I really need you to post. It makes me feel like I'm not alone. I told you that once about your music. People can make fun of me but that's something I won't let them take away from me. Today sucked huge. I got supporting cast. I ran into him. (I'm still not ready to talk about that one just yet). You responded to my status. You didn't have to. Everything was fine when we just ignored each other. But I think you remembered something last week. I love you. You are absolutely amazing. If I have found one true friend at that place it is you. I can talk to you about anything. You seem to be the only sane person around. But then you asked what happened between him and I. You even said you were all over each other at after gala. Which we were not. Really. And he just hit a wound that hasn't healed yet. I have a lot of those. It sucks. Today sucked. I want to go to bed. But my brain is reeling and my body hurts. I have to take the bus way too early tomorrow. I hope you're there on Wednesday. I want to talk to you now. All I can think about is curling up beside you and not letting go. Or just taking you by the hand and going to hang out somewhere like old times. I was angry at first but now I just want to be with you. I've been trying to imagine the girl I would've become if things would've stayed like that. It scares me. Maybe I'll write more tomorrow. Hard to tell.
Love,
Not so much anymore.
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