It's The Burning That I Don't Feel But Too Much Of One Thing Is Never Good

There's just something about this song that is so right...


I felt some interesting things today...


This sometimes explains it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NOkQ4dYVaM

I thought tonight was going to be good. But then. I'm not sure. We met up. I wasn't feeling the same. Happiness. As I usually exhibit. The conversation. Seemed short. Heartless. And above all things. A waste of energy. Time. The usual. Sure the tour was uneventful. But I was still excited to be there. You were on opposing sides of the spectrum. Somedays worrying about the person your with. Consumes all else. It can ruin your day. That's how I felt today. The last time we were chilling together. Was the first time I felt I had connected. In a long time. But today was just emptiness. No one came to visit my planet. Nor I there's. My planet seems so far away from everything else. Everyone else. Much like the two levels of living. I feel I thrive on the first. I feel eyes. All the time. I feel thoughts and judgements. I'm never trying to impress people. I never care what they think. But when they attack. When their eyes sink in. It's a whole new level. They can spit all their insults but nothing they say is gonna change us. And, to be frank, I'm done. Like seriously. Either be my friend or not. Don't be my 'friend'. That's the stupidest waste of time ever. Well I guess that's me. It's weird on my planet. Everything is shot from a different angel. The thoughts are different. Faster. More complex. It doesn't hurt that you think those things. It's because I love people like that. The people that love me back. The ones that suffer of things you make jokes on. It's lonely on my planet. Somedays I don't mind. Days like today I hated it. I hated you for being there. On my planet. I've always got to be one step ahead. Aware of my surroundings. I was there. And you know I was worth it. But if I wasn't worth it. That makes me worth something. It wasn't like you to pick up the phone. To tell me one thing. And execute another. I wanted to stay. But once again. I let someone else get in the way. I wanted to help. You didn't. So I went with you. Why? It's not like we talked. I hate people who aren't prepared. But if you listen closely now. I've been singing alone all along. When I talked to you. Those years ago. You understood. The smile. The punches. The tears. Thank you for that.

I wish words made sense. That actions counted as something. That this was over. All I want is the loft. And a Mac. And to not be here. I don't want to do this stupid shit everyone seems consumed with. I'm tired of it being a joke. That I seem to be the cue to laugh.

Now these lies are unlikely
But better than my truth
I'm scared to show the scars
I try so hard to hide from you.
Tomorrow's looking worse
Than the other day before
What's that even mean
Like I could care

One more sip
To Complete Regret
Can I get out of this overflow
Alive
Will tomorrow let me know
What happened this night
The look on your face
Says no

Now maybe there was one
Drink too many offered up
When I aim to please
Keeping this all bottled up
It's ripping at the seams
There's nothing to hold on
The bottle's looking empty
And you might just be the one
To say that's it your done
To take me far away
Oh I wish it was your face
With all these things to say

One more sip
To Complete Regret
Can I get out of this overflow
Alive
Will tomorrow let me know
What happened this night
The look on your face
Says no

One more sip
Till cloudy weather
There's a high chance of hate
With minimal remorse
Take the keys
Without these chains

One more sip
To Complete Regret
Can I get out of this overflow
Alive
Will tomorrow let me know
What happened this night
The look on your face
Says no

Love,
Nothing to be afraid of. Always looking up.