bored with the last
he’s the hero of every story
he’s got his chapter in every girl’s book
he walks away with all the honor and glory
but i wonder what else he took
goodbye, prince charming
and drown sleeping beauty
shove cinderella’s slipper where the sun don’t shine
toss the little mermaid back out to sea
cuz the fairy godmother had to perform another abortion today
and the seven dwarves live in the forest, of course, cuz they were driven away
but this part of the story could spark a cultural rage
so at the sound of the tone we just turn the page
he tries hard to songwrite his way out of bed
but nothing tastes as clever as it sounded in his head
he wants to get his teeth wet and sink his feet in
he should have billions of dollars, cuz every asshole’s put two cents in
9 out of 10 motherfuckers agree
that his fucking foul language is a fucking travesty
but motherfucking fuck is just another fucking word
the idea a word is dirty is to him fucking absurd
cuz i don’t believe in heroes, but i believe in friends
and i believe that optimism without cynicism is a sin
just let yourself have one quote unquote bad day
i dare you to have a feeling, they’ll have you someday anyway
and what’s so wrong with feminine boys?
sorry for the euphemism
there’s a fun valley girl in this sad texas boy
and we don’t need your sexorcism
i’m an indoor person and you can suck it
my idea of the great outdoors is a nice big patio
or a cigarette on a fire escape
an air-conditioned roadtrip down a well-paved interstate
and i throw words like love and hate
around like confetti, then i watch them dissipate
and i’m almost comfortable in my own skin
i’ve walked around in it for years without fitting in
i shouldn’t have to suntan or highlight my hair
in order to feel beautiful if i don’t really care
i’m always going all the way down, but i always find my way back up
i tend to choke on dicks and emotions, drink placebo potions, cry rivers and oceans
bridge
and i can sing my own damn lullaby
and if you want a happy song, then you can write your own
i love me, i hate me, i need to escape me
but more importantly i need for you to leave me the fuck alone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgcX9F3VZbk
That was interesting. Just some clips, from some songs. Billy The Kid and Jay Brannan. Beautiful Souls. Check them out.
Monday, March 9, 2009
My Song.
I've listened to this song to much. This is definately the best version of it. I've always wanted singer to put more into the part where he goes " Who I am, Who I'm not, and Who I want to be." I want that part to build. It would be so much better that way. I want the bridge to build to, until he goes into the transitional chorus... The musicality sometimes hurts. Nikki Sixx. Read it. Try to understand. I did all to well. Anywho. Have to chase dragons in the bathroom now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WR4kyadzLzM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WR4kyadzLzM
Thats Deep Man, Real Deep
I dislike normalcy. A lot. It's not a fan of me. Nor am I a fan of it.
I miss important theater lessons. I used to think they were dumb. Now I think statues is dumb. Like I know all theater games have a purpose but really I'm at the point where I'm beyond that. Anyways I'm not really sure what I've been rambling about for the past few days. I went crazy today in Musical Theater. I love Sydney, she's fantastic, I hope high school doesn't change her. I want her in all my numbers next year. Today I really wanted to let loose. And I did. I looked rather psychotic but only because snobs are in Musical Theater. Actual theater kids like Syd would join in. That was weird. Scents I always remember. Leather jacket. Mmmm... Anyways... I just got really sidetracked. Wow...err... so.... what were we talking about?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE2rD1yhD8k
I'm stoked to direct next year. So many ideas!
I just wrote a reflection for CALM. And I think I am finally working towards what I want. It's so hard to know what one wants.
I'm saving up to go to Disneyland the first year of University so that we can go during reading week. That would be sooooo steller.
I'm so distracted right now. Sorry. I was actually going to say something relevant here but it has escaped me. And it's not even about who you are thinking about. I have issues. One day I will either be committed or have a serious problem. Prepare yourself. Don't worry I'll make my millions first. Ok ya going away because now I'm thinking about other things I don't want to think about. Running. Cartwheel. Trampoline. Pond. Mouse. Make it STOP! STOP!
