Midnight Train

Phew.
Stressful day. Whatever. Stoich test tomorrow. Gross. I might just have started understand organic chem today! YAY! So tired. Speidi makes me rage. With this song. Say goodbye. I'm not sure what to write. What will be right. Can it be. And you see I'm a comm-y homo loving freak so it's all good. What an Inconvenient Truth. I loved the grin on your face right there. You are strong and amazing. I'm glad I could help your ego grow today. Like I mean we're not in school stuff because we're actually talented. Awwww thanks. People leaving like that and talking piss me off. Yelled at a few people by accident, I'm just in that mood. Where my brain seems to be collapsin. In on it's slef. I've given up on typing. Fuck this. Fuck my phone. Actually no. Don't. I love my phone. It started working for me today! YAy!

Yesterday as I was fuming in class. Angela taught me a few things. Like how just chilling back is chill. Then we got to listen to some tunes. And your voice actually calmed me down. Listening to you talk about where I got started. How this whole thing began. It gave me a second of space. It was great. Then i talked to Stef. Had her on my concious all night. But I love her. Bad nightmares. Yikes! I'm so worried about you right now the drugs, alcohol, ED, money, living situation and what people have to say to me about it fucking pushes me off the edge. You don't even know the half of it. At all. I don't even know the half of it. Because you won't let me in,w hich scares me anymore. I almost hit you today. Watching you lie straight to my face. Am I not worth the truth? Now I feel even worse about that other thing. Fudge.... Oh well guess I'll just learn to say it non-chalantly like everyone else: well there were no new marks. Fuck that. Fuck that.
Love,
Oh not here. STFU!