I forget the amount of times I lie in a day.
The happiest I've ever been is when I can feel the bass running all over my body.
I could sit in a room for hours just listening to someone jam on a guitar.
I walked away from it again today.
I've never ACTUALLY TRUELY kissed anyone.
I'm glad you weren't it and that I didn't settle for you.
That's the biggest one I've kept.
It's eating me alive to know that you know I lied to you this weekend.
Black MJ is soooo much better.
Usually when I find a guy attractive he turns out to be gay.
I believe we are all bisexual, some of us are forced to ignore that because of religion.
I believe being homosexual has nothing to do with lifestyle.
I like boys, but that doesn't mean I can't think a girl is pretty.
The thing I hate the most is when people can't accept that.
I used to create friends to survive.
I'm done surviving. I'm living.
I don't get those nerves anymore. It makes me sad.
I want to go to the Metal Works Institute.
I will always regret not being able to save.
I will hate myself everyday for thinking of you.
I don't mind going first for class presentations.
As soon as I became myself at that place, the people I used to know hated me, and the people who hated me before began to like me.
It doesn't matter how young we were. It was still real.
Child rearing is never the solution.
I couldn't sleep for days, knowing your plans.
I hate that I can't save you from yourself, the helpless romantic in you will always get you in harmful situations.
I hate myself because you weren't able to confide in me when you were going through that.
I'm working on networking.
Helping out Billy.
I read postsecret every week without fail.
Every week I hear at least one new band.
I hope you can come this summer.
As soon as I began to like my appearance, I got glasses and braces.
I used to lock myself in the bathroom.
Awkward silences used to kill me, now I delight in them.
Every thing I do is because of you.
I miss both of you everyday.
The thing that killed me the most was that no one else knew. I talked to both of you everyday, not that anyone knew. Except me and you.
It's because of my grandmother that I began to fully appreciate myself.
She was the first person I told everything to.
Sometimes I think she's glad you passed away because now I have no one to talk to but her.
Everytime I'm baking I want to phone you, even though you are gone. It's what I used to do all the time.
I can't deny the lump in my throat.
I would rather lie to people to keep them happy, and will tolerate all of the things I hate about them.
I need to have a time everyday where I can just spend a few minutes with myself.
When I'm with friends I find it easier to randomly talked to people.
I dyed my hair. Once.
I'm scared to get my braces off. Because I'm afraid I won't like the new me and the drill scares the shit out of me.
I don't mind laughing to myself. It allows me to realize that I'm lucky to have those memories to laugh about.
The only place I can easily judge how a person is going to act is in a concert/mosh pit situation.
I had to go to the bathroom as soon as Batman had started. I held it for two and a half hours.
I have less than five dollars in my bank account.
I always plan what I'm going to wear the day before or when I'm in the shower.
I get my best thinking done in the shower.
You have to climb mountains to get a place on my wall.
I love the Jonas Brothers. Kevin is my favourite.
I will not wear bottoms that go above my knees.
I don't know how to swim.
I don't know how to ski/snowboard.
I wish I knew how to skateboard.
I like Twitter better than Facebook.
I used to LOVE knowing when I was going to spend the day with my Uncle Cliffy, now I don't remember the last time I talked to him.
Since you died I can't handle family get togethers of any kind. That's partially of why I stay home all the time.
I used to love singing that song about that boy who ate that peanut that was mouldy or something. Now I forget how it goes.
I used to have this recurring dream about a witch outside my window. That's why I can't look out windows when its dark outside.
I wish we could all just skate around the lake for hours like we used to. It stopped that day you actually, physically hurt me. That's when I gave up on you.
Part of me loved summer camp while the other part totally despised it.
Love,
When you look at me that way you do...
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