Oh jesus. I remembered. House. Yeah. I hope its a wake up call for you. It was deep. It was about how we all hold so much in. And how after something happens we all seem to forget it and move on. No one forgives anymore. They merely forget. It sucks how we all live like that. I found it rather fitting for a lot of things. Huh...
I miss important theater lessons. I used to think they were dumb. Now I think statues is dumb. Like I know all theater games have a purpose but really I'm at the point where I'm beyond that. Anyways I'm not really sure what I've been rambling about for the past few days. I went crazy today in Musical Theater. I love Sydney, she's fantastic, I hope high school doesn't change her. I want her in all my numbers next year. Today I really wanted to let loose. And I did. I looked rather psychotic but only because snobs are in Musical Theater. Actual theater kids like Syd would join in. That was weird. Scents I always remember. Leather jacket. Mmmm... Anyways... I just got really sidetracked. Wow...err... so.... what were we talking about?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE2rD1yhD8k
I'm stoked to direct next year. So many ideas!
I just wrote a reflection for CALM. And I think I am finally working towards what I want. It's so hard to know what one wants.
I'm saving up to go to Disneyland the first year of University so that we can go during reading week. That would be sooooo steller.
I'm so distracted right now. Sorry. I was actually going to say something relevant here but it has escaped me. And it's not even about who you are thinking about. I have issues. One day I will either be committed or have a serious problem. Prepare yourself. Don't worry I'll make my millions first. Ok ya going away because now I'm thinking about other things I don't want to think about. Running. Cartwheel. Trampoline. Pond. Mouse. Make it STOP! STOP!
Oh jesus. I remembered. House. Yeah. I hope its a wake up call for you. It was deep. It was about how we all hold so much in. And how after something happens we all seem to forget it and move on. No one forgives anymore. They merely forget. It sucks how we all live like that. I found it rather fitting for a lot of things. Huh...
The Other One
"Cause I'm the other man, who everyone despises." Amazing song...
Don't complicate a volatile place
I need this one escape
I'll take all this baggage with me
There's no need for goodbyes
Tomorrow morning you'll barely remember
And wonder about the sad look in your eyes
A simple conversation won't do
You can't fix what has already been broken
So sick... Rawr... *dies* So hungry... Parched... The only way out is up! You clench your teeth, with shoulders tightened. You think thats what it means. But you have no clue. You don't have any idea. We all wish it was roses without thorns. But there are always more thorns. Have some respect. Some common decency. You're not going to learn at school. Educate yourself. Stop being so passive. Just live your life. Be like TI go to jail. Pull a Chris Brown and I kick your ass. Posters unavailable. Snort. Right. Lies. Live without a v is lie. Live backwards is evil. Think about. What do you think? Do you think? I'm so sorry. I'm not sorry. Touch and go. Round a bout. Intriguing. Get over it. Green beds. Purple blankets. Purple walls. I can imagine it now. Not so long ago. The silence. The deafening lone silence. It kills. You think its perfect. I'm a duck, barely staying a float, paddling like shit underneath the water. Listen. You feel it. You know it. You don't want to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dbttpdMXSE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNS-pXFm5TU
Well thats interesting. Fell the bass from the speakers run through your sneakers. Its what got me started. Its what has me going. Interesting. nawt. Intriguing. yesh.
Live it. Fight it. Die it. At least you lived it.
Love,
When I sing about my past, its not a gimmick, its not an act....
