I wish there were more people out there like you.
My glasses are so loose, it's pissing me off so much. I must get this fixed tomorrow before they drive me out of my mind.
What am I supposed to do about chemistry?!?! AH!
During my days off. I hope to study. Work out. Watch movies. Write a song. Or two.
Elaine wants movie nights. That's wicked. I'm so into that. Elaine's house is so ghetto. I love it. It's totally where I'm going to end up living.
Apparently TO is like a huge factory village like where we took a wrong turn in LA, or like the meat packing district in NY. That actually rather excites me. There's so much music stuff happening right now in TO. And I'm not there yet. That makes me mad. Maybe I'll attempt that test this week.
Dan Dan Hair makes me laugh. Todays looks more like his and less nice.
Tomorrow not going to go downstairs. Will go to library. Will get that done. Will be productive. Will stop hiding from life. Name in lights. Watched Tony's. Made me miss theater. Every time somethign would happen on the show I wanted to cry. I'm such a strange person. I hope you come to school tomorrow. Although you probably won't. One day I'll probably be an American citizen. That kind of scares me. I'm so ready for what that Dr. said. That when high school is over we can all go our seperate ways and find people that we actually like, that actually like us. Because we all like to do the same things.
Didn't get to bed till 2 thanks to my new friend. Only have half of the social questions done so far. The first 7 were common sense. Then the governement reading threw me off. Got to prepare for essay. Right. I wish teacher's would spread work out instead of making us do everything the last week of school.
Musical numbers tomorrow. Sigh. Like I remember any of them... This sucks. I'm done with this. I'm actually extremely done with you. Almost every single one of you. I can still hang out with the guys and my one friend, but honestly I've had enough with everyone else. I can't wait for summer to start. I need a break. It's like you can only be happy for so long. Till you can be genuinely happy. Till that smile someone once told me to put there is real. I remember when you told me that if people pissed me off just to throw rocks at them. I wonder if you know how much you truely helped me. I feel no hate towards you. Truely. I'm so lost right now. I actually wish I could talk to you. You kind of started this madness. I love you for it. Should I run, should i? Why's my spell check no longer working. I once did have good intentions. Apparently no longer. I love your room. It's peaceful. It's a good place to do yoga. Do we have to invite her? Yes because we need to keep up our appearances with everyone else... Oh... I get it now... Ugh why aren't I in bed yet. WH do we say I sleep like a log? Logs are breathing. Do not possess animal kingdom qualities that would reguire them to sleep. And they are decaying. So does that mean we are sleeping as deeply as the dead? and inside a log there is always organisms working away. So in a sense a log never sleeeps. SHE"S A COMMUNIST! THAT LIZA! Why did you start drinking? Hmm that's a good question. And we can't afford the rent. I really need to save up. That is not going to work well for me. I need to save for these holidays. For these concerts. For moving to one of the most expensive places to live. I think I actually need to go to Metal Works. I can't do calculus and get a business degree. The only other thing I got is an BFA. So here's to one year at an institute, then working the rest of life. I should stop thinking. Stare at this movie screen. I wonder could it be?
Love,
living The Red CarPet LifE
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