67: Why Did You Say That?

My luck number.
Thank you Ashley.
RENT.
Whatever.
Some kids have talent. But it's rare.
Ruel makes me smile. He just like picked me up and gave me the hugest hug. And then I almost cried when he was standing infront of me singing Will I. He was one of the only people with true emotion. And then when Roger threw Mark to the ground I died inside. I totally died. I love Mark. Liam totally owned it. Bryce. My new hero. It's just weird that he has so many muscles. UGH! Uhm Jenna, do oyu realize how that just sounded...
Keep up the good work. You soon will be rewarded financially.
An admirer is too shy to approach you.
Hi, I haven't seen you in forever.
You didn't pull me up like he did.
That was the most awkward hug of life.
Then you talked to her. That's cool...
Intermission. The uhm latex. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Ruel you are hilarious.
I thought A could have done a better job.
I thought the coffin was too much.
Some of that stuff. If the director or choreographer told me about it. I would have walked out. I've done it before.
Afterwards it's all talk. It's all lies.
What did you think?
*HUG*
It was good.
Ugh I'm so warm in this.
*shows the four layers of clothing*
I only feel bad for you a little bit.
Yeah you are one of those people who would tell a poor starving African child to stop whining and to go get a job...
*gasp*
But you know I love you.
*pulls in*
Now why the fuck would you say that. Why the fuck would you say any of that. I hate you. SO much.
I used to want to be with you. But now I'd prefer it if you'd just stay away. I had so many things to say but didn't say any of them.
It's like you forgot failed attempts. You forgot the arguements. You forgot her. And her. You forgot calling me things you porbably had a right to at the time. You forgot leaving me there.
If you wanted to talk to me you could have called me or emailed me or messaged me or talked to me when I talked to you.
But it's too late.
I don't even want to share my thoughts on this here. I'm going to listen to some music and sleep. Maybe. If I get any sleep for the next few weeks I'll be amazed.
Everyone thinks it's a happy song but I wrote it about being with a girl I didn't really like. I mean she was crazy.
I'm going places in life.
Love,
Live for today, not tomorrow.