Don't complicate a volatile place
I need this one escape
I'll take all this baggage with me
There's no need for goodbyes
Tomorrow morning you'll barely remember
And wonder about the sad look in your eyes
A simple conversation won't do
You can't fix what has already been broken
So sick... Rawr... *dies* So hungry... Parched... The only way out is up! You clench your teeth, with shoulders tightened. You think thats what it means. But you have no clue. You don't have any idea. We all wish it was roses without thorns. But there are always more thorns. Have some respect. Some common decency. You're not going to learn at school. Educate yourself. Stop being so passive. Just live your life. Be like TI go to jail. Pull a Chris Brown and I kick your ass. Posters unavailable. Snort. Right. Lies. Live without a v is lie. Live backwards is evil. Think about. What do you think? Do you think? I'm so sorry. I'm not sorry. Touch and go. Round a bout. Intriguing. Get over it. Green beds. Purple blankets. Purple walls. I can imagine it now. Not so long ago. The silence. The deafening lone silence. It kills. You think its perfect. I'm a duck, barely staying a float, paddling like shit underneath the water. Listen. You feel it. You know it. You don't want to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dbttpdMXSE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNS-pXFm5TU
Well thats interesting. Fell the bass from the speakers run through your sneakers. Its what got me started. Its what has me going. Interesting. nawt. Intriguing. yesh.
Live it. Fight it. Die it. At least you lived it.
Love,
When I sing about my past, its not a gimmick, its not an act....
It's Finished!
Your struggle isn't original
Life with you is fake reality
Maybe you will wake up from this
This tunnel vision a coma
The wound is still deep
Not that you'd notice
You're so caught up in your own grief
Other lives are suffering
But it's not like you'd care
If you keep your eyes closed
The ignorance will blind you
Wake up from your own nightmare
And see that everyone else is dying too
You're not anything special
You're not anything new.
Just take a step back
You're dragging the rest down to darkness
Your weight is so heavy
No one is getting anything in return
Disappear because they won't look back
Don't try to make an effort
You are just another let down
Chorus
You can't stay there
On your imaginary throne of air
You're nothing special
You're nothing new
You'll never be anything but you
Chorus
Repeat Chorus with overlap of the two end lines...
That's right I finished it! Score! Melody? Irrelevant shut up... I started a new one... FML.
Life with you is fake reality
Maybe you will wake up from this
This tunnel vision a coma
The wound is still deep
Not that you'd notice
You're so caught up in your own grief
Other lives are suffering
But it's not like you'd care
If you keep your eyes closed
The ignorance will blind you
Wake up from your own nightmare
And see that everyone else is dying too
You're not anything special
You're not anything new.
Just take a step back
You're dragging the rest down to darkness
Your weight is so heavy
No one is getting anything in return
Disappear because they won't look back
Don't try to make an effort
You are just another let down
Chorus
You can't stay there
On your imaginary throne of air
You're nothing special
You're nothing new
You'll never be anything but you
Chorus
Repeat Chorus with overlap of the two end lines...
That's right I finished it! Score! Melody? Irrelevant shut up... I started a new one... FML.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
I Knew I Liked You Better.
Friday, June 02, 2006
I Need a Fucking Soundtrack
i figured out i can do whatever i want here. this is my private space. this is my only private space. fuck. shit. dick. whore. bitch. cock. balls. ass. bitch. dong. wang.i can do whatever the hell i want here. all these words seem so much more beautiful and perfect set to music. songs that no one will ever get or hear. so again its so senseless. whats the point. of writing this out. its all fucked up. i'm not here to listen to people console me. i don't give ia fuck. i should. i write here to express myself. to bleed. sometimes i feel like not letting people comment on my garbage, but like veryone else, i'm a curious fuck. i've decided i will die by explosion.
I Need a Fucking Soundtrack
i figured out i can do whatever i want here. this is my private space. this is my only private space. fuck. shit. dick. whore. bitch. cock. balls. ass. bitch. dong. wang.i can do whatever the hell i want here. all these words seem so much more beautiful and perfect set to music. songs that no one will ever get or hear. so again its so senseless. whats the point. of writing this out. its all fucked up. i'm not here to listen to people console me. i don't give ia fuck. i should. i write here to express myself. to bleed. sometimes i feel like not letting people comment on my garbage, but like veryone else, i'm a curious fuck. i've decided i will die by explosion.
*scoff*
Incase you didn't know I'm kind of a big deal. It's what gets me place.
Don't get drunk with your best friend. Don't make friends with guys who aren't gay. Reuse your towel. Take shorter showers.
I need to know if you're still alive.
