Saturday, June 20, 2009

Just When You Had Me Believing I Could Feel Again

I could give a million reasons why we should not be friends...
Your a tease, your a cock-blocker, your a loud mouthed bitch and a big talker, but that's ok.

I love being your friend. As much as it may sometimes confuse me. I was in a shitty mood and you made me really happy. You know just what buttons to push. You know when a giggle is about to happen. I love you, but I don't love you.

I know you'll go back to him, and maybe you should.
Hope you don't go backwards, I'm going on ahead.

Now you have to buy the goddamn song on myspace.
Hi. Oh shit.

I wanted to do what I did with his lyrics with another favourite musician of mine.
This could take a while.

Is this promenade a musician?
And all that man can do is always compare original?
Doesn't matter what I say all I know is I got it in me.
And why do all the other records sound the same?
And I can stay right here.
And I ain't going off to pee.
But you won't hear one word I say.
No you're not listening.
So what I'm doing nothing here.
This time I'll play when the talented people don't show up.
If I don't got nothing good to say
So then why say it?
And I can stay right here.
And I ain't going off to pee.
But you won't hear one word I say.
Shutup and say.
"Yeah. I thought the punk scene was about unity
and creating an atmosphere of uh think for yourself.
Do what you want and not care about what other people thought about you.
It's not about creating cliques and trying to take what punk is.
Punk is what you want it to be.
It's about what anybody wants it to be.
It's about what you control it should be.
Punk's what you think it is."
I'm just standing here and people doing philosophy.
And it won't make one total difference on penny royalties.

I didn't mean to leave you hanging on
I didn't mean to leave you all alone
I didn't know what to say

The first star I see may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait.
So let's wait for one more.
The time such clumsy time in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful but not sure how it goes.
You can loose yourself in your courage.
The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.
This is what she says gets her through it:
"If I don't let myself by happy now then when?"
If not now when?

With pride keep every failure in.
And with pride hold on to the sinking.
Now in the deep and down your heart moves.
Now in the deep and down, I don't know how but I know I want out.
Wait for something better.

Wait for something better?
I shouldn't, it's not enough.
Pull one excuse from another.
Just one excuse from another.
This time it means us. stop.

You say the most beautiful things,
an endless list of treasures of trimmings.
It takes all my faith just to start
I don't care now how much I'm wrong
my song it shames your ears
every sentence a failure.
Slant rhyme is all I can give half truth is all I'll get.
Show us all what grace can mean,
all of what I might be.
Close your eyes call it escape.
We'll run away from everything
Lie to me,
love me
We'll run away from everything.

I’m not crazy cause I take the right pills everyday.

Are you gonna live your life wonderin’ standing in the back lookin’ around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you’ve grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.
I’m on my feet, I’m on the floor, I’m good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out.
Someone's gonna ask you what it’s all about.
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down.
Someone's gonna ask you what it’s all about.
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?
I’m on my feet, I’m on the floor, I’m good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Our house in the middle of the street, why did we ever meet?
Started my rock 'n roll fantasy.
Don't don't, don't let's start, why did we ever part?
Kick start my rock 'n rollen heart.
I’m on my feet, I’m on the floor, I’m good to go.
So come on Davey, sing me somethin’ that I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Here tonight.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.


If you still care at all, don't go, tell me now.
If you love me at all, please don't, tell me now.

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?

I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

I see it around me, I see it in everything.
I could be so much more than this.
I said my goodbye's this is my sundown.
I'm gonna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I need you to show me the way from crazy.
I wanna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
Good goodbye lovely time.
Good goodbye tin sunshine.
Good goodbye I'll be fine.
Good goodbye, good goodnight.

Can't say I was never wrong
But some blame rests on you
Work and play they're never okay
To mix the way we do

I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away


i'm in love with the ordinary
i need a simple space
and rest my head
everything gets clear
well i'm a little ashamed for asking
but just a little helps
it gets me straight again
helps me get over it (over it)
it might seem like a dream
but it's real to me
don't it feel like sunshine afterall
the world we love forever, gone
we're only just as happy
as everyone else seems to think we are

you should see the canals are freezing
you should see me high
you should just be here
be with me here

it doesn't seem theres hope for me
i let you down
but i won't give in now
not for any amount


I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.
Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.
[Chorus]
It's a lie. A kiss with open eyes
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are hurried times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.
I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Every time I quit
Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.
I can't let it bother me.

Stay with me
You're the one I need
You make the hardest things
Seem easy
Keep my heart
Somewhere drugs don't go
Where the sunshine slows
Always keep me close
If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise you promise that you're done
But i cant tell you from the drugs
Don't let go
Well dig a great big hole
Down an endless hole
We'll both go
You're so blind!
You can't save me this time
Hope comes from inside
And I feel so low tonight
If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise you promise that you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs
I wish you could see
This face in front of me
You're sorry you swear it you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs


I'll say it straight and plain
I know I've made mistakes
I've always been afraid
I've always been afraid
A thousand nights or more
I travel east and north
Please answer the door
Can you tell me
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there

When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
Get down on your knees
Whisper what I need
Something pretty
Something pretty
I feel that when I'm old
I'll look at you and know
The world was beautiful
Then you tell me...
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
I'm done, there's nothing left to show
I try but can't let it go
Are you happy where you're standing still?
Do you really want the sugar pill?

I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll start
Tonight it feels so hard
As the train approaches Gare Du Nord
As I'm sure your kiss remains employed
Am I only dreaming?
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me


I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?


Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.

