Yawn. Why am I still awake? Babysat tonight. Rather chill. Outside mostly. Ran 1.63 today in 20. Felt good. Woke up at 12. For Amy went to the bathroom and the hail was really loud on her window. We made ourselves homemade waffles and watched Step-Mom. Because we roll that way. Last night Carol picked me up. Chilling in the car with Carol and Stephanie's. So funny and awkward. It was great. Show lasted half an hour. Amy's group totally killed it! KILLED IT! The coaches bathing suits made me fear camel toes. That's all I'm saying. Carol and I chilled while Amy showered. Had Papa John's and Little Ceasers for supper. Michael and Logan where at the house. Chilled. Watched random tv. Drove to my house to grab things. Sat in Amy's room for 3 hours listening to music and chilling. Looking at the douchey pictures of me on her wall. I frown upon those photos. Hi Logan! Who's Jessica? That's Jessica. What? Why does she know I'm here, ooooooo that's Jessica. Don't talk to me. That makes me sad. Slept on the foamy. Not that sore surprisingly. Really debating about how to tell you and when. Because I don't want you mad at me. I really don't know what I'm doing about that anyways. Steph makes me laugh.
Pissed at Stampede. Made an appointment. Got an email saying I didn't. WTF? I need that or else she's making me go to PG. And I don't want to. Maybe if I agree to babysit for Randy and Sandy like everyday she'll let me stay. Yawn.
I fial to see how I'm the one who has to fix it. Maybe that's the problem. Maybe that's why I yelled at Alex. I hate people that don't do things for themselves. Pisses me off so much.
Randy going to see Loverboy and OLP. WTF?
Reorganized door today. Hung up poster in room. Looks good. Cleaned up room a tad. Smells better and looks better to say the least. I should really write my learners this week.
Tomorrow's going to be chill. Maybe I can convince Mom to go see Star Trek with me...
SNL TONIGHT KILLED! Justin Timberlake is great! Jimmy Fallon was there too. It was good. Ciara was lame. Sylar and other hot guy were there and so was the real Captain Kirk. Almost peed myself. Made mom record it to show her tomorrow.
Bought Mom and Dad's tickets to the A to Z of rock. Dad's stoked.
Veal is not my thing.
Chocolate cake is.
It just got really obsessive and weird. I didn't like it.
Now I'm in trouble.
She can't see me in Banff either.
Well that hurt my feelings.
Wycleff Jordan was really cool. I'm so glad I went for it.
Once again we learn that life is what we make it
I could handle you not consistantly judging me. Mmk thanks. So keep your little glances to yourself.
Well that was tense.
ya well your wearing flip flops.
What has life come to? It's busy. Still haven't phoned Gma. Wtf Jessica. Get your shit together.
One week is last minute for me. Wow and I thought I was scheduled.
Aw you dressed up for me. No, I wore this to school...
YAY $2.00 a minute. Shh....
I'm not sure what's going on anymore. But I don't understand the mixed feelings. I have the need to know but not the need to feel the care around you. I'm weird like that.
I out grew that faze. Oh trust me it started getting boring. Now we've moved on to attractive apes. And 80's hairstyles and cardigans.
A month ago I was singing a song
If you had told me then that it won't be long
I'd have laughed in your face, 'cause I thought I knew
How life seemed to work,
I was wrong
It took all of the strength in the world
To put myself out there, to be vulnerable
If you had told me then it would turn out like this
I'd have never believed you,
I'd be wrong
Chorus
And all of those doubts I had are gone
You took me in your arms, and I can't let you go
And you say that you're lucky if you find it in the first one
Well I guess,
That's me.
Where would I be if I hadn't found you?
Afraid and confused and alone in my room
My tribute to you and all the things you helped me through
If there's more I could do, we've got time
Chorus
You tell me a lot about how much yu hate your friends. Well it's true. Hahaha. What a peaceful day. Tell me about it. What drives people to wear these on their forehead. Look at this. I look like a douche. Wait I'm taking your picture. *peace* More evidence. You suck. Like when people get to school do they realize like OMG why am I wearing a guy's flannel button up shirt... Don't make fun of my shirt. Don't interupt me. Wearing that shirt, with boots and this thing on their forehead and then don't they go Where the fuck are my pants? I can see you doing that. What? Yeah after a bad night I just see you walking the streets like that. Thanks bud. Love you to. Hey I'm keeping clean. I don't understand what her problem is, she thinks its poison. Wish I always had that mind set.
Love,
I'm sorry, I broke it. I broke it all.
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