People come and go. And it sucks. It gets pushed into the cabinet. It gets brought back out when it needs to. Shoe. Laugh. Alex. What? Cry.
Walking on air.
Close to you.
The pain. The aches. I miss them. They were my family. Then they just left. What kind of family does that? Who would have thought. I'd never see them again.
Why don't you say anything. Fuck you. At least you'll get over it. Shake it out. Shakes. Not really.
Everywhere I'd go people would smell good. I hated that.
Don't make yourself at home. Get out. I can't feel this. I need you to get out.
I might write a play. That could be interesting.
Overrated.
Creative expression isn't original. Get over yourself. No one will ever be Marilyn Maroe.
Tonight.
This is what it feels like.
You get used to it.
You can't mouthwash it out.
I can only relate to a world you knows me by my face.
Is anyone still breathing? She thinks I'm the one who makes it rain.
It's a screwed up world. Play the game. There's no one to blame. Now that Obama's in power. No more W.
Perez Hilton.
It's what it's about. Conformity. Just do it already. What are you waiting for?
No one is like you, except everyone else.
Interesting. Maybe I'll laugh. No. I'll just see that I'm right.
Boys want in your pants, but the rest of them want your pants.
Life.
Don't get drunk with your best friend. Don't make friends with guys who aren't gay. Reuse your towel. Take shorter showers.
I need to know if you're still alive.
People come and go. And it sucks. It gets pushed into the cabinet. It gets brought back out when it needs to. Shoe. Laugh. Alex. What? Cry.
Walking on air.
Close to you.
The pain. The aches. I miss them. They were my family. Then they just left. What kind of family does that? Who would have thought. I'd never see them again.
Why don't you say anything. Fuck you. At least you'll get over it. Shake it out. Shakes. Not really.
Everywhere I'd go people would smell good. I hated that.
Don't make yourself at home. Get out. I can't feel this. I need you to get out.
I might write a play. That could be interesting.
Overrated.
Creative expression isn't original. Get over yourself. No one will ever be Marilyn Maroe.
Tonight.
This is what it feels like.
You get used to it.
You can't mouthwash it out.
I can only relate to a world you knows me by my face.
Is anyone still breathing? She thinks I'm the one who makes it rain.
It's a screwed up world. Play the game. There's no one to blame. Now that Obama's in power. No more W.
Perez Hilton.
It's what it's about. Conformity. Just do it already. What are you waiting for?
No one is like you, except everyone else.
Interesting. Maybe I'll laugh. No. I'll just see that I'm right.
Boys want in your pants, but the rest of them want your pants.
Life.
Confined By Solidarity
It's weird. Feeling like you've lost everything, yet still having everything in the world. The hero dies in this one. Stay who you are. It's nothing new. I've been here before. Yet I don't feel the lonesomeness of it all. I'm rather content. I've always liked myself. In that Derek way. Wait that's a lie. Let's not get into that right now though. That was a bad few years. Derek taught me a lot about life. So did everyone else there. I miss that. I miss that a lot. I'm over you. Or I thought I was. Rawr. Living in an abandoned factory. Being by myself makes me happy now. I used to have this resentment towards it. Now it kind of excites me.
Your struggle isn't original
Life with you is fake reality
Maybe you will wake up from this
This tunnel vision a coma
The wound is still deep
Not that you'd notice
You're so caught up in your own grief
Other lives are suffering
But it's not like you'd care
If you keep your eyes closed
The ignorance will blind you
Wake up from your own nightmare
And see that everyone else is dying too
You're not anything special
You're not anything new.
There's been a lot. A lot I don't remember. A lot I don't want to. Everythings new or old. It's strange. When you get off the train someone else gets on. The lyrical wonders of the world. Call me California. Or what you will. Because I'm bigger then this place. And so far from alone. I don't believe in your hate. There's so much out there. I can't wait to reach it. I spend each night counting stars like a runaway. It's interesting isn't it? And if it's not at least it's intriguing. Oh the blank page. We don't speak like lovers. Two weeks. Wow kid. I'm bigger then this place. I can almost taste it. The freedom. The struggle. The amazing. The life. It's there. I just need to reach out. It will be there. I can make it be there. All you have in life. Is yourself. So you better get used to it. Hi, me. How am I today?
