I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls

“There were nights we’d stare at the skyline

planning the sunrise

saying our whole lives

we’ll make it out;

But we were so young

that we didn’t need

our whole lives laid out in front of us.

Because when the lights go down,

we’ll be safe and sound,

We’ll take control of the world

like it’s all we have to hold on to;

and we’ll be a Dream.”

It was so weird today sitting on the train. Them questioning me about if I was going to audition. If I'd ever audition for Triple Sensation. It's weird to think that there are people out there who think that, that is my dream. It was once my dream. But I've realized that I wouldn't be fulfilled doing it. I can't imagine myself running from audition to audition, walking amoung girls with outturned feet. Sure I love it. But music just interests me so much more because I can work the business into it. The selling of the souls. Maybe I just didn't want to sell my soul. All of this work has to be for something doesn't it?

I feel like I talk a lot and always want to tell people my life story and I never really get to learn anything about them. New goal is to work on this. Oh and get more exercise. I've been lacking in that department as of recent. But not eating donuts everyday seems to be working. My plaid shirt I couldn't roll the sleeves up before but now I can and they are loose! WHAT?!?! Yay!

I need to pee. I've noticed I talk about the bathroom lots. The-Rapist has too. I wonder what Freud thinks of that.

I think I might go watch that movie again. I relate to that psychotic depressive guy.

I want to go out to a nice restaurant and feel important and get good service. But why does no one seem to want to join me? Am I the only person who appreciates good service? Am I the only person who appreciates a good time? Or doing something for myself?

"like if i was talking about th cows i saw in spain, all of a sudden it reminds u of something, and then u tell ur own story and ppl forget about my story lol"

I really like Take It Home. It's a gooder. ICE ICE!!!!

How am I supposed to flirt with band guys if Colin's there? Ah well, I'll find a way. Cause I'm magical.

How this post has changed. Maybe that's what she's talking about.

Love,
Read a book once. He thought peeing was the most peaceful natural thing ever. He did it in the dark. So that he could only feel and there was nothing to distract him.

PS. ME AND TRAVIS BOTH HAVE SPIDER PROBLEMS!