It's About The Music

Sure drunken escapades are funny. But are they all that's really there? What happened to the meaning to the music? Lover Dearest. A love song to drugs.

btw
his name is robert
9:56pm

fo sho?
9:57pm

"Robert is my newest friend and a very talented guitarist"
yes
its in her blog
9:57pm

WHAT!?!??!?!
on myspace?
or where?
9:57pm

myspace
im reading her blogs
9:58pm

of course you are
martin blogged
rather uneventful
rather unimpressed
9:58pm

whatever hes busy
9:58pm

true
i was like ya whatever
he's going back to NYC
big deal
yawn
9:58pm

hahah
im more interested in the music than the people
10:00pm

i've noticed that change
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yeah
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And it's cool to actually talk tot hem personally
instead of messaging them ona baord
hoping they'll talk to you randomly
10:01pm

exactly
like i could care less about their drunken escapades
i want to hear the music
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and know the emaning of the music
like Josh was like this song is about balh blah blah
or he woke up sober and was naked... thats something
hahahaha
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at least we know his songs mean something
like lover dearest
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thats true
however i've never litterally gotten into a streetfight with the IRS....
10:03pm

hahaha
im sure they mean something too but hes too showy
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he seems like he isnt even about the music anymore like its a show
10:03pm

HAZAH!
thats why random sweaty clubs are fun
like hey ocean
except less sweat
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I say hazah because of third period group. Today we were feeling each others noses. It was so weird. It was one of those you have to be there things. Talked with Mr. E he's swell.

oh and i cut off all my hair so i have no idea how they are going to do it for the show
ill probably get in shit for that too
as well as not knowing the routine
I Am Missing You... says:
hahahhahahahaha
amy says:
itll be a great practice on thurs
I Am Missing You... says:
good job
amy says:
oh and i missed last week for mt
so im pretty much a gonner
I Am Missing You... says:
i'd fail to mention it
i would mention food poisoning
i seem to get that a lot...
amy says:
hahahah
I Am Missing You... says:
not so much sine i dropped stock
amy says:
i wonder why......

I Am Missing You... says:
i think i have commitment issues
hard to say

I like weeks like this. Where we talk all the time. I really don't need other friends. It's true. I talk to you all day. And we go everywhere together.

Mr. E ruined my happy mood. I was doing well. Then he was like we're doing cross the line today. And I was like AlgkangANKGAlgankg!!!! And I really disliked the way he did it. And I didn't feel comfortable sharing with the group. Because I know how they all play the game. Plus what fun is it only playing with theater kids. We already knew we were messed up.

Words never come out right. Songs always go in the wrong directions. Been talking a lot about people watching. I wish I could just lay and drum track and HAZAH! I wonder why Ryan couldn't make it? Robert is the shitzah! Anyways. He's no towel. I really need to stop hanging out with the drama spare group. Onion loaf again on Thursday. That's such a lovely smell in a tight room jammed with 5 of us. David was AWOL on us today. We think he went to class. Or maybe like the general population, just failed to show up.

Love,
Wonder who you're... screwin... *so cute*

"I think I could ride on the bus forever. I am a big people watcher. I am not very subtle about it either. Sometimes I forget that I'm not invisible and get people looking straight back at me ...confused at why I'm staring. But people are just so bloody fascinating. I tried to write a song about this..but it didn't come out right. Hmm"

“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique, and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium; and be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is, not how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is on a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.”

- Martha Graham