Your struggle isn't original
Life with you is fake reality
Maybe you will wake up from this
This tunnel vision a coma
The wound is still deep
Not that you'd notice
You're so caught up in your own grief
Other lives are suffering
But it's not like you'd care
If you keep your eyes closed
The ignorance will blind you
Wake up from your own nightmare
And see that everyone else is dying too
You're not anything special
You're not anything new.
There's been a lot. A lot I don't remember. A lot I don't want to. Everythings new or old. It's strange. When you get off the train someone else gets on. The lyrical wonders of the world. Call me California. Or what you will. Because I'm bigger then this place. And so far from alone. I don't believe in your hate. There's so much out there. I can't wait to reach it. I spend each night counting stars like a runaway. It's interesting isn't it? And if it's not at least it's intriguing. Oh the blank page. We don't speak like lovers. Two weeks. Wow kid. I'm bigger then this place. I can almost taste it. The freedom. The struggle. The amazing. The life. It's there. I just need to reach out. It will be there. I can make it be there. All you have in life. Is yourself. So you better get used to it. Hi, me. How am I today?
So After Much Time...
I've started to listen to a list of more bands added to Warped Tour. I really need a life.
Say Vendelay - They don't have a myspace and from what I can hear on youtube they won't be coming here nor are they that great...
Fully Operational - Rather unknown, really good. I'm so impressed right now. It's like Lights meets an acoustic punk singer. I love it. Wow...
www.myspace.com/fullyoperational
The Status - Sound like every other band. They are alright, but nothing new...
www.myspace.com/thestatus
Down With Webster - These kids are intense. I love it. You should check them out.
http://www.myspace.com/downwithwebster
I'm really into Grind. hahaha...
Kelsey & The Chaos - I like it. I don't listen to a lot of girl singers, and Kelsey is really good.
http://www.myspace.com/kelseyandthechaos
Split Fifty - Gotta give a shout out somewhere to all the angry wanna be emo kids with such a song as "Rooftops and Razorblades" it's hard to imagine what else i could say about these kids, besides what a joke! HAHAHAHAHA!
Reflective Insight - They sound like pervy old men, I feel yucky now...
Pull The Pin - I like. Nothing wow, but really good. I would definately check these kids out, don't think they'll be here though...
www.myspace.com/pullthepinpa
To Speak Of Wolves - About that, remember the thing from the swamp... Well it just tried to resurrect itself...
He Is Legend - This reminds me of K. Uhm, Imma pass on this one...
Monty Are I - I is impressed. Good stuff.
www.myspace.com/montyarei
Settings - Not coming here. Uhm interesting I guess. I'm not really sure what to say. Not into it so much.
Red Car Wire - I love it. I'm down. I'm in love.
www.myspace.com/redcarwire
From Aphony - How can these kids be playing Warped if they broke up... Hm... Wasn't into them that much anywho.
Westbound Train - Jazzy. Interesting choice. I'm not that into it though.
Ok that is all for now. I will let you know what else goes down. Also buy online, waiting in line at Ticketmaster screws you over. Take a number my ass.
Love,
Mucus
Say Vendelay - They don't have a myspace and from what I can hear on youtube they won't be coming here nor are they that great...
Fully Operational - Rather unknown, really good. I'm so impressed right now. It's like Lights meets an acoustic punk singer. I love it. Wow...
www.myspace.com/fullyoperational
The Status - Sound like every other band. They are alright, but nothing new...
www.myspace.com/thestatus
Down With Webster - These kids are intense. I love it. You should check them out.
http://www.myspace.com/downwithwebster
I'm really into Grind. hahaha...
