Burn Burn

I fail to see it that way. Truely I do. But whatever.
Colin makes me smile.
The most I ever learned from school:
MY LIFE
(A CALM STUDY)

1/ I prepared for the future by living life.... by experiencing whatever I could.... by taking chances.... by not knowing any better. I would take on challenges and then figure out how to do them. As an example, my first basement renovation I did? I went to the library and got a book on carpentry, put it in my toolbox and did the renovation.... the customer never knew. The job turned out great and I continued the renovation business "Complete Works Contracting Ltd." for 24 years.

2/ I went to University for three years.... didn't finish.... for me I need a why to have a will. I remember those days, it was like I was running a race with no finish line. I was running my business, going to school, playing in a band, girlfriend, sports..... after a few years all that was left was the business. As for what I imagined and where I am?.... Not really. In some regards I never really imagined a future. I just got caught up in what my parents wanted and what sounded good... you know "Wife, kids, be a Doctor, lawyer". I never really set out a clear plan, that was the problem. After that I took a lot of courses, and still do to this day, I love learning.

3/ No, I would change things. I would be much less "liaise faire" with my life. I would have followed my passions and dreams and trusted that I could never fail if I did that. As I said before for me "The why is the will" I admire people who can just do something they hate because they are simply told to or because they should or have nothing better to do. I don't know if I answered the question. I would have been more pro-active in my life. Trusted my feelings and tempered what others wanted for me, all good intentions I might add.

4/ There are many people who have touched my life: parents, family, family friends, friends, clients, teachers....etc. I don't know if I can say I have ever had a true mentor, by definition.... I guess I would say my father is my mentor. As for tips?? Live with passion, follow dreams, believe..... believe in yourself..... but (there is always a but) Plan a life, then live your plan.... with passion. I have some more "tips" coming up. I get a little carried away on questions 6 and 8. (Disclaimer! This is just my rant about life. I would advise talking to parents or counselors for advice...lol)

5/ Simply answer... Acting, and Music. From a young age, I knew I always wanted to entertain in some form. In grade two I remember putting on skits. In grade five I started playing drums. In grade eight, I wrote and directed a play. In grade ten I took Drama 10... all through high school and beyond I played in bands.... Back to my Drama 10, I LLLOOOVEEDDDD IT!! But, my jock, popular friends and myself thought it was kind of..... well.... to be politically incorrect and I mean to offend no one.... gay. Hey, boys at the age of 13 are a lot homophobic. (some never do get passed it) I also thought acting was a frivolous endeavor and was at best just a nice hobby. For the record: I was wrong. Acting is my love, my muse. It is cathartic for me.... when I am in rehearsal or developing a character.... I don't know my own name, what city I'm in, I am in bliss.... total commitment. So, now I live my dreams, I sing and I act.

6/ Okay, so this is where I get a little off topic and start sounding like a motivational speaker or a late night life coach selling CD's on TV. Please bear with me.... If you feel your eyes rolling at any time, it is Okay.... or if you would like to buy my CD program...hahaha.

Challenging aspect of my job and life?.... Being proud, content, fulfilled and happy with both. I still struggle with this today, but I have found some ways to "get around it".

i) Do not make comparisons to others. (It is not healthy)

ii) Learn and identify your wants and needs. (There is a big difference between the two)

iii) Perfectionism is a disease. (It leads to disappointment)

iv) Dream big.... but (That damn "but" again) make small attainable daily, weekly, monthly, etc. goals toward the dream. (Just wanting something is not enough)

v) Now try to follow this one.... I think that being proud, content, fulfilled, and happy are all side effects. There are some that say you can choose to be happy, choose to be proud, make a goal to be fulfilled. "Self-fulfilling prophecy"..... "you are what you think you are".... "fake it until you make it"..... I think not. (Oh! and yes. I went through my self-help phase, I still have all the books and tapes). What I discovered was in no book or tape. What I found was quite simply.... it's all a side effect. It's just like taking an antibiotic for a soar throat, you will also have the side effect of clearing up acne.
I told you it would be hard to follow. Okay, I am not being fair. Try this, think back on sometime in your life when you were doing something you enjoyed. Gardening, talking with a good friend, winning a big game, helping someone, seeing a double rainbow. Then for just a spilt second, you have this fleeting moment where you go "I'm happy"..... Do beautiful, meaningful, challenging, passionate.... whatever stuff in your life.... and you will get the side effects of a life you are proud of, full of happy moments.... Hey! it works for me.