Hushed with a finger

Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh


I have a ringing in my head
And no one to help me answer it
Even with you close enough to kiss.
Every minute is arranged
Every moment lasts a day
But thinking about it can't help me let go, I know.
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
I can laugh it off.
I must look like I'm running away
To you at your faster pace
I wonder what it is you could have seen, in me.
I'm the evil one who said.
Gonna let everything just happen
Just like my chest, my ears are proud
The collision is such an ugly sound.
I can hear you now
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
And all the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
I can laugh it off.
I can hear you now
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.

I'll force a laugh to break the silence
It's gonna get harder still
Before it gets easy
You can't keep safe what wants to break
I'm alone in this
I'm as I've always been
Right behind what's happening

How you gonna know the feeling till you've lost it
I've been losing plenty since

Does it feel good like a memory
When you try some history
It's a dream to come around
The rule doesn't bend,
Because the taste doesn't taste the same again
It's easy feeling righteous when removed
All you'll get as what you wanna hear
It hurts because it should
How else am I to make it clear?
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed.
Maybe a lie is what I need sometimes
You told the most and best of anyone
You said to "keep me in your pocket"
So I carried you
You better choose your words carefully
Because I'm not your anything
Gonna stay here in my place
And you'll stay in yours because
You're only good as what you're good for
I pace around the room to spend the time
Waiting while the burning pictures fade
One thing to make your mind
And another to say its name
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed, it passed.
I'm still carrying a little hope that
Maybe things could get different now
Is that so wrong, is that so wrong, is that so wrong?
Would I see you tonight
At a place we go?
Could going through the motions, lead to real emotion?
I wanna make things right
Before time runs out.
It was like you said, the taste don't taste like it should
Roll down the windows
Let the cold air come in
Slap my face just feel you somehow again, again....


There's a chance, one of us will give in soon
I could ask, but what's an answer gonna prove?
I try to get mad, but the fever drops
My heart can't break 'cause the beating stops
Yeah, suck that lucky feeling right outta me.
Wanna laugh? Take a look around the room
It's a dance, tired steps in brand new shoes
I can only take a guess what the morning brings
If it feels too good, then it probably is.
Yeah, suck that lucky feeling right outta me
I follow your sign, where it leads I go.
But you turned your back so easily,
It tells me everything I need, yeah.
Waiting for the line to move a foot, yeah
Wasting my life on nothing good
Suck that lucky feeling right outta me
I should act; tie it down or cut you loose
It's a trap, any direction I move.
When I try to sing along, the needle skips
I huff and then I puff but my house is bricks, yeah
Suck that lucky feeling right outta me
Yeah you sucked that lucky feeling right outta me.
Yeah you sucked that lucky feeling right outta me, yeah.

On, it's on.
I declare my room a scene
Gone, then gone
It's too much that they say you need
It's not perfection, yeah
How boring if it is
Nothing new for me
Light on up
With everybody watching you
Lights go down
Everything is yours to lose
First dancer takes the floor
Laugh what you can't ignore
What you gonna do
Waiting for attention
I'm not
Cut it to the left
And I rock
Need an invitation
I don't
Slide it to the right
And I roll
Here it goes
Crowning up the cool kid queen
There it goes
The competition show their teeth
I'll let them fight it out
It's just my party now
What I want to be
Stand on up
Everyone in queue in costume
Stare on out
Don't get sucked in for a second
Bright lights might say your name
They only light the stage
Nothing there to prove
Waiting for attention
I'm not
Cut it to the left
And I rock
Need an invitation
I don't
Slide it to the right
And I roll
Hey Hey Hey Hey
Don't accept critique or credit
Hey Hey Hey Hey
Definition always changes
It's not the same as yours
You could be so much more
The closer that you get

This is where our diligence has lead
The waves roll in to claim our patient steps
Can we become more than just ourselves?
And leave the sand, our want, our will, our doubt
It's firefight, I won't run.
They're spitting spite all through my blood
For you and me, there's nowhere left to hide
Except you and me, there's no one else alive
This is now the moment after next.
Are these still the eyes of a temptress?
Why open the door if you won't go?
Don't ask twice if you don't wanna know.
It's firefight, I won't run.
They're spitting spite all in my blood
For you and me, there's nowhere left to hide
Except you and me, there's no one else alive
Is there an answer?
If it's an honest one, honestly worth its question
There's no question
The city as my witness
I am who I wanna be, but you could be anything
Just be anything here with me.
Endless quotes and with the secondhand
If you let go then that's where time will stand.

i looked at you, you said to me, "jay, we're worth more" I love you Jay. You are fantastic. Don't let those fuckers tell you otherwise. I'm glad I found that. I need that place. The family we have because we all share the same feeling of hate towards Jay. :P I love you Jay.

It pisses me off when people make asses of themselves. When they say stuff they know nothing about. It ruins a lot of shit.

You say fuck a lot when your mad. Thanks Conor. Glad we figured that one out when we were 9... Hahaha...

I don't think I told you guys I saw him. I wanted cold burning air. I wanted the burning. But I didn't. I got off the bus. Actually as the bus was rolling up, I saw him. And her. But. So anyways. KFed was standing there. When I got off the bus I didn't look at him. Or back. I just walked. Away. Before. A) Puking B) Screaming C) Crying D) Punching someone's face

I need for you to leave me the fuck alone. If you only saw, what they all see. That maybe you are just a little too into me.

Thanks to those who loved me. When I could not love myself.

I have a few things to say. But I won't. I'll hold it in. Till I can see the look. The look of no surprise. The look of. You're not above that.

I'm leaving.

Best friend's here to talk.

I'm out.

Love,
I gave Frankenstein life. I created my own monster.

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