Kelsey & The Chaos - I like it. I don't listen to a lot of girl singers, and Kelsey is really good.
http://www.myspace.com/kelseyandthechaos
Split Fifty - Gotta give a shout out somewhere to all the angry wanna be emo kids with such a song as "Rooftops and Razorblades" it's hard to imagine what else i could say about these kids, besides what a joke! HAHAHAHAHA!
Reflective Insight - They sound like pervy old men, I feel yucky now...
Pull The Pin - I like. Nothing wow, but really good. I would definately check these kids out, don't think they'll be here though...
www.myspace.com/pullthepinpa
To Speak Of Wolves - About that, remember the thing from the swamp... Well it just tried to resurrect itself...
He Is Legend - This reminds me of K. Uhm, Imma pass on this one...
Monty Are I - I is impressed. Good stuff.
www.myspace.com/montyarei
Settings - Not coming here. Uhm interesting I guess. I'm not really sure what to say. Not into it so much.
Red Car Wire - I love it. I'm down. I'm in love.
www.myspace.com/redcarwire
From Aphony - How can these kids be playing Warped if they broke up... Hm... Wasn't into them that much anywho.
Westbound Train - Jazzy. Interesting choice. I'm not that into it though.
Ok that is all for now. I will let you know what else goes down. Also buy online, waiting in line at Ticketmaster screws you over. Take a number my ass.
Love,
Mucus
Tha Ballad of Mucus My Friend
"It doesn't look like you have been invited to read this blog. If you think this is a mistake, you might want to contact the blog author and request an invitation."
Right...
The Ballad of Mucus My Friend
You come around every now and again
Leaving me cold, with dirty kleenex galore
What other girls have you seen before me?
Mucus my friend you're all about the latest trends
Being green is your specialty
Being around you, makes it hard to breathe
I wheeze and cough and sputter.
When you're around all I want is chocolate,
Chips, hot liquids and my toasty bed.
But you make my bed cold,
Make the tasty foods make me feel worse,
And the hot liquids cause my nose to run.
Sometimes its water, sometimes not so much,
Sometimes so you run out of my nose.
You aren't my favourite kind of friend.
I get so behind, you distract me from important things,
You are such a parasite,
Please don't come around here no more.
I dedicate that lovely piece to the-rapist. hahaha... I amuse myself to much.
Much to come later.
Maybe.
I might say it.
Might not.
What did I say about healthy living?
What do you do for fun?
Wall sits.
Good Times.
Love,
"You always dress in yellow when you want to dress in gold."
Right...
The Ballad of Mucus My Friend
You come around every now and again
Leaving me cold, with dirty kleenex galore
What other girls have you seen before me?
Mucus my friend you're all about the latest trends
Being green is your specialty
Being around you, makes it hard to breathe
I wheeze and cough and sputter.
When you're around all I want is chocolate,
Chips, hot liquids and my toasty bed.
But you make my bed cold,
Make the tasty foods make me feel worse,
And the hot liquids cause my nose to run.
Sometimes its water, sometimes not so much,
Sometimes so you run out of my nose.
You aren't my favourite kind of friend.
I get so behind, you distract me from important things,
You are such a parasite,
Please don't come around here no more.
I dedicate that lovely piece to the-rapist. hahaha... I amuse myself to much.
Much to come later.
Maybe.
I might say it.
Might not.
What did I say about healthy living?
What do you do for fun?
Wall sits.
Good Times.
Love,
"You always dress in yellow when you want to dress in gold."
Friday, March 6, 2009
I Had Nothing To Do With This
Keifer Dallison went from being "in a relationship" to "single."
WHAT?!?!?!?! WHAT??!??!?!?! But Maddie and Keifer are like the most amazing couple. And last week they were great. And then Aeron and I made some joke about all the hot guys in college and Maddie was like oh no we're still really good. This can't be real. This has to be one of Keifers really mean jokes... I'm having a heart attack. Actually.
Wow.
I'm speechless.