7/ Acting, singing, entertaining.... motivational speaker. Then I would take the obscene amount of money I've made and help others, stop some injustice, etc....anonymously.

8/ I hate it when my own words are used against me....and when people pay attention...lol. (Hey, what was the original 8th question?)

"ALL WENT WRONG" This might seem vague.... What I will say is "don't keep secrets" They will eat you alive. No matter how awful you think something is or you may have done, tell someone..... Be careful of the mantras and mottos you make about yourself and life. Forgive yourself... remember when you look back, we were all doing the best we could in the moment..... Say your sorry, learn from it and move on. Life is short and exciting...... ENJOY IT!


Thank you for this opportunity to share a bit of my life and thoughts with you....hey.... I just had a happy moment.

And just when you thought everything was about you. It started to be about something totally different. I got swept up and let myself believe it was about you but looking back. It wasn't.
There's a girl I know
As amazing as this summer rain
That coats us through our teenage years
The life she's been given
Is one she should not be living
She's so much better than this

The pain
Are the tears that she cries
Her life's not so storybook simple
It won't wash away that easy
No it won't wash away that easy
This time

Is this all that she was meant for
Her only dreams are to relive midnight summer's screams
With those who reach and know her pitch
Why won't the world just understand for once
Would it be so hard for it all to be just a nightmare

The pain
Are the tears that she cries
Her life's not so storybook simple
It won't wash away that easy
No it won't wash away that easy
This time

She deserves it
I've never asked this world for much
But can't you just help out once
The friends that don't get it
Just add to this big fight
Her family's the reason
She won't go home at night
No she won't go home at night.

The pain
Are the tears that she cries
Her life's not so storybook simple
It won't wash away that easy
No it won't wash away that easy
This time

However. You might want to reread this one.

Your struggle isn't original
Life with you is fake reality
Maybe you will wake up from this
This tunnel vision a coma

The wound is still deep
Not that you'd notice
You're so caught up in your own grief
Other lives are suffering
But it's not like you'd care

If you keep your eyes closed
The ignorance will blind you
Wake up from your own nightmare
And see that everyone else is dying too
You're not anything special
You're not anything new.

Just take a step back
You're dragging the rest down to darkness
Your weight is so heavy
No one is getting anything in return
Disappear because they won't look back
Don't try to make an effort
You are just another let down

Chorus

You can't stay there
On your imaginary throne of air

Michael J. Fox. Tlaking about art. Was interesting. Highly interesting.
Where did you try? Please provide examples to support your thesis. I don't feel the sting. Not that it is do I feel anything. For I am just an actor, in the sense used as being that my body is merely a capsule that absorbs everything and then will only use certain memories, words and ideas to convey art. We are nothing but our art.
The truth is I never found God on a corner. I hadn't found him anywhere. Something about cigarettes rings a bell. Lots of things ring bells. Ah bells. The bells that chime down town on the perfect evening with the person all your love goes to. That is something. I'm thinking of going to talk to my people. Depends on my energy levels. Of what happens when I tell you. It was something WE shared. Then someone took that away. Well what else is new? Oh Papa John's. I don't eat ham. You're weird. But you still love me. We should chill again this weekend. Or anytime as a matter of fact. 76 in Chem. That's an achievement.
Our Lady Peace. Burn Burn. Coming Soon.
Kevin Rudolf is life.
Your car smells. Oh gawd, my jacket... Win.
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2009
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Love,
I used to want to go to Vancouver. I wanted to runaway. But then those fuckers followed. Nothing at all.