IMAGE

I just noticed how much I truely rely on image. I'm all about the places I go, the stories I can tell afterwards, how I look when I go there, how I look afterwards, who I'm seen with, how they're dressed and how they would behave at such an event. This is the reason I find myself dateless. For she has dinner with her Rents tonight. Not that I am mad at her. Then I asked a few other people and since its Sunday night I've gotten homework excuses, grounded excuses (I've never been grounded) and other people feel uncomfortable with their children attending an event hosted by a band. I see it as being no different than a concert. People I asked in order: Amy, Sarah, Lynds, Andrea, B... Was that all? I think there was one more in there somewhere. But anyways I have encountered this dilemma because of IMAGE. It sounds bad yet it is true. I need to talk to Colin. Would it be weird if I asked Angela? I would totally bring Elaine except she's dying and lives thousands of miles away. Well not thousands. Right now I am relating too much to Stewart Little's brother. My brother is watching it. I have 170 friends on facebook, but barely want to ask 10 of them to come tonight. Now what does that say about things. About myself and about the internet. If I could I would totally bring my sister tonight. I never encountered these problems before she moved away. Because I knew I could rely on her. But now that she has moved away these thoughts go through my head on a constant basis. Then again my sister was mainly the same way when she was my age. The other night, Friday to be exact, I realized that it is because of my mother I am this way. For she is also the exact same way. It's very interesting the world we live in, don't you think?
Love,
Wandering Wonder