Also something weird is going on. What happened to my rule to only befriending gay and married guys... Rawr. (BTW this is not about Keifer...) It's weird. I hadn't thought about it till today. When Aus showed up. It was weird. After school was weirder. Whatever. Friends. We're friends. I can't go there anyway. Totally cannot do that like at all. There's so many things against that right now. Like the ex of everybody and that thing. And ok not even thinking about it. Why am I thinking about it. Step away Jessica. *shakes head* Also I hadn't thought about that other problem the whole time I was sick all weekend. Interesting, considering the last two times I was sick. (Yes this is in the same paragraph cause they're slightly related) Ok now I'm going to go find myself a gay friend.
Love,
The Ataris
(Check it out yo!)
WHAT?!?!?!?! WHAT??!??!?!?! But Maddie and Keifer are like the most amazing couple. And last week they were great. And then Aeron and I made some joke about all the hot guys in college and Maddie was like oh no we're still really good. This can't be real. This has to be one of Keifers really mean jokes... I'm having a heart attack. Actually.
Wow.
I'm speechless.
Also something weird is going on. What happened to my rule to only befriending gay and married guys... Rawr. (BTW this is not about Keifer...) It's weird. I hadn't thought about it till today. When Aus showed up. It was weird. After school was weirder. Whatever. Friends. We're friends. I can't go there anyway. Totally cannot do that like at all. There's so many things against that right now. Like the ex of everybody and that thing. And ok not even thinking about it. Why am I thinking about it. Step away Jessica. *shakes head* Also I hadn't thought about that other problem the whole time I was sick all weekend. Interesting, considering the last two times I was sick. (Yes this is in the same paragraph cause they're slightly related) Ok now I'm going to go find myself a gay friend.
Love,
The Ataris
(Check it out yo!)
I Has The Goods
I felt like blucky this morning. Now I'm kinda alright.
Stacy is amazing. She's making tour bears. That's so epic.
Rob Dyer. I love you. You are amazing. I can't wait to see you this summer. And wish you well with your adventure across Australia and New Zealand. You're such a hero and inspiration, maybe one day we'll get the chance to work together. That would be absolutely amazing!
I got the goods today. Was rather excited. And I got new pants! RAWR! that was a happy rawr. I went to Fairweather and now I have two new pairs of jeans. I like it. Also I went down a pant size, oh ya! Go me! I've been lazy this past week though with my sickness. Got a get back on all that working out stuff. I'm eating better though.
I miss MBF. I want to go to another one of his shows.
I love talking to Stacy, she's like the only other person like me that I've met. It's great. She's going to harass Mathew right now for not having an all ages show.
Anyways today, this is what it is...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXIwoeVj-6E
Love,
Happier than I should Be.
Stacy is amazing. She's making tour bears. That's so epic.
Rob Dyer. I love you. You are amazing. I can't wait to see you this summer. And wish you well with your adventure across Australia and New Zealand. You're such a hero and inspiration, maybe one day we'll get the chance to work together. That would be absolutely amazing!
I got the goods today. Was rather excited. And I got new pants! RAWR! that was a happy rawr. I went to Fairweather and now I have two new pairs of jeans. I like it. Also I went down a pant size, oh ya! Go me! I've been lazy this past week though with my sickness. Got a get back on all that working out stuff. I'm eating better though.
I miss MBF. I want to go to another one of his shows.
I love talking to Stacy, she's like the only other person like me that I've met. It's great. She's going to harass Mathew right now for not having an all ages show.
Anyways today, this is what it is...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXIwoeVj-6E
Love,
Happier than I should Be.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
The Life
remember the life you used to live before everything you did suddenly became cool a month later. me to. i miss it. planet of weed. this girl is the bomb. she's pretty too. we have doritos to eat. i remember when no one knew her. it was good. lots of stuff is like that for me. whatever. back to her.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7eKNKcR69JA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7eKNKcR69JA
At The Lost and Found
Finally adding new music to my mp3 so I'm not listening to the same stuff since January. Gross.
"I love blood, I really think nose bleeds are so pretty." "I used to get nose bleeds all the time." "Jealous"
I'm stoked.
