You're A Towel

How it has come to this astounds me.
We're sitting there. In a group. This song comes in and I feel it change. I think you did too. But then again we can never know exactly what another person is feeling.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnwLf88t_Wc
Is it all in my head? All the words. You haven't said. Sitting in that room with a mirror. The rear view mirror. Catching a glimpse. I feel safe with you. It's weird, but when you're around I just feel safe. Like nothing could happen to any of us. Usually going in the car with someone makes me nervous. I never even thought about it once with you. After all the great things I feel about you. I saw it today. How you are still just a boy. Shoving nacho's in your face, I saw it. You held the door open. Your smile. You bring up her. I don't want to here it. I don't want to here about you guys going camping together. I truely don't. Or how you wish to plan your life that way. Watching you be truthful just captures me whole. Speaking about your family. It's strangely amazing how we just connected and kind of told each other everything. How that day you noticed. When no one else noticed. You did.
I don't remember which boy asked me to come, but once I convinced Z we went and watched them eat. Because we're like that. We got into our discussions of course. Scott yelled cause we hadn't done up our seat belts yet. When we left he checked. It was cute. We some how got to what you would do and for how much money. Cameron's pretty easy no lie. He said I could taser him in the balls for a million dollars. The lady in the Starbucks drive thru seemed unimpressed. Then we shook the car. HAHAHAHA! She tells us to wait a moment. We do. When she comes back, Scott realized we're going to be late for next class. So we just speed off. Except not, because Scott is the safest driver in the world its crazy. However his car makes me want to die, no air flow. HE WOULD LAWYER YOUR ASS! DAVID YOUR WINDOWS OPEN FUCK! You're a towel. Shit! We debate missing last period to dance in the rain. It hadn't even began to rain yet. We went to class. Jessie brought the bed back! YAY! Now we can chill in there. Z and I promised to eat next week with them. After school chilling with everyone in theater. Cameron pushing me around of course. He apparently wants to see me high. I'd rather not. Drugs are bad. Don't do drugs kids! become a popstar and they'll give them to you for free!!!!

'm tired of my life
I feel so in between
I'm sick of all my friends
Girls can be so mean
I feel like throwing out
Everything I wear
Starting over new
Cause I'm not even there

Sometimes...
I want to get away some place
But I don't want to stay too long
Sometimes
I want a brand new day
Trying to fit in where I don't belong


, I,
I can see it in your eyes
Taste it in our first kiss
Stranger in this lonely town (this lonely town)
Save me from my emptiness (save me)

You took my hand
You told me it would be ok
I trusted you to hold my heart
Now fate is pulling me away, from you

Had a moment behind the curtains today when Sam sang. "A summer full of passion" I almost cried. Instead I acted out. I went psycho. MY UNITED STATES OF WHATEVER! WHATEVER! But when you walked in, chill. Total chill.

I saw it in the news
You told me they were wrong
And I stood up for you
'Cause I believed you were the one

You had all the chances in the world
To let me know the truth
What the hell's wrong with you?

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

I'm so mad at you right now
I can't even find the words
And you're on the way down
I can't wait to see you burn
You try to make me hate that girl
When I should be hating you
What the hell's wrong with you?

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were
(than you ever were)
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

Nothing can save you now that it's over
I guess that you'll find out when you're no one
Don't say you're sorry now 'cause I just don't care

Nothing can save you now, nothing
Nothing can save you now, nothing

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
You're eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were
(than you ever were)
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were


We got the same friends
We're gonna have to see each other eventually
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that
(how we're gonna deal with that, how we're gonna deal with that)
My CD's are at your place
And you know I'm gonna have to pick 'em up
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that
(how we're gonna deal with that, how we're gonna deal with that)

Even though it was mutual, it still kills inside
'Cause for so long, how I've been defined

Love,
I want so much to open your eyes... You're a towel.