I don't really feel like attending school tomorrow. Today really sucked. But hanging out with Scott is really cool. But it totally violates my only befriend gay guys rule. I think he's the first straight guy to get close to me since, whatever. Which almost slid today. Oh well. I hate Scott's friends though, they're so rude. Scott's girlfriend is such a princess, I hate her, so does everybody else.
"We're painting the roses red."
Didn't have to write my test. Think your idea is dumb. Still haven't got my posters. Sigh.
"My body is a temple, and sometimes my temple wants cheesecake."
Love,
"Counting stars like a runaway"
"I love blood, I really think nose bleeds are so pretty." "I used to get nose bleeds all the time." "Jealous"
I'm stoked.
I don't really feel like attending school tomorrow. Today really sucked. But hanging out with Scott is really cool. But it totally violates my only befriend gay guys rule. I think he's the first straight guy to get close to me since, whatever. Which almost slid today. Oh well. I hate Scott's friends though, they're so rude. Scott's girlfriend is such a princess, I hate her, so does everybody else.
"We're painting the roses red."
Didn't have to write my test. Think your idea is dumb. Still haven't got my posters. Sigh.
"My body is a temple, and sometimes my temple wants cheesecake."
Love,
"Counting stars like a runaway"
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
HAWT
So I really didn't want to blog today. But this just needs to be celebrated.
MySpace Presents: The Fit with Tyson Ritter
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=53168397
Love,
You Ty!
MySpace Presents: The Fit with Tyson Ritter
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=53168397
Love,
You Ty!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
On Track...
So I'm kind of behind at school since I can't talk. That's just lovely. However my posters are supposed to be arriving in the mail this week, and I'm excited to get that done. I just sent in my application for the Folk Fest and now I have to attend one of their orientations. I'm excited. Then hopefully I can sign up for one of their crews. I sent in the application for Fringe Festival which I really want to help with because that would totally be amazing. Kim said that library takes forever to get back to you on a job, because she sent hers in during the summer but they didn't call her until October, so I'm still a tad hopeful about that situation. Totally now need to work on the Bell Kids Walk though. Oh and my homework, I guess. And my CALM. Maybe I can get some CALM done today...
The Bachelor ruins my life. Why did I ever watch that show? I liked Melissa but she was to much for him. Part of him wanted that bubbliness in his life but he really needs someone boring. So have fun with Molly.
I'm really high on life right now even though I can't talk. It's good.
Love,
"You seem to good, to good to be true"
The Bachelor ruins my life. Why did I ever watch that show? I liked Melissa but she was to much for him. Part of him wanted that bubbliness in his life but he really needs someone boring. So have fun with Molly.
I'm really high on life right now even though I can't talk. It's good.
Love,
"You seem to good, to good to be true"
Monday, March 2, 2009
I Do Not
Want to really say anything today. I think all we need can be expressed through music. And I've heard some good songs recently and have been reminded of some amazing ones.
I hate Addicted, but love this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BtVLktXxhBk
Amazing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE2rD1yhD8k
I want to see her play, but probably won't go. I can't believe I was privileged enough to see this live.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JiUJaoiEbRA
I love this song. And her.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VdfWfxUtqko&feature=related
I wanted to find the actual music video but could not.
Remember this amazing lady from Canadian Idol?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSK5NAhOng0
I think that's all for now. You're looking at the next Clive Davis.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clive_Davis
Educate yourself.
Submitted my application.
Saw a doctor.
Love,
Tell me how I'm going to get it right?
I hate Addicted, but love this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BtVLktXxhBk
Amazing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE2rD1yhD8k
I want to see her play, but probably won't go. I can't believe I was privileged enough to see this live.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JiUJaoiEbRA
I love this song. And her.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VdfWfxUtqko&feature=related
I wanted to find the actual music video but could not.
Remember this amazing lady from Canadian Idol?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSK5NAhOng0
I think that's all for now. You're looking at the next Clive Davis.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clive_Davis
Educate yourself.
Submitted my application.
Saw a doctor.
Love,
Tell me how I'm going